| As you may already know I lost two babies(stillbirth) 1 @7 months and the other @ 8 months. After the 2nd loss, I was told by a fertility spec. and also my perinatologist that I would not be able to conceive a child without the use of clomid. While being as high risk that I was, I decided that multiple births is not something my mind nor body could handle. I gave up all reason to have a child and begaqn looking into addoption. Well, my finical state was not the best in the world not to mention my husband and I work full time-so every corner I turned-I felt let down. My doctors thought that the reason I was lossing children was due to my antibodies seeing them as forign subjects and slowly fighting them off. We were told that when I got ready to attempt another preg. that I would need to be on an antibotic to try to trick my body. Well as I said we just gave up hope--I didn't go back on the pill nor did we use any other type of concerption. About 3 weeks later, I had this feeling and desire to take a preg. test, and I have no EARTHLY idea why, but I did and the result floored me and my husband. It was positive so I called my perinatologist and advised them of the sitituation. They were just as surprised as we were. Well I began to get upset--because I had not been taking any antibotics like they had wanted me to.(I WASN'T SUPPOSE TO GET PREG.) To make a long story short-At about 3 months into the preg. my doctors discussed the use of FRAGMIN-as an experimental drug. The price of the shot was going to be $570./mo. I would have to give my self an injection once a day for the entire preg. We could not afford this amount so I discussed it with the doctors. They contacted the phar. company that makes the drug and explained the sit. to them and these God sent people donated the shots to me and had them sent directly to my home. That was one obstacle we overcome by the Grace of God. I work at a max. security prison for men and it is a highly stressful job. After discussing my job with my doctor, he felt it would benefit me and my child for me to discontinue working until all was over with. As I have told you, our money sit. was like so many peoples in the world today. A new program had just started at work where other State Emp. could donate leave time for someone to be out on extended leave, after extingushing all there leave time. With all the doc. apt. I had been out for, I wasn't far from being out. Well I received the max. amount of hours allowed to be donnated, and it was enough time to take me 3 months after the preg. Another miricle. Well I went and applied to receive medicad and was granted it to help cover the expensive doctor's pay. Yet another miracle. The futher along I was with the preg., the worse I began to be emotionally, so at 7 months they began doing amino. to see when it would be possible to take my daughter. About 6.5 weeks before my due date, my doctor said that if the LSratio would reach 2.5 he would induce labor. Well after 2 trys it still was not high enough. When @ 5 weeks prior to my due date it reached only 2.3, I begged and pleaded for him to go ahead and let me have this child. I explained to him that I thought her chances of survival would be lots better outside my womb than in. I didnt think it worked. He thought about it and discussed it with the other doctors, and told me that he was going to do it, for some reason he felt he needed to. Labor was induced and so was the beats of my heart. To shorten this up some more...When I reached 5 cen., my baby girl's heartrate began dropping. I can remember waking up from a short nap and looking at my whole family crying. I began to plead and beg God, please dont let this happen to me again. After her heartrate dropped again I asked the doctors to please do something---anything--I had been through too much and waited too long to see my little girl be born still. I signed the papers for an emer. c-section, and they pulled out my little baby (17 inches long and weighing 5pounds), I heard a cry and wondered was I in the right room---SHE CRIED SHE IS ALIVE. Words nor tears can explain the happiness I felt in my heart. after all was over and done with the doctors talked to me and my husband and advised that if he would have waited 1 day or even 1 hour longer she would have been stillborn. I thank God and Doctor Goldkrand, Bivins and Oaks each and every day for the miracle of birth that I finally got to see. I love my little girl with all my heart and then some. She was born Dec. 24, 1994---5 weeks premature and is 3 now and as healthy as they come. She knows about her brother and sister in heaven and talks about them almost every day--just me and her. |
