 |
| FOREVER DELAYED by Louise PART 1 'IN THE BEGINNING WHEN WE WERE WINNING WHEN OUR SMILES WERE GENUINE' You have been seeing Richey for a few months now, he is such a sweet, lovely man and at first the relationship was great. The only problem is that ever since you met his friend, James, you haven't been able to get him out of your head. He is so handsome, intelligent and funny. He has the most beautiful brown eyes and when he smiles they shine as his whole face lights up, which it seems to do when you are around. You have noticed him looking at you and you get a strong feeling that he is attracted to you. You both seem to make an unconscious effort NOT to be alone together. 'A MEMORY FADES TO A PALE LANDSCAPE' As the months go on, it get's harder to be with Richey. Apart from your feelings for James, Richey has started to get more and more strange. The drinking and cutting is getting out of control. Your sexual relationship is non existent, so much so that you have even stopped taking your contraceptive pills. Richey loves you, too much actually! sex to Richey is just an act he can fulfil with a willing groupie who will do any kinky sex with him. He tells you that he loves you too much to degrade you with sex, to him it just satisfies an animal need...As I said, getting very strange. 'THERE ARE TIMES WHEN YOU FEEL HOPELESS JUST FOR ONCE FOR NO-ONE ELSE WE ARE BLAMELESS' Eventually, you decide you have to finish with him. You explain that you have tried, but you are just not strong enough for him. You love him, but you are not IN love with him, that he has totally drained you. He is really upset and begs you to stay, you nearly give in but in the end you go, you have to for both of your sakes. You don't tell Richey of your feelings for James, you know this means you wont see James again, but that is better than seeing him day in and day out knowing you can't have him. You ring Nicky and explain the situation, he is not surprised, he knows how Richey has been and has said in the past that he didn't know how you put up with it. Nicky says he'll tell the others and they will look after Richey. You say a tearful goodbye to Nicky, he has been such a good friend and even now doesn't judge you. 'A FLOWER ATTRACTING LUST,VICE AND SIN' The next morning, after a sleepless night, you finally fall into an exhausted slumber. You are awaken by a hammering on your door. You pull yourself out of bed and open the door expecting to see Richey. Instead it's James. He's really angry and pushes past you, walking into the living room. "What are you doing to Richey?" he shouts, "He's not well, you can't leave him, I've been trying to calm him down all night". You try to explain why you had to break up with Richey, the cutting, drinking etc...but James isn't listening. He gets angrier. He grabs your arms, his face is so close to yours, you can feel his hot breath on your cheeks. "You heartless bitch" he spits. Tears spring to your eyes, James has never been like this with you. Now you are getting angry though. "How dare you come here shouting at me, you know what he's been like these last few months". The tears are now streaming down your face, you are shaking. "Why are you being like this James?". He is still holding your arms, so tight and he is so close to you can hardly breath, his lips are nearly touching yours. Suddenly he pushes you violently away, you both stand there, panting, staring at each other. Finally you look away, "Just go James" you whisper. He turns round and stumbles out of the door. You slide down the wall that was supporting you and collapse in a heap of sobs. You hear the door opening, then strong arms pulling you up off the floor, you look up into James beautiful brown eyes. They are wet from his tears. He takes you in his arms and holds you tight, slowly, he starts kissing the top of your head, then your own wet eyes, moving down to your lips. Gently at first, then more urgently as if he wants to devour you. You respond with the same urgency. He starts saying your name between kisses. He pushes you against the wall kissing you harder, his hands lifting up your satin nightdress. The light from the window set aglow his glimpsing skin where you pulled off his shirt. You fumble with his jeans and manage to get them open. You push them and his boxers down, your lips never parting. You feel his hardness against your thigh. His lips leave yours and he looks at you, letting his eyes roam and feed with an incredulous, suspended hunger. The air is filled with the urgent synchrony of both your breathing. He then enters you, roughly, you feel the collision of your flesh, you are wet and he slides in easily. He moans and starts to thrust harder and harder, you gasp, he is so big he fills you completely. He lowers his head and starts kissing your breasts, he sucks your erect nipples, you throw back your head, the exquisite pleasure causes you to call out his names as your orgasm hits you in waves. At the same moment you feel James orgasm, his cum exploding into you. You are both panting, the sweat is pouring from his face, making his hair curl at the ends. You put your lips to his ear, "Stay with me tonight, let me have you for one night." James pull himself out of you and without a word, pulls up his boxers and jeans. You think he is going to leave you. Instead, he takes hold of your hand and leads you to the bedroom. He lays you on the bed, whispering your name and kissing you gently all over. You make love for hours, slowly. Finally James falls asleep. You lay in his arms, you can feel his heart beating. You know you only have him till the morning, you don't want to sleep, tomorrow will come all to soon, but for now, tomorrow is 'FOREVER DELAYED'. Part 2 >>> <<< Louise's stories |