To think this was going to be the best night of my life it turned into the worse! The evening started off as I went to Lucky's apartment before he got there, I lit candles and tried to make the place look romantic. Lucky showed up and looked really surprised! we got started on math and I couldn't think of anything else but him. Then it started he told me we needed to talk and I actually told him straight out how I felt. He just stared at me and told me he sees me as a little sister. I had to prove to him that I wasn't a little girl anymore so I kissed him but he pushed me away and said no matter how old I get he will always see me as that little girl he used to babysit. I've never been so humiliated in my life so I took off! this is far from over.

May.28, 2002

Dear Diary,

I know its been awhile, but thats because a lot has been going on with Carly and everything. So it turns out she is not dead! what a relief. But in a way the whole thing brought Lucky and I closer. I just know he is going to ask me to be his photo assistant. Mom wants me waiting tables at Kelly's over the summer! but I have other plans;)

May.7, 2002

Dear Diary,

I tried to comfort my aunt Bobbie while she was feeling sad about Carly, I told her that when I was sick B.j came to me in spirit and told me not to be sad. Mom told me I should stop talking it was making matters worse, so she told me to go outside with Lucky. Hey no problem with that! I told him I felt really bad for opening my big mouth and I expressed my feelings about how B.j had to die in order to save my life. He explained it was an accident and he comforted me and I felt a whole lot better. We were then interrupted by Nikolas.

April.29, 2002

Dear Diary,

I was hanging out with some friends from school and we saw Lucky,they didn't even believe I knew him! so I showed them, when Lucky said my name I saw the shock on Leslie's face. We all offered to help him clean up his photography equipment. When Lucky ran to his car Leslie said how I was way out of his league and he wouldn't even bother dating any of us. Well of course I have first dibs so I showed them once again! Get this? I went right up to Lucky and told him I needed to use him for a school project, all I have to do is follow him around and observe his "job". This is going to be the best project EVER!

April.25, 2002 (first entry)

Dear Diary,

Well let me say "what a day" ok first I got to babysit Michael at CLUB 101, that place was so wicked. I even got to hangout in the club part when Bobbie picked Michael up. In walked Elizabeth and she was having an argument with Gia! I know I shouldn't have listened but they mentioned Lucky's name so I had to hear. Liz pretty much said it was over between her and Lucky. I later talked with Liz just to make sure and she said her and Lucky were through. I knew I wanted to speak to Lucky so I took a cab to the hospital and went to the roof where Liz said he was. Lucky was surprised to see me, we talked for a bit and he even gave me dating advice! He then gave me a ride home! ohh I was so excited.