safari

language 
is life and love and sex and war
all quick
         things that wear down
                              replaced with food and
                                   horticulture and TV and peace

letters poems and novels read aloud
                      caress your ears 
you are so far away that all these words aloud are
                                                  out of reach

i read them thinking of the other ears you possess
        that send you out of a late night
                to gaze at something lost in the patterns of the sky
        that makes things you see and hear, here and there, remind you 
                                                                                          of me

only language tells me all is well

you you you you you you you
you language are my faerie princess
                                   silencefaerie
                                                quiet aloud

sleep 
sparse eating
reading books quickly 
murmuring poems aloud
shouting them out for the bored walls and stacks of books and paper
        to listen intently
watching the keys fly to paper 
                                i strike 
in the sequence they call upon me- clip clip clip quicker than i
can count or call which flew from its friendly rest last
the smack or click or clip or clap sound that cant be spelled proves
     beyond the movement that i am doing something- that maybe the keys
     arent selfcontrolled- typewriter isnt guiding my hands- lacking
     the muscles and motor control to drive itself to type and then to
     drink even more than me as it has written more and loved more and 
     carries more weight than my soft footsteps


***

thank you Roget
thank you Mr. Webster
thank you Whitman greybeardbard
thank you Ginsberg
thank you poet 
thank you Muses
thank you Calliope
thank you language
thank you pain

fuck you landlubbers
fuck you wordless
                 worldless
                          lifeless
         all that do not strive in the
steel stubborn
hard hurtful
pain that is

language

we are language
        latenight spells of masturbation
                          language-birth
        poetry shouted out to surrounding bored white quiet walls
        lamplight novels
        
all things
beyond the metric system
                        not empirical evidence
but truth
         which is 
                 language
                         and pain
                ***

safari
pith helmets
"Dr. Ginsberg i presume"
the veldt--
             lions
                  &
                   tigers
                         &
                          death
                               Oh My!

snows of kilimanjaro
cities of the red night
masque of the red death
heart of darkness

stories by hemingway no one will ever read
poems by whitman no one will ever read
unfinished novels of bulgakov
unwritten words

unthoughtof ideas

it's a jungle in here-- my mind
                               or yours

perfection is language
           is pain
           is eventual death
***


wichita vortex sutra's sad argument for language
heartfelt
         allmeant
                 wellread
truth

22 pages of poem that was not a "bad guess"
a prophetic expression of thentimes and nowtimes and futuretimes

        "Sorcerer’s Apprentices who lost control
                        of the simplest broomstick in the world:
                                                   Language"

somewhere overtherainbow
                        way up high

sung of kansas escape
dorothy gale
            windynamed escapist
                               who HAD to get back
poor girl who changed her mind
still had language- no place like home
no fumbling falsewizard
but glinda the good witch
                         and perfect rubyredslippers
soulsavers
kansas return
             escape from the escape of OZ

ginsberg flew into that vortex welcoming the escape to the west
and farther still each day

languagepainlanguagepainlanguagelanguagepain
that is the language
                    is why
                          is love
                                 is fuck
                                        is the selfguided safari
followtheyellowbrickroad


***

my favorite character
language
        alone
sings
      laments

lamentations
language

jeremiad- exhalation of woe and pain and sorrow for a lost love
jerusalem or new york or people or love

language, even of God, is pain
a lesson of pain (beautiful)
a lesson of language (beautiful)


you you you you you you you

i lament you
i cry you
i exhale woe for you
                    who are not lost to me
                                          nor yet found to me
i must cross the rainbow
                     enter the vortex
                                     love more pain
                                                   live more language




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