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Dear You

I'm confused, what to I want to do? Who do I go to? Neil, ANgel, Chris, tohers? I dont think that I have quite the same closeness to Chris as I used to.. but i still feel something.. maybe its jsut a deep need for friendship.
With Neil, it's different, it's more than friendshp, but I think it's just like a fun fling. just dont get that feeling around him that I have with other people. He's so sweet though, and I love him in a way. I think we're just meant to be friends, I dont know, I want to be more,... but at the same timei feel its not right.
Angel, its a lot easier to deal with tou than anyone else. You, are an angel, I wish I could be with you more, you just ake me feel great. I dont care that we have so many differnces, we still mesh.

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Chris: I still love you, iI probably alays will. I wish you the best in this life, and even better after. You deserved better than me and I hope that is what you get. Blessed be.
Neil: Don't think that I want to hurt you, always friends, no mater what - promise??
Angel: I'll always be with you, I'll always have a place in my heart for you. one night, we will go out and dance in the rain and drink eachother's blood.
Other Close Friends: sorry if this seems impersonal but I guess it really is, I'm sorry for how I've acted, who I was. I hope can forgive me.
All: no this is not a suicide note, I'm just getting things off my chest, I am going to be a person (yeah, bullshit ... I can hear what your thinking). Well I am going to try.
I will see/ talk to you all when.. later... anyways...

Ciao! AJ!