melody_voyage-of-discovery-5

A VOYAGE OF DISCOVERY by Melody                                                       <<< part 4

PART 5

It was an unbearable day for Alexis. James was being impossibly distant with her whilst Nicky continually had to touch or hold her.   She was feeling stifled, trapped and dreaded the thought of not being able to tell Nicky the truth. Unfortunately she also dreaded the consequences of telling him, he would be devastated. It was all too clear from his attitude and attentiveness that he adored her, his joy was evident and unconfined.

Nicky inviting James to stay was the final straw, no way could she be around that man any longer without blowing a gasket.
“You two stay out here,” she said softly to Nicky after giving him a quick kiss. “I'm going to go to bed.”
“Ok love,” Nicky said with a smile. “We'll keep the noise down for you I promise.”
“Sleep well Lexy,” added James with a wicked wink and a dangerous smirk. “Sweet dreams.”
“Thanks,” she replied through gritted teeth.
When Nicky had invited James to stay overnight she had been furious. When James said yes she had to fight to keep her emotions in check, and not go ballistic at James; that would have given the game away to Nicky.   Perhaps that was what James was after; provoking a reaction from her? At least that way things would be out in the open and they would have to work out a solution to the whole bloody mess.

When she heard the bedroom door opening, Alexis sighed with dread, thinking that it was Nicky checking to see if she was asleep. When she saw James, she froze with shock, desperately attempting to cover her nakedness.
“Nicky has fallen asleep outside,” James chuckled. “So I though I would come and give you a kiss goodnight.”
“You have a nerve!” Miraculously she kept her voice even, not betraying her fury or desire.
He walked over to her, his eyes glinting with devilment, pulled her up on to her feet, then pushed her firmly and determinedly against the nearest bedroom wall, pinning her against it.

“I've seen the way that you gaze at him; you don't love him enough.”
Alexis didn't answer him. Hadn't she already told him that? Her chest was heaving, her heart beating furiously yet she didn't put up a fight to get away from him. All she wanted to do was kiss him and wrap her arms around him.
“You still want me don't you Lexy?” When she didn't answer he pinned her more firmly. “What do you want Lex? Tell me now because you won't get another chance.”
“You; I want you.”
“I know,” he grinned. “Now I don't know how long we have until Wire wakes up from his little nap, so we had better make the most of it.”

His mouth crashes down violently upon hers, his tongue urgently demanding entrance to her mouth, which was very soon given to him. James removed his right hand from holding hers above her head, leaving his left hand to hold them both in place. His right hand probing between her legs, impatiently stroking her bud.
Alexis inhaled sharply; it was stinging. “James please, that stings.”
“Shush,” he whispered before his mouth crashed on hers again, to silence her moans.
There was the sound of a zip opening and it dawned on Alexis that her hands and arms were now free from James' restraint.

Brusquely he grabbed her left thigh, guiding her leg around his waist, his thick eager erection entering her quickly, making her moan and yelp. James remained still inside her for a while, allowing her to get used to the size of him. Satisfied that she was ready, he started thrusting powerfully into her. He reached for her other leg and, using her right arm to hold her up, placed it around his waist and thrust urgently.

Alexis nibbled and bit his neck and shoulders, this was the first time that she had experienced anything remotely like this – a forbidden quickie and she loved it! During their brief fling, both of them had instigated quickies and it added to the excitement, although getting caught wasn't much of a problem because of their relationship.

Sean and Martin had both suffered the embarrassment of walking in on the lust filled couple mid shag. Sean caught them when they were getting ready for a gig and Martin when they were having a break in recording. At least whilst Sean and Martin both knew what was going on, the didn't actually see anything (thanks to James and Alexis still being clothed – for the most part). Poor Nick Naysmith had the misfortune to catch James giving Alexis a quick treat of cunnilingus, ensuring that he saw more than he wanted to.

James gave a deep animalistic growl then came inside her, kissing her passionately. He steadily released her and allowed her to slip her feet down onto the floor, but he still continued to support her until he was confident that she had regained enough strength to stand up unassisted.
Without saying a word he stepped back and zipped up his jeans, smiling warmly at Alexis. “You had better have a shower love,” he smirked. “If Nicky goes down on you later he won't appreciate tasting another man's cum.”
Before Alexis had chance to say anything in response, James had left.

“Was I asleep for long?” asked Nicky when James returned. “You should have woken me.”
“If you were still awake when I got back from the loo I was going to poor cold water over you,” laughed James, joining his friend on the bench.
“I did wonder where you'd gone.”
James was all too aware of what his friend's hidden meaning was. “Still worried Nick?”
Blushing bright red, Nicky answered him. “Yeah, a bit.”
“Unfortunately for me Alexis has made her choice,” said James sadly. “Are you really in love with her.”
“I'm crazy about her; she makes me happy.”
“That wasn't what I asked.”
Nicky gave a broad, bright smile. “I love her, a hell of a lot.”

“And the sex?”
“Good, really good.”
James spluttered, then pretended that he was coughing. “I guess I smoked too much.” If only Nicky knew what Alexis had thought of it.
“You ought to stop James.”
“One day I will,” said James taking a cigarette from his pack. “When I have children I'll definitely try to give up.”
“You want children?” Nicky was clearly surprised. “First you need to find yourself a good woman.”
“I had one and had to let her go.”

“You want her back?” Nicky stared down at the floor.
“You know that I do Nicky.” James took a deep breath. “what if she came back to me Nick? Could we survive it?”
“Why? Are you planning on seducing her again James?” His tone was a mixture of anger and fear.
“It isn't about what I do or don't do, it’s her choice,” James said, taking a deep drag on his cigarette. “If she wanted to be with me I'd have to say yes to her; I love her Nick. I really bloody love her.”

Alone upstairs in bed, sleep alluding her as she replayed what had happened with James. Of course Alexis was oblivious to the conversation her two lovers were engaged in. It was certainly a conversation she would never dream that they would have.

“Don't make me think of losing her James, not when I've just got her in my life,” Nicky sighed heavily. “I know that she still cares for you, she told me that she could be your fuck buddy.”
“And how would you deal with that?”
“I don't know. I don't know if I'm strong enough to accept her shagging you while she sees me. It would be easier to cope with if she left me to be with you, at least that way I could get on with my life.”
James threw the butt of his cig down on the floor and then faced Nicky. “I don't know that either of us can ignore the attraction that we have Nicky; there's something pulling me and Lexy together and I don't think that we can stop it.”

Nicky appeared to be on the verge of tears and James' heart went out to him. At least though, he was being honest with his friend and laying his cards on the table, unlike Alexis who kept running away.
“Are you saying that it's only a matter of time?”
“Yes.”
“Then I'll have to prove you wrong won't I? I will love her so much that she won't need you, even as a fuck buddy.”
“I really hope that you do Nicky,” said James earnestly, patting his friend on the back. “If that happens I'll be chuffed for both of you, honestly. Anyway, on that note I'm going to bed.” He stood up, started walking then suddenly stopped. “I know that this conversation hasn't been pleasant but at least we've both been honest.”
“Just go to bed James, I'll see you in the morning.”

James found it difficult to settle. He didn't regret saying those things to Nicky, what he regretted was the timing. It would have been far better if Alexis hadn't been staying with Nicky as well, there would have been less than an atmosphere.

Alexis feigned sleep when Nicky joined her in bed, Nicky holding her closely to him and whispering goodnight and I love you to her.

The following morning James and Alexis acted like nothing had happened. The atmosphere between James and Nicky though was decidedly cold.
“What has happened with you two?” Alexis asked of them both. “Things were fine when I went to bed.”
James and Nicky shrugged their shoulders and carried on reading their respective newspapers.
“Oh come on, what's going on?”

Nicky cocked his head to face her. “We had a long conversation last night – about you.”
“Oh,” she mumbled. “What about me?”
James remained impassive, leaving it to Nicky to give her the details. “It was about James' feelings for you, my feelings for you and your feelings for us.”
“Oh.”
“Do you still love James?”
“Yes.”

You could hear a pin drop – it was so quiet. After a long pause Nicky spoke again. “Do you love me Lexy?”
Alexis' mouth was really dry and she was finding it difficult to string any coherent sounds together to make any words.
“Be honest,” pleaded Nicky.
“I don't love you the way that I love James.”
“That's no good,” said Nicky with remarkable calmness. “I need to know.”
“Whatever you decide is fine Lexy,” offered James. “You know that.”

Alexis' gaze switched back and forth between the two men and this predicament was all her own fault.   She had had the power to stop this from getting so far out of hand but had done nothing. Now, she had to make her choice. She looked at Nicky and with a faltering voice said: “I want to be with James.”
James sighed and closed his eyes, briefly holding his hands over his face. “Nicky I truly am sorry.”
“I know,” said Nicky forcing back the tears and gulping down the lump in his throat. “I suppose I've always known that it would be you two that would be the couple,” he gulped again. “If you don't mind, I'd like you both to go, I'd like some time alone.”

Alexis drove home, she and James both subdued and quiet in the car.
“I must be stark staring bonkers,” moaned Alexis, joining James for a cup of tea in the lounge.
“You don't love him Lexy,” James reiterated.
“That's as maybe,” she sighed heavily, “I'm not convince about us having a relationship either.”
“Why? Just because it didn't work out last time doesn't mean that it won't this time.”
“I love your optimism,” she said rolling her eyes.
“I know where I went wrong before, Lex. I was afraid to admit that I loved you, that's changed though hasn't it?”
“I can't help thinking that I've jumped out of the frying pan and into the fire.”

“All I ask is that you give me a chance, let me prove to you that I truly love you, especially if we are having a baby.”
Alexis grimaced. “Maybe I'm imagining it; we'll find out soon.”
“You know your own body better than anyone.”
“Can you imagine what it will do to Nicky if I am? He'll know that I cheated on him.”
“I know honey, at the end of the day all of this is my fault.”
“I'm equally to blame James. I was the one who was too much of a coward to tell him that it wouldn't work.”
“Will you stay with me for the rest of the week?” He was anxious because Alexis had left her luggage in the boot of her car.
She smiled to him. “If you really want me to, I didn't know if you'd want some time on your own.”
“Hey, you're my lady; of course I want you to stay.”

Whilst Alexis put her clothes and toiletries away, James rang everyone to inform them of the turn of events, he also called Nicky to let him know that Alexis was staying with him; he didn't want Nicky to hear it from the gossips. Nicky was remarkably calm, wishing them both well and also that he wouldn't bear any grudges. The same could not be said of the others that James contacted, all united at their condemnation of James and Alexis. James agreed with them all, after all he knew that they were in the wrong.

During her stay they went to the cinema, out for meals a couple of nights, and went to the local pub, James being happy to introduce her as his girlfriend. For all they slept together each night, they did not indulge in a shagfest – something that had been common in their previous dalliance; instead they spent their time in bed talking and cuddling. For the first time, Alexis genuinely believed that thay had the opportunity to make it work, and it filled her with relief. After all the pain that they had put Nicky through, she would be devastated if it was all for nought.

On the eve of her returning home James bought her a pregnancy test; her period hadn't arrived. Anxiously they waited for the time to pass, James nearly pulling his hair out and Alexis pacing up and down, wringing her hands furiously. When the time came she asked James to check it for her.
“Well?”
“Positive.”
Alexis found it difficult to breathe, her chest had tightened up like it was being constricted and sweat was pouring from pores, she attempted to speak but no words came out. The next thing she knew, she was lying on the sofa with a cold cloth over her brow and James was anxiously stroking the backs of her hands.

“What happened?” she stammered.
“You fainted, love.”
“Oh.” Instinctively she put her hands to her stomach, rubbing it gently in slow circular motions. “So we're having a baby.”
“Hmm. Are you ok about it?”
“It’s a bit little bit late to be anything else isn't it?”
“Not necessarily,” said James sadly. “You still have options Lex.”
“Don't you want the baby?” she gazed quizzically at him, panic and fear etched in her eyes.
“Oh honey of course I do!” he said reassuringly. “All I mean is that I understand if you don't. If you did want a termination I wouldn't stop you, it’s your body, I have no right to tell you what to do, only to let you know what I'd like to happen.”
“I don't know what I want,” she conceded, “ I am so confused right now.”
He leaned over and kissed her forehead. “There is time enough to think it all through and make a decision.”
“What do you really want?”
He twirled a lock of her hair around his index finger. “I want whatever you want Lexy.”

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