In Health

By John Duffin

 

A warm, wet night settled in soft, dark folds over the state of New York. The moon, presumably hanging silently above, was like a hole in the open sky, obscuring the stars that it crossed with the inky coat it wore.

Far from the madding crowd in the largest city in America, where artificial light hissed away the darkness, a sleepy house stood.  It was no mean house, to be sure—towering over its domain of verdant lawn in quiet pride—but the primacy of the house was mocked by the thick, tall trees that grew at the edges of the lawn.  They seemed to say, “Nothing lasts forever.”  The house bore their jealous whispering with fortitude.

It would have taken a sharp eye, in this darkness, to detect the dew that gathered silently on the lawn, and on the leaves of the trees.  It might have come to the notice of a few owls, perhaps.  A mouse or two.  Certainly not the comfortably sleeping inhabitants of the house.

The house, however forbidding in the daytime, seemed welcoming at night. Its fresh coat of paint might have glowed eerily in the moonlight, but no visitor would have been deterred on a night like this one.  The door, also in excellent repair, gave way to a foyer that was remarkably homey and warm for such a large building.  A clutter of boots dwelt in an open closet, sleeping until the winter.  Beside them, a collection of dusty umbrellas mouldered away in useless companionship.  The floors were well-worn hardwood, with a friendly (but tattered) rug that invited visitors to dry their feet.

The foyer gave way to a small hall, which proudly presented doors and a stairway to the visitor.  Tasteful paintings adorned the walls, full of scenes of bucolic farm life and fishing.  One scarcely needed to see them all to understand their intent.  The entire room spoke of reverence and comfort.  The most alien visitor could not help but recognize this house as a beloved home.

The stairs that swept majestically up the wall to end in a landing gave the impression that the hall was not quite so small, after all.  Each stair was worn with the passage of hundreds of feet, but gave no sound. It was as if the stairway had been torn down, but rebuilt with love from the original materials.

The landing itself was quite arresting.  It featured many photographs and paintings, framed to obscure an otherwise boring wall.  These objects were quite unlike their brethren in the hall below, being portraits of real people.  Two of these were larger than the rest; one depicted a bald man, with forbidding brows and a serious demeanor, whose faint smile spoke of wisdom won by years of argument.  The other showed a man whose regal bearing and cold blue eyes made one shiver. His face showed few lines, even if his hair was snowy white.

Down the hallway, silent in the night, doors faced each other, jealously guarding their secrets.  One door, more honest than the rest, was tilted slightly open to reveal a small bathroom.  A preponderance of razors and other tools of vanity revealed that its clientele was largely male.

Through each door, the soft sounds of breathing could be heard, as the occupants of the house slept the hours away.  So this continued, down the straight hallway, until the last three doors were reached.  These presented only a stony silence, guarding only three empty rooms.

A visitor might travel up another flight of stairs, to visit a verdant greenhouse and its keeper, but might as easily descend the original steps, and cast about for the occupants of the other two rooms.  These two, as it turned out, could be found through one of the doors, down a dingy hallway that was not as well-kept as the rest of the house, and through a oil-stained metal door at the end of that hallway.  The door might open smoothly, on well-oiled hinges, to reveal two men in the garage that also served as a hangar.

One man was fairly lean, but muscular, with coppery skin that smoothed over sharp features.  A mustache, as black as the man’s hair, perched neatly under a mouth that was drawn thin.  Raven’s wings perched over dark brown eyes.  Both hands were covered with gloves, concealing a metallic simulacrum on one side, as too the rest of his clothing concealed the fruits of violence.  One leg was mostly bare, and it was gleaming metal. This man was sitting precariously on a sawhorse, tinkering with the engine of a Blackbird jet.

The other man sat on a nearby workbench.  He was shorter than the first man, but of a heroic proportion otherwise.  A black shock of hair resisted the tug of a nearby fan as efficiently as if it were fashioned of wire, as indeed it appeared to be in this light.  A square, jutting jaw, bristling with stubble, sat tightly under a frowning countenance framed by thick sideburns.  His skin was a paler hue, and more lined, though the man looked less upset than his companion.

“So?” this second man asked in a low, gravelly voice.

“So what?” the first replied after a moment.

“You’re sitting down here, workin’ away, not getting anything accomplished near as I can tell, brooding like you ain’t seeing what’s in front of you anyway.”

The first man grunted.  “What’s it to you?”

“Pardon me, Forge, but you ain’t exactly a peach to live with when you’ve got something on your mind.  Seems like you’re not going to talk to anybody else about it.”

Forge put his tool down for a moment.  “So, avoid me.” he said bluntly.

“Could do.  Problem is, whenever you’re like this, Ororo’s like this too. When she gets her panties in a bunch, all of us suffer.”

Forge let out a slow breath.  “I doubt Ororo would even notice what I feel like.”

“Oh, so that’s it.  Call her on it.”

“I did.” Forge replied.  “This afternoon.”

“So?”

“So I asked her to marry me, Logan.”

Logan shook his head.  “Is that why everyone was acting so damn weird at supper?  Nobody tells me anything.  What’d she say?”

Forge picked up his tool again and returned to work.  “She said she needed some time to think about it.  I suppose that ranks somewhere above ‘drop dead’.”

Logan snorted.  “For cryin’ out loud, Forge, what’s with the long face, then?  She could’ve said ‘no’.”

“She could have said ‘yes’.”

“Big decision.  ‘Ro ain’t some lovesick teenybopper.  She’s a grown woman, with responsibilities.”

Forge accelerated the pace of his work.  “She’s getting buried under those responsibilities.  She wasn’t meant to be cooped up like this.”

Logan shook his head and walked over to his friend.  “Y’know, Forge, Ororo once gave me a beautiful flower from her garden.  It was one of those hybrid types, something she’d bred herself.  It couldn’t live outside of the greenhouse.”

Forge paused.  “Are you saying that she’s like a hothouse flower?  That she can’t live outside this twisted little household?”

“I’m saying, appreciate beauty in its setting.”

The bigger man turned around angrily.  “You can see what her responsibilities are doing to her, Wolverine!  When we talked today, she was in tears because she didn’t know who she was anymore!”

Logan nodded slowly.

“She isn’t happy here!  You can see that, can’t you?” Forge demanded.

His audience sat silently for the space of a few seconds, and then replied, “She’s been happier, I’ll give you that.”

“How can you stand to look at her and see that she’s not happy?” Forge asked.  “I can’t.”

“I can’t just make her happy, Forge, or I would.”

“And so would I!” Forge continued in a crescendo.  “That’s what I want to do, is to take her someplace where she doesn’t have any worries, where her responsibilities wouldn’t extend past herself and me.”

“So you think that’ll fix everything.” Logan said slowly.

“You think she doesn’t need fixing?” Forge said.  “Look at her.  Look at what this job makes her do.  I’ve seen her happy, Logan.  It was when we were together on the Adversary’s world for that year.  We were as free as the birds.”

“So you’re saying the X-Men ain’t good for her.”

“That’s exactly what I’m saying.” Forge replied.

“She might not see it that way, Forge.”

“She’s thinking about it right now.” Forge said.  “Or maybe she just doesn’t want to tell me the bad news.”

“So you included ‘let me take you away from all of this’ in your proposal?”

“Yes.”

Logan shook his head.  “Cuts down the chance she’ll say ‘yes’.”

Forge nodded curtly.  “I know, but we can’t go on like this. 

She’s either married to me, or to her job.  Not both.”

“She’s got time for both.  Twenty four hours in a day.”

“Logan, do you know how much time she and I have spent alone together since I came to work for Xavier?” Forge demanded.

“Not offhand, no.”

“Not one night.  Not one full hour.  Maybe an hour if you add together all of the bits and pieces.  I’ve been with the X-Men for months.  Do you still think she’s got time?”

Logan sat silently for a moment.

“Of course she has time.” Forge said quietly.  Then, at a shout, “Of course she has time!  But she’s never willing to spend any of it with me!”

“For God’s sake, Forge, shut up!  You’re going to wake up the neighbours with all this yelling and bitching.”

“I’m sorry, Logan, but you can see that this is important to me.” he hissed between his teeth.  He spared a few moments to take deep breaths, and slow down his heart.  After swallowing hard, he continued.  “Look, you know Ororo.”

“Sure.”

“Outside of Jean, perhaps, you know her better than anyone else here.”

“Yeah.”

“So, you can tell me.  You know that I love Ororo, more than life itself.”

Logan grunted.  “Doesn’t take a genius to see that.  What else makes a man scream and yell at all hours?”

“So that’s obvious.  What isn’t obvious is if she loves me. 

She says she does.  She might even believe she does. 

What I want to know is, does she truly love me?”

Logan sat and pondered the question for a while.  “Seems to me,” he said, “that a person can say she loves you, and deceive you.  She can say she loves you, and deceive herself.  So you’ve gotta look at the evidence.”

“I’ve looked at the damned evidence.  It doesn’t say anything!”

Logan grunted.  “Shouldn’t you be bitching at Ororo instead of me?”

“Look.” Forge said, relenting.  “It’s not that I don’t like the people here, and it’s not that I don’t like being an X-Man, but this situation is poisonous for Ororo.  It’s killing her.  I can’t stand to watch that happening.”

“Well, maybe she’ll see it the same way.  Maybe she won’t. 

When’s she gonna give you an answer?”

“I don’t know.  I’m afraid she loves this job more than she loves me.  If she loves me at all.”

Logan put his hand on Forge’s shoulder.  “Man, you got one thing right. Ororo loves being an X-Man.  If she’s even thinkin’ about going away with you, then she’s gotta be in love, right?”

Forge smiled faintly.  “Are you sure?”

“Sure as I am that ‘Ro came back a changed woman after your year out o’ dimension.”

“Thanks, Logan.”

“No problem, Forge.”

*          *          *          *          *

The inky night broke for a moment.  Yellowish light yawned out of a squarish and cavernous maw that gaped widely to disgorge a figure.  The figure’s back was dimly coloured by the light within, hues of faded red, tired blue, and beaten brown which gave way to a unassuming grey, as the night leeched the colours away.

The maw, which was in truth a hangar door, swung shut again.  The man, no longer lit so sharply by electric light, strode easily on the pavement. The only light in the yard came from the stars, and what little leaked out around waxed and oiled paper from the greenhouse in the attic.

A sound, albeit a quiet one, came from above, as of a door or window sliding open on folding wooden arms.  The man’s ears caught the sound, but he did not slow his stride.  A rush of cool wind passed the man by, tugging at his shirt, and he smiled.

“’Night, Ororo.” he said.

“Logan.  I thought that you were Forge.” she said.  A scent of loam and sandalwood washed over Logan, as familiar as sunrise.  No less familiar was the rich alto voice that carried so well over the night’s small sounds.

“Just left him.” Logan replied.  “You can find him in the garage, if you’re interested.”

“It is not normal for you to be awake at this time of night, old friend.”

“Ha.  How would you know?  You’re usually in bed before me, darlin’. Something botherin’ you?”

“No.  Nothing.” she said.

“Hmph.  All right.  G’night.”

“What did you and Forge talk about?” she called after him.

Logan smiled, and stopped.  “Probably much the same as what you and Jean talked about.”

“I mean, what did he say?” she asked.

“Y’know, he can probably hear you through the garage door.” Logan remarked.

“Stop tormenting me, Wolverine, and tell me what I ask!”

“Not for me to say, ‘Ro.” Logan replied.

She touched down and walked over to him, laying a gentle hand on his shoulder. “Please, Logan?  It is a small thing I ask.”

“I suppose it is.” he grumbled.  “Doesn’t mean it’s the right thing t’do.”

“You will be helping us understand each other.” she said. 

“It seems that we cannot do that of late.”

“Tell you what.  You tell me what you and Jean said, and I’ll tell you what me and Forge were talking about.” he replied.

“Why would you want to know what Jean and I said?”

Ororo asked.

“So I can tell Forge if he asks me.  Fair trade.”

She made a rueful moue.  “Very well.  Jean told me that I should marry him.”

“And you were agreein’ with her, or arguin’ with her?”

Logan asked.

“I was taking the advice of a friend.  One does not argue with advice, even if one does not choose to take it.” she replied.

“Oh, so that’s the way o’ things.  Well?”

“I have not decided.”

“Walk with me, ‘Ro.”

“Gladly.”

The two friends veered off of the driveway and moved into the trees, wherein they continued for some moments before sitting before each other, cross- legged on the dirt.  Although it was very dark, both were very much aware of each other’s presence.

“Forge is worried about you.  He thinks you need t’get away from the X-Men.”

“I know.”

“What do you think about it?”

She bit her lip silently.  “I have a responsibility to you, and the rest of the X-Men, and Scott.  It would be difficult to leave.”

“No one’d say ‘boo’ if you wanted t’go off with him.  Hell, you deserve it. Bein’ leader is running you down.”

“What if I decided not to go with him?”

“What?  Nothing, I guess.  Not from the X-Men, anyway. 

It’s your life, ‘Ro.”

“You do not understand.  What do you think Forge will do?”

“I think he’ll leave.” Logan said gently.

“What do you think I should do?” she asked.

“Gah.  Don’t ask me that, ‘Ro.”

“Please, Logan.”

He grumbled.  “Hmph.  I’d sure hate t’ see you go, Ororo. 

But you follow your heart.”

She hung her head.  “I am not sure what my heart is saying, old friend.  I would prefer to follow yours.”

“Now that ain’t nice, ‘Ro, layin’ that kind o’ responsibility on me.  I can’t make that kind o’ decision for you.”

“I do not want to leave Forge.  I do not want him to leave me.”

“I think he’s gonna leave this place, with or without you.”

“Do you suppose that I could convince him to stay, here, with me?” she asked.

“I don’t think so, darlin’.” he replied sympathetically.  “T’be honest, you ain’t been giving him much o’ your time around here.”

“I know.”

“Do you love him?” Logan asked.

“Yes.” she said simply.

“Well then.” he harrumphed after a while.  “You don’t want t’ end up an old maid like me, do you?”

She smiled slowly.  “You are not an old maid.”

“I never go for the brass ring, doll.  You don’t want t’ be like me.” he answered gruffly.

She leaned forward, gathered him into her arms, and gave the old man a kiss full on the lips.  “Thank you, old friend.” she said throatily, a few centimetres from his face.

“S’what I’m here for.” he managed, and tilted his forehead forward to meet hers, gently, in the dark.

After a few moments, she disengaged.  Logan listened to her soft tread on the forest floor until it faded into the sound of a sudden wind.

He shook his head in disbelief.  “What I’m here for.  Since when am I a friggin’ marriage counsellor?”

*          *          *          *          *

A blast of noise shattered the relative peace of the night, interrupting the steady static of rainfall.  The thunder’s authority faded, and the hiss of the rain returned.  Near to the ground, which wore a pavement coat, the sound was quiet enough.  However, pavement met grass, and grass met stucco, which rose to meet an aluminum shingle roof.  Against this surface, the rain beat like a demented drummer.

This racket might have been impossible to sleep through for most, but for a woman sleeping alone in a wide bed, the noise wasn’t as loud as her dreams. She lay sprawled across the mattress, tangled in the sheets.  Long, straight red hair was pulled back from a furrowed brow.  Every few moments, a moan would escape her lips.

The woman’s rest, unquiet though it might have been, was not interrupted by the sudden clamour of a nearby telephone.  She just turned over onto her side, dragging cotton sheets with her, as the answering machine took up the call.

“You’ve reached Heather Hudson.  I may be at work; you can try to reach me there if you know the number.  I may just be busy.  Leave a message.”

“Hey, red.  Sorry t’ call so late.  Just wanted to hear your

voice, I guess.  As you’re not answering, I guess this

recording’ll have to suit me. I’ll call back again on our usual

day.”  <click>

“Good evening, Logan.” a deep, almost boyish bass said.

Logan jumped, his hand still resting on the telephone in the dark room. “Jesus, Petey, you startled me!”

“I startled you?  I suppose there is a first time for everything.”

“Guess so.” Logan said dismissively.

“Is something wrong, tovarish?  You must be troubled if even a ‘lumbering tin can’ sneaks up on you.” the voice said.

Logan smiled slightly.  “Aw, you know me, Petey.  I’m just thinkin’ about missed opportunities.  Nursing a regret or two.”

“This is no time for unhappiness, my friend.   Forge and Ororo are getting married.”

“I know.  I guess I’m the kind o’ guy who can’t see another person’s happiness without takin’ a sharp look at his own.”

“Do you think they’ll be happy?” Piotr asked frankly.

Logan paused for a minute, genuinely surprised at the question.  “Why, sure.  Why not?”

“Forge does not seem to me to share Ororo’s love of life. 

He is a cold man.”

“Naw, he ain’t cold, Petey.  He’s a feeler just like you ‘n’ me.  It’s just he doesn’t like airing his laundry much.  I’m sure he’s all silk and smiles and puppies when he’s alone with ‘Ro.”

“So he is secretive.” Piotr pressed.

“What’s wrong with that?  So am I.  So’s Ororo, for that matter.  She’s just gotten comfortable enough with us to share her life.”

“I know.  I’m just worried because he has not opened up to me.  I don’t really know what he’s like.”

Logan nodded in the dark.  “Yeah.  I can see that.  He ain’t really that hard to read, though.  You just have to find an opening.  I think he means to treat her right.”

Piotr nodded in turn.  “Well, if you think that he is the right man for her, then I will trust you.  I will try to worry no more.”

*          *          *          *          *

“Forge is going to drop dead when he sees you in that dress.”

The speaker was a woman with luxuriant red hair and an angular beauty. Her green eyes twinkled mischievously.  She was seated on the smooth marble counter of a spacious restroom.  She addressed Storm, who was wearing a tank top and a brief pair of shorts, but pressed a long white dress to her body.  The taller woman admired her reflection in a mirror.  A majestic chandelier, incongruous in a restroom, remained unlit.  All of the light in the room was natural, streaming through a window.

“I certainly hope not, Jean.  A minor stroke would be flattering, though.” she replied.  She pivoted slightly, to see another angle.  “How do you like your dress?”

Jean’s mouth quirked.  “It’s probably the best we could do for the lineup of bridesmaids you’ve got.  I think the colour will flatter me more than it will Kitty.”

“Do you think it was too much, asking her to come from Scotland for the wedding?”

“Of course not.  I think she’s thrilled that you asked.”

Ororo smiled.  “Good.  I hope so.  She seemed to be ambivalent on the matter.”

Jean nodded thoughtfully.  “Well, Ororo, she doesn’t know Forge very well. She loves and admires you a great deal, and she wants to be sure that you’ll be happy.”

“I am sure that she will come to love Forge as I do.”

“Well...” Jean giggled.

Ororo laughed also.  “All right.  Perhaps not exactly as I do.”

“Maybe you and Forge will be able to take the occasional trip to Scotland to visit the gang.”

“And we will be able to see everyone here often, I hope.”

Jean nodded.  “Have you figured out where you’re going to live yet?”

Ororo shook her head, her eyes apologetic.  “No.  I wish to live here in New York, as you know.  Perhaps upstate.  Forge is still resisting the idea.  He wants to move back to Texas.”

“Well, that’s where all of his business is, I guess.”

“I still think that we could as easily relocate here.  His apartment in Dallas is very sterile and clean.  It is very much his environment.  I wish to have my own stamp on the place where I live, and I think that he would be upset if I began to change things there.  A new home would be something that we could make together.” Storm said, pursing her lips.

“Yes.  He loves you, but when a man is as ossified a bachelor as Forge, he’s used to having things arranged his way.” Jean replied.  “He’s got to shove over and make some room for you.”

“Did you have that concern with Scott?”

“Well, no.  Scott and I have lived together since we were kids, after all. We’re kind of a strange case.  Plus, we’re not married yet.  He’s got to ask me, first.” she smiled.

“I suppose so.” Ororo said, allowing the dress to fold to her waist.  “It is not as if Forge and I have not dwelt together before, but we were alone together on the Adversary’s world. This will be different.”

“It’ll be better.” Jean said, giving Ororo a one armed-hug. 

“You’ll have him and all of your friends, too.”

*          *          *          *          *

“I just hope that we can recapture what we had on the Adversary’s world.”

The speaker was Forge.  He was addressing Logan, who was grimacing at the tight fit of the bow tie that he was fumbling with.  Forge himself looked impeccable in his tuxedo, with the exception of his own tie, which hung loose around his neck.  The two of them were standing together in a small restroom, peering into a small mirror that overlooked a marble countertop and sink.  The counter was strewn with razors and toothbrushes.

“Who knows?  If anyone can do it, it’s the two of you.” Logan replied with a grunt.  “Help me with this frigging thing, would you?”

“Shit.  Do you mean to tell me that you don’t know how to tie one of these?” Forge asked.  “I don’t either.”

“Don’t worry, Forge.” said a tall man, who stepped sideways into the room at that moment.  His skin was a pale, even shade of blue, but this unusual hue did nothing to detract from his classic good looks.  A mane of perfectly styled blond hair fell in waves to his shoulders, which were covered by a stylishly cut tuxedo.  Two metallic wings were folded close to his back, but the metallic feathers carefully did not touch the fabric. “I know how to tie one.”

“Thanks, Warren.” Forge replied, and craned his neck to allow Warren to perform the operation.  This, the handsome man did with dispatch.  He then cast a critical eye over the Cheyenne, and made some small adjustments to the hang of his jacket.

“Perfect.” he said.

“Here, Warren.  Do me too, would you?” Logan said gruffly.

“My pleasure, short stuff.” Warren replied.  He quickly went through the same motions, and then cast the same critical eye on Logan.  His fingers twitched forward, but Logan waved him off.

“Pardon me, boys.” said a broad-shouldered man as he muscled his way into the crowded room.  He spoke in a sharp Limerick brogue, which rode a majestic baritone out of a square jaw.  His red hair was trimmed down to a crew cut, and his mustache and neatly trimmed goatee almost disappeared into his florid complexion.  The collar of his tuxedo constrained a thick neck.

“Lookin’ good, Irish.” Logan said.  “Pardon me.”  With that, the short man cut out of the room to make some room for the larger man.

“How do I look?” the big man asked.

“Top notch, Sean.” said Forge.  “Thanks for making it.”

“Well, I’m the man responsible for making you an X-Man.  It was the least I could do to see you through the last couple of days of it.”  Sean smiled.

“No, I mean it.  I know you’d rather be with Moira than hanging around here.” Forge insisted.  “I’m glad you could come.”

“Happy to do it.” Banshee said, with a dismissive wave. 

“So, where are you and Ororo going on honeymoon?”

“We’re going to Hawaii.  A few days on the beach, a few days island-hopping, and then off to Dallas.”

“Sounds lovely.  Sure you don’t have room for one small Irish man and his girl?”

“Sorry.” Forge smiled.  “The plane’s a two-seater.”

“Maybe next time ‘round.” Sean said.  “You look bloody great, Warren.”

Warren’s mouth quirked.  “Too true, Sean.  We are definitely a handsome trio.”  He put his hand on Forge’s shoulder.  “Don’t worry, Forge.  Sean and I will make sure that the ladies won’t mourn the death of another eligible bachelor for too long.”

Forge chuckled.  “Just don’t work your magic on my wife.  I want her to come with me to Hawaii, remember?”

“My magic is reserved for single women only.” Warren said piously.  “That means I’ve only got thirty minutes to work on your future wife before I lose my chance.”

“Thirty minutes.” Forge said with an audible gulp.

A younger man stuck his head into the bathroom.  His hair was too short to be neatly combed, but he had applied enough mousse to make sure that his light-brown locks behaved themselves.  “Drummers are here, Forge.  They want to know where to set up.”

“Thanks, Drake.  There’s a stage right beside the nave on the back lawn. They can set up there.” Forge said.  “Just be sure that they’re not fidgeting around through the ceremony, if you could.”

“No problem.  Warren, that is a truly ugly tux.  Has your girlish fashion sense finally left you?”

“I can’t see your suit from here, Icicle, but I’ll bet it’s tan or powder blue, isn’t it?” Warren said over his shoulder.

“Guilty, but I was only thinking of you.  After all, I’ve got Opal on my arm today, and you’ve got nobody.  How will it look if all of the women are flocking around me?”

“Unique in human history.” Warren chuckled.

“Jackass.  I’m going to talk to those drummers.” Bobby said lightly as he left.

“Wait.” Forge said.  “I’ll come with you.”  He squeezed out of the small room and walked with Bobby down the hallway.

They walked together silently for a while, but then Bobby piped up.  “I think you’re really good for Storm.  I think it’s great that you two are tying the knot.”

“Thanks, Drake.” Forge replied.

“So, are you really leaving the X-Men?”

Forge looked down at him.  “You know, you’re the first person who has asked me that.  Yeah, I’m really leaving.”

Bobby nodded.  “Too bad.  What’s this I hear about you going off to live in Dallas?”

“It’s where my life is.”

“What about your life here?”

“I never meant for the X-Men to be a permanent part of my life.” Forge said.  “I just stayed for Ororo.”

“But the X-Men are going to be a permanent part of your life.  You’re marrying one, after all.” Bobby observed.

“No, I’m marrying Ororo, not Storm.  After today, she’ll be no more an X-Man than I am.”

“Than you were.” he stressed.

“Right.”

“Are you sure she’s all right with that?” Bobby asked after a few moments.

“Yes.  Look, Drake, I can see the drummers.  I’ll talk to you later.” Forge said.  He strode away from Bobby on his long legs, and pushed open a French door to the back lawn.

“Talk to you later.” Bobby said quietly.

*          *          *          *          *

The young woman sighed.  “Ororo, you look amazing.”

Jean smiled and continued to make small adjustments to the fit of Storm’s dress.  Storm was standing, arms straight out and chin tilted, in the middle of Jean’s bedroom.

“Thank you, kitten.” Ororo said.  “I hope Forge thinks so, too.”

“Oh, he’ll think so or he’ll answer to me.” Kitty replied, mock-grimly. She was seated on the bed, trying not to crease the strapless green gown that she wore.  As the young woman spoke, she tucked her fingers into the bodice of the gown and hitched it up a bit.

“Hold still, Ororo.” Jean muttered around the clasp in her mouth.

“Sorry, Jean.”

“I’m so happy for you, Ororo.  I’m glad you found your prince.” Kitty said.

“One day, yours will come too, kitten.” Storm smiled.

The girl sighed.  “I know.  I wish he’d hurry up.  I mean, I used to think that Peter was my prince, but now that I know he’s not, I’ve got nowhere to go.”

“Well, I didn’t meet Forge until I was much older than you. 

He’ll come.”

“Didn’t you hate Forge at first?  He took your powers away, after all.”

“No, kitten, I didn’t really hate him.  I was very angry at him.  I was sad and confused and frightened.  It was Forge who helped me deal with my loss of powers.  He was there for me when no one else could be.  That was when I fell in love with him.”

“So that’s why you love him?”

Ororo pursed her lips.  “Partly.  I love him because he is sensitive, and honest, and because he thinks that I am special.  He lets me see parts of him that no one else is allowed to see.”

“Well, I hope he treats you right.  I don’t like that he wants you to move to Dallas with him.”  Kitty said.

“That issue has not been decided yet.  Besides, you live in Great Britain now.  Dallas is not so much farther away than Westchester.”

Kitty nodded.  “I know.  I’m just afraid that I won’t be able to see you as often because you aren’t in the same place as everyone else.”

Ororo smiled.  “You do not always have to visit me.  I can visit you, too. Besides, it is a short trip from Dallas to New York in a Blackbird. So long as I know that you are visiting, I can meet you here.”

“Perfect!” Jean beamed, sitting back on her heels.  Then, the clasp came undone, and the dress began to unwind.

Ororo quickly clutched the dress to herself before it hit the floor. “I am sure I will appreciate this feature when Forge and I retire for the evening, Jean, but if the dress falls apart when I am before the priest, I think my husband will be jealous.”

Jean giggled.  “I suppose I could hold the dress together for you, if we can’t get the clasp to stay.”

Ororo crooked an eyebrow.  “All the way through dinner and the first dance?”

“I can just imagine!” Kitty laughed.  “Jean gets distracted by someone saying ‘pass the potatoes’, and suddenly your dress is dragging in the gravy boat!”

“It would help” Jean growled, “if this dress had a bit more to it.  You are going to look gorgeous, Ororo, but I’m not sure how you’re supposed to walk in this thing.”

“Am I not supposed to look like a woman on my wedding day?” Storm asked archly.

“Oh, don’t mind me.  If I had thirty-eight inch legs, I’d probably try to wear dresses like this, too.”

“Thank you.”

“’Try’ being the operative word, of course.” Jean said with a straight face.

*          *          *          *          *

“Wolverine.”

“Hmm?”

“Wolverine!”

“What?”

“I’ve got to talk to you.” said Bobby.

“Picked a damned stupid time to do it.  I’ve got to get out there and stand up front.”

“It’s about Forge and Storm.” he said.

Logan stopped, sighed, and turned around.  “What is it?”

“I think they’re making a mistake.” Bobby said in a rush.

“What?  Hell of a time to come out with that!  I’m glad you’re taking this crap to me and not to Forge or Ororo.  They’re nervous enough as it is without you shooting off your mouth.”

“Just shut up and listen, all right?  I can’t believe you don’t see this. Forge isn’t seeing Storm at all.  He’s seeing this image of what he’d like her to be.”

Logan shook his head.  “Look, boy, Storm’s a big girl.  She knows what she’s getting into.”

“Does she really?” Bobby pressed.  “Come on, have you talked to the guy?”

“I know him better than you do, Drake.  Hell, I know him better than I know you.”

“Then what are you doing?  Get out there and stop that wedding!  They’re going to be miserable.”

Logan glared at the taller man.  “Is that why you’re talking to me?  ‘Cause you ain’t got the balls to stand up and speak your piece?”

“No, I’m talking to you because they won’t listen to me.  Maybe they’ll listen to you, if you open your eyes for a minute and actually look at how Forge is talking and acting!”

“Goddamn it, boy, no marriage is perfect.  I’m not a friggin’ counsellor, and I don’t give advice that people don’t ask for first.  Ororo and Forge know what’s going on.  Maybe they don’t agree on everything, but that’s because they’re different people.  Doesn’t mean their differences are bigger than they are.”

“Would you just listen?  I’m saying their relationship isn’t even honest. How can you have a marriage if you don’t even know what the other person is thinking?” Bobby insisted.

“And when the hell did you come to this conclusion, Drake?  I didn’t see you at Forge’s elbow for the past month.  I didn’t see you talkin’ to Ororo every day.  This idea is from, what, a couple o’ impressions and a few minutes o’ conversation?” Logan snapped.

“I’m not wrong.” Bobby said darkly.

“Well, you ain’t proved it by me.”  Logan replied.  He stalked away, headed for the front.

“If you don’t say something, I will!” Bobby called after him. 

There was no reply.

“Shit.” he muttered.

*          *          *          *          *

The drummers began their wedding march with a simple, steady cadence that was the foundation of many Cheyenne songs.  It built steadily in volume, and then a quiet and complicated counterpoint began.  It had the syncopated, staccato style of traditional East African music.  This, too, built in volume until the two styles bled together, forming a distinctive harmony.  Order within chaos.

Forge swallowed repeatedly and unconsciously clenched his fists, staring up the aisle at the mansion, where his fiancee would soon emerge from a French door.  Logan glanced over, noticing his trepidation, and smiled slightly.  He, too, turned a bit to watch the aisle.  His eyes caught Bobby’s, who was busy staring at him.  Logan felt Bobby’s glare bore into him, and shifted uncomfortably.

Kitty, smiling brilliantly, was the first person out of the house.  She had spent a great deal of time in the rehearsal working on the proper pace to use, and was successfully resisting the temptation to speed her steps to match the music.  She winked at Logan, who winked back.

Rogue came out next, looking arresting in the strapless green gown that all of the bridesmaids wore.  She had a rather mysterious smile on, and did not turn her head to look at anyone in the crowd.

Jean stepped through the door shortly thereafter, and shared a private glance with Scott as she passed him.  Logan stared at her a bit wistfully, but accidentally caught Bobby’s eye again in so doing.  Bobby raised an eyebrow meaningfully.  Wolverine bared his teeth, but quickly composed himself.  He glanced over at Forge to see if the man had noticed the exchange, but he was oblivious, staring past the women to catch a glimpse of Storm.

Storm was a veritable vision of beauty in a long white dress that clung like a sarong.  She took small steps down the aisle toward the nave, smiling radiantly.  Her hand rested on the shoulder of Charles Xavier, who was guiding her up the aisle in the place of her long-deceased father.  His face was solemn, but he radiated pride.  Logan’s heart warmed as he saw the pair come up the aisle, and his heart was beating as strongly as the final crescendo of the drums when they parted with a kiss at the nave.

“It is my great honour to perform this ceremony.” began the man at the front of the nave.  He was tall, lean, and muscular, and wore a pair of dark sunglasses under light hair.  “I wouldn’t presume to say that I am very well acquainted with the couple, but I do know that they are both admirable people who love each other very much.”  He smiled at the assemblage.

“Get to it, Murdoch.” Wolverine whispered under his breath.

“What’s eating you, Logan?” the man returned in an equally inaudible tone, before continuing out loud, “Dearly beloved, we are gathered here to witness the marriage of Ororo Munroe and Forge.  What we join together today, let no one break apart.”

Logan stole a glance at the crowd, who were themselves staring at the couple.  They were all rapt, with happy, expectant faces.  All but Drake, who would not shed his worried, sullen glare.  He swore silently.

Turning his gaze to Ororo and Forge, he could see how happy they were. Storm was serene, a picture of both dignity and delight.  Forge was, if anything, even more entranced than she.  He barely remembered to shake a little, and probably wasn’t aware that anyone else was watching.

Little things whispered in his ear that Bobby might just be right.  Forge had struck on a proposal as a way to ‘fix’ his relationship with Ororo. Fixing people was something to be left to shrinks and doctors.

Forge loved her.  Obviously.  And wanted to make her happy.  No question. And didn’t understand that he couldn’t force her to change and keep her happy.  It almost seemed like he was trying to understand her by forcing her to fit a plan he’d drawn up.  Like the mystery would be solved that way.  He was trying to relate to her better by defining her life.

Was loving a piece of her good enough?

Hell, he hadn’t heard from either of them what Ororo was supposed to do with herself after they got married.  She wasn’t the sort of woman that would be satisfied with a life that consisted of her husband, but that was exactly what Forge wanted, maybe even expected.

And through all this, he’d just shut his eyes, shut his ears, and hummed along.

Shit.

Forge had one thing right when he asked how he could stand to see Ororo unhappy.  He couldn’t.  But now he couldn’t see how he was going to avoid it.

Storm’s a grown woman, he thought to himself.  She doesn’t need you to poke your nose in.  Leave it alone.

She’s a woman who’s about to marry a man that she can’t even talk to.

“And if there is a person present who knows any reason why these two cannot be legally married, speak now or forever hold your peace.”

He could feel Bobby staring at the back of his head, and it was burning a hole into his brain, but he couldn’t make himself speak.  Maybe you’re wrong.  Don’t screw things up for these two.

Logan looked up from his feet at exactly the wrong time, and met Ororo’s eyes.  She was smiling at him, as she must have been at everybody, but then she took in the look on his face, and her smile wilted.

“What is troubling you, Logan?” she asked softly.

Forge started, and turned around to look at Logan, a questioning frown on his face.

“Nothing, darlin’.” Logan said.  “This ceremony just makes me think of loves come and gone.  Don’t pay my sour puss any mind.”

She started to look worried and hurt.  “Please do not lie to me, old friend.  Something is troubling you, and I know that if you could help yourself, you would not let it show.  Tell me the truth.”

“Why don’t we talk about it after our vows?” Forge interjected in a low, even tone.

“Tell me, Logan.” Ororo repeated.

“Like I said, it’s nothing you should trouble yourself with, ‘Ro. Don’t let me interrupt your wedding.”

“Please, Logan.  I cannot do this if I you do not support me, and I am afraid that that is what you are not saying to me.”

“What?” said Forge hotly.  “What does he have to do with anything?”

“He is one of my dearest friends.” she said.  “He is a part of my life that I did not know was missing before I met him, and would not part with for any price.  In his way, Logan is as dear to me as you are.”

“This is our life, Windrider!  Our life.  Yours and mine. 

Not yours and mine and his.”

“He’s right, ‘Ro.  I didn’t mean to stir up trouble.”

“No, Logan.  Forge, I love you, but you must know that you cannot love me and not my life.  My life may change with time, but I will not separate myself from it.”

Forge gestured angrily.  “What’s this ‘your life’?  I thought that it was supposed to be ‘our life’.  As in you and me.  We were supposed to start over, away from this mess, remember?  Are you saying that you don’t want to do that anymore?”

“Forge, I...” she said.

“No!  This life has been wearing you down.  It’s killing you, and like an addict, you just keep clinging to it!  When are you going to wake up and see what your attachment to this ‘life’ is doing to you?  These responsibilities that you’ve piled on yourself are more than anyone could handle, but you do it anyway!  And why?”

“Why are you doing this?” she whispered.

“Because you’re hiding from the past!  Hiding from the rubble of your parents’ brownstone, trying to cover yourself up so that no one can touch you.”

“Please stop...”

“And you’re hiding from the future, too.  Living in an endless now.  You look to him to ask what you should do?  You look to Jean?  Where’s the leadership that you’re always throwing around on the field?  You can pilot a Blackbird jet, but not your own private life!  And I’m sick of it, do you hear me?”

“Please...”

“I think Destiny was right.  A storm is a sometime thing, that passes out of your life as easily as it passes in.  You don’t really love me, and you sure as hell don’t need me.  To hell with you.

“And to hell with you!” he snarled, and punched Wolverine in the jaw.  He towered over the shorter man for a moment, glaring his despite, and then stalked up the aisle toward the house.

Logan got to his feet slowly, and held out his hand.  “’Ro, I...”

She spun on her heel and took off into the sky, amid pitch-black clouds that were swiftly gathering to replace the sun.

He stared up after her as rain started to fall.  Around him, people got up from their seats and filed sadly toward the house, to get out of the wet. Jean paused to put a comforting hand on his shoulder, before running for shelter.

He still stood, getting drenched and staring up at the sky.

“You did the right thing.” Iceman offered from a few feet away.

Logan stood silent for a few moments before answering, in a raspy voice, “Maybe, but it sure as hell don’t feel like the right thing, Drake.  It feels like I drove two people apart.  I don’t think she’s going to forgive me this one.”

“Better this than years of misery.”

“You make your own damn mistakes in this life!” Logan roared.  “You make your own mistakes, and you keep them to yourself, and try to make sure that they don’t spread t’ other people’s lives.  I forgot that today, and a sweet friend o’ mine is paying for it.  I should have left her t’ make her own mistakes.  Instead, I gave her one o’ mine.”

“I’m sorry, Logan.”

“Just leave me alone, Drake.  I’d like to enjoy this storm by myself.”

 

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