Thursday January 1, 2004
5:40a
It is the bottom of another mountain and I have to spend this year climbing to its top. Such is how I have always seen the new years.
Sunday January 4, 2004
6:10a
Desperation --- Determination ... do not confuse one with the other.
The enemy is determined to drive out the infidel forgeiners. Do not mistake that as signs of desperation. To do so is to underestimate your opponent and that is never wise to do. Their determination was evident from the beginnings. Look at the mismatch between them, yet they challenged a giant. It was Goliath who saw signs of desperation and it was David who had the determination. Desperation is not even to be considered. It is whose determination is greater.
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Ohhhh hummmm ... another year of killing has begun ... or is it the killings continue for yet another year?
Peace will be militant, extremist mullahs preaching to empty mosques.
Monday January 5, 2004
6:15a
I suppose there is not much to write again. It's only the beginning of another week at the beginning of another year at the beginning of another century.
I use to feel like going to work so I wouldn't be here and have something else to think about besides .... But now that my head hurts, it never has really gotten better, and I've got it in my head that something at work is causing it, I really don't want to go to work either.
There's not any escape places left.
But maybe it's all just Monday blues at the beginning of another blues year.
Tuesday January 6, 2004
4:30a
One thirty ... that's when I became fully awake. And that was after sleeping and waking several times. A few minutes after two I gave up and got up.
There's this ChiefWiggings website. He's some soldier over in Iraq. He has a link to another website about some soldier who got killed and his funeral. The pictures were of people standing along the roadway on the way to the cemetery.
These alqueda websites that have been reported recently. The white hat hackers corps must be sleeping on their watch. Those kinds of websites are not suppose to be active more than seventy-two hours before they are forced down.
It really can not be good to have excessive faith in one person. It becomes more and more like that is all that matters in a country. It indicates that people have lost what their country truely means and have replaced it with what one person means.
It is not about leadership either ... or rather about an individual's leadership. That is as likely to be bad as good leadership. Seem's like there has been more of the bad kind in history than good, at least the bad kind seems to do more damage than the good kind does something constructive.
It is about a people loosing faith in their own ability to lead their country. That is what happens when the person, or even a single political party, becomes more important than nation.
In the general scheme of things there's not that much difference between left and right. The former drives the ship around in counter-clockwise circles while the latter drives around in clockwise circles. And when they swap back and forth between themselves the course is excessively zig-zagged. But at least that does have some general direction.
If the people really were at the big wheel the course would probably be a direct one, full speed ahead into the future. Otherwise it like doing warp nine circles ... going nowhere mighty fast.
Friday January 9, 2003
3:55a
It's another 1:30 in the morning wake up. I laid there on the floor for about 10 minutes and then went to the bathroom. I laid back down till 2:10 or so but dozing back off to sleep was not going to happen. .... Oh you know the routine. Except maybe this morning I will get the rest of the rituals done and then lay back down for a couple of hours. I can always pretend to be sleeping.
One of the Iraqi bloggers wrote about an incident one of his cousins had with some American soldiers. It wasn't a good encounter, actually very tragic, if it happened as told. But it's always impossible to know the truth about those things.
Actually it is impossible to know the truth about anything anyone posts on the internet. The message boards, chatrooms, individual's websites are all full of people claiming they have the truth. But no one really does.
It has gotten really, really, really bad on the ABC board. Most of the time it is like a bunch of obnotious teenagers insulting and putting each other down. There's no reasonable discussion of anything. Everyone is doing their own spinning, extreme spins, on their own versions of reality and truth. Talking trash just to be talking trash. ABC needs to just empty the trash bin and dump the bin as well.
My left ear ringing is now constantly louder than it was for years. It may be what is waking me up now after I have had just enough sleep for the mind to start to wake up and be conscience of the ringing. I can not get involved with other thoughts, the usual daily things and work now to tune it out. I guess I need to have it seen about as well.
Or rather have the head pain problem seen about, I sure it is probably connected. I have stopped taking asprin and pain pills. I started mixing non-caffine coffee with less regular coffee again. I tried cutting back on the smoking too. The coughing and straining and bending over does not cause it to happen as much. But then I'm just learning not to do things that makes it hurt either. It's still lurking there somewhere in my head.
It has turned cold again. The furnance runs more during the night of course. Mom got the electric heater form the bathroom and put in the den yesterday. The old one that Dad used in the greenhouse is in the kitchen now. She use to have it in the den. But anyway it is all an attempt to keep the furnace from turning on. It's like burning up $50 of electricity to save $50 worth of fuel oil. The temperature in the front bedroom is getting down to 65 now. It is about 60 on the floor where I sleep.
I use my heater to warm the front bathroom before I wash up. Last evening I turned the kitchen heater off so the circuit break wouldn't open. I was out on the porch smoking when I heard Mom going into the laundry room. I thought maybe she was just taking something in there. But when I got back inside she was changing the light bulb in the lamp beside her chair. She said to look at the circuit breakers. So I turned the wrong heater off, it is the den outlets and bedroom outlets that are on the same circuit. Oh well when has anything I tried worked like it was suppose to.
It is getting late and I'm going to go get ready for the day and then lay back down now.
Thursday January 15, 2004
6:10a
Pax for Prez ... Pax for Prez ... Pax for Prez. Save our Democracy ... Save our Democracy.
He is the Baghdad blogger who goes by the name SalamPax. It is from an email exchange with an American in Illinois. It is here: SalamPax. That will take you to his blog and for whatever the current day is. You will need to look for the Jan 14-15, 2004 entry.
I have stopped drinking caffine, cut back my smoking to 10 cigs a day, started using store bought saline solution for my sinuses and today started using that in my ears also. I've gone two days without the sudafed, asprin and acetaminophen. The head pain when coughing and bending over isn't as bad as it was last weekend. But it seems like every time I mention that it comes back. The ringing in the left ear is still louder than it normal use to be and the right ear has been ringing like the left one use to.
On Monday I started with my regular doctor's office to get an appointment with a neurologist. Went up there that morning, called up there the next day. Still no word about the appointment. I expect maybe a mail about it but that hasn't arrived yet either. My luck with getting something started and done about my head is just like everything else in my life. Nothing seems to go the way it is suppose to. I'm not even sure if I suppose to get referred to a specialist, maybe I'm suppose to do that myselft these days. I did mention that to the receptionist when I called but she just passed it on to the nurse to decide.
That head pain is still just lurking up there somewhere. I've probably changed enough of my habits to only avoid doing things that makes it hurt.
Sunday January 18, 2004
4:15p
Yesterday afternoon I drove out to the War Path landing on Keowee. I had not been there in several weeks. I haven't been much of anywhere in weeks. But anyway, there weren't anyone else hanging out at the west end of the car - boat trailer park. So I was by myself there. I parked the truck in front of the gate across the road that goes out to the top of the next hill. Seems like that's been a closed road to nowhere since they built it.
I got out and walked on the north side where people hang out. Just stood around and walked around that little bit of a place. There was a fire ring next to one of the big pine trees on the bank. It's hard to remember how much of a bank there use to be decades ago when I hung out there. It probably will not be many more years before that tree falls into the lake.
Across the cove is where you use to be able to go. It was there that I paddled around on the board about 1972 or 73. I was home for a weekend or leave from the Virginia Beach and we went over there to cook and eat. It's strange to see a place like that and think about the thirty years between then and now.
That whole Keowee area is like that, having watched it being built. Stuff that happened 35-40 years ago. And I'm still going to the same places. I haven't made any progress in life, still stuck in the same places doing the same things over and over and over again.
This afternoon I drove the Mountain Highway, SC 11, Pumpkintown Highway route; except I turned off in front of Aunt Sues place and cut off that corner between highways. It's a sunny afternoon after a rainy time so the air was more clear. The kind of clear that makes Ceasar's Head mountian look close and you can see the houses along the ridge of it.
My head still hurts when I cough really hard, that backed up air-lung-blood pressure kind of cough. Leaving off the coffee has only made things less noticable. And use the saline mist hasn't really made anything better. Nothing seems to make it all go away. So I guess I willl have to start again tomorrow about seeing a head doctor. I don't understand why the regular doctor office never called about making an appointment. I guess they just don't refer patients anymore. But all that is just my bad karma, nothing never seems to go my way.
About the only thing I've learned is that drinking a couple of cups of coffee in the mornings may have been what was making me wake up early. I have slept till after 5 for three or four mornings now. I have dreams too now, something more like dreaming is suppose to be at least. At least I know I'm dreaming. But now that I have mentioned that the early wakeups will come back.
Oh yeah, I spent a bit of time at my house this afternoon. I turned the water back on down by the road and at the house. Let the pipes and hot water tank fill up. Turned the space heaters on. Then laid down on my couch and covered up with my coat. Covered my eyes with the brown towel and just laid there on my back. I hadn't done that since before the weather turned cold. Hadn't done much of that all last year either it seems like.
Tuesday January 20, 2004
6:15a
Yesterday I took a sudafed pill along with asprin and acetaminophen, last night I was waking up and half sleeping again. So maybe it is the sudafed that is keeping me sleepless.
I did drive down to Easley yesterday morning to go see about making a appointment myself. Of course they said it had to be done by the referring doctor's office. At least I know that was tried.
Then I went by the doctor's office to see about the referral appointment. The recepitionist said she had a stack of referrals to do and would probably get to them that afternoon. So it takes longer than expected to have something like that done. Of course I was expected some missed phone called or lost mail or something else to go wrong.
Tonight is the state of the union (aka the feel good speech) ... dread, dread, dread. I will have to find something else to do during that time.
Sunday January 25, 2004
3:45p
Tuesday at work I had to set up the moving platform table for some router testing so I was working in saw dust. That started the head cold. Did more cutting on Wednesday. By Thursday it, the head cold, was reall bad and I stayed here after lunch. Didn't go to work Friday either.
The Quigley neighbors were here at lunch Thursday too. They had been down in Flordia for several weeks and had came over to Mom's to bring some Flordia fruit and tomatos. So I had to visit with them a little. I was planning to eat lunch and go lay down. One of Mom's other neighbors, Mrs Pittman called later that afternoon. She was asking about another neighbor, the Vickerys, she had not been able to get an answer when she called them. She wanted to know if they had told Mom they were going somewhere. But I think she had seen my truck here all afternoon and wanted to know about that too, thinking maybe something was wrong with Mom.
Laying down on the floor in the front bedroom is about all I've done. I did get the regular Saturday chores done, washing clothes and groceries. It was almost 70 yesterday and I walked a little, very little bit in the woods. Then I went up to the top of Glassy for a few minutes. My sinuses started to clear up some, I thought. I used a bit more of the nasal spray. I think that made it start back again.
Sunday about noon time I thought the cold was in its final stages then but it came back this afternoon. I blew out some of that uckky milky yellow green stuff from the left nostral. That's usually a sign it is about over. But that only lasted a couple of hours. Now both are back to dripping.
Tuesday I was expecting to hear from the doctors office about the appointment. Some how I started with setting up the phone for voice mail. That was when I learned my calls are transferred to another extension if I don't answer. It was something I had suspected months ago or a year ago. Mandy called my extension and talked to a lady down in Anderson. So I called them instead and they had been trying to call.
After getting the appointment confirmed I was suppose to be relaxed now that something was going to happen about my head pain. But this head cold had to start and take that away.
It's been really bad too. Cough, sneeze, bend over, lay down and my head hurts. Well it could be unbearably worst I guess. But it is something I've not had to deal with before either.
Oh. It was almost 70 yesterday. Today it is around freezing and below with sleet. There was some freezing rain and may be more tonight. Suppose to continue on into tomorrow too.
Thursday January 29, 2004
6:30a
Went down to Easley to Dr Rogers the neurologist. He thinks it is exertional migraine headaches. The CT scan was not symeterical and he thinks that was because my head was not square in the machine. So I have to have an MRI done to make sure nothing is growing inside. Have to leave off all caffine, chocalates and nuts. Start taking maganese oxide supplements. He recommended his favorite over the counter headache pills, Advil gel tablets. He kept talking about headache but I tried telling him it was pressure type pain inside the head. It was one of those fancy, hotel lobby waiting areas for their offices too. The restroom was like one of those places too, maybe better. Oh well. Specialist doctors whatelse would one expect.
The sleet and ice and cold lasted on into Tuesday afternoon when the clouds moved out and let the sun in. It wasn't nice at all with the head cold, sneezing, coughing, head pain, cold weather.
Friday January 30, 2004
6:10a
I have been sleeping till 5:00 or later since ... Monday or Tuesday or maybe Sunday ... since the cold thing and ice thing. During those days I was going back into the front bedroom and lay down during the mornings and afternoons for an hour or two.
I don't know what else has changed to make the waking up at 1:30 and 2:00 go away. I can't remember exactly when I stopped the regular coffee either ... two or three weeks ago. I had been leaving off some of the regular coffee before then, mayabe not as much as I use to.
The head pains haven't been as noticeable recently either ... getting over the cold virus may have taken out the rest of that bacteria infection that I thought was still lurking around since last September. Better not write about it, it may come back on me if I do.
Haven't heard from the new doctor's office about the MRI appointment yet. I guess that will be like getting the referral appointment and take a week. But I'm not going to worry myself over it like that either. It will happen when it happens if it does or does not happen.
Wednesday February 11, 2004
6:00a
After years of waking up early, early and now recently sleeping or at least staying laid down on the floor half a sleep, there is just not the time to do all the things I use to do in the early morning hours.
The MRI was scheduled for last Saturday, those people called Friday evening and said their machine was broken. Now it's suppose to be tomorrow evening. And the weather people are talking about snow that day too now.
I wonder why I ever expect things to go as planned and easily so?
Anyway Saturday afternoon I drove on down to Anderson anyway, just to find where the place is. Then I drove up to Piedmont and visited with Leander and Susan for the rest of the afternoon. I hadn't done that in a realy long time.
Yesterday there was a meeting in Anderson, another 60 mile round trip.
The internet browser quit working since I last posted too. I reformatted the hard drive and reload most all the software but then the display wasn't right. I messed around trying different drivers but nothing seem to work. So I did the reformatting and reloading again and still not right. I finally found the right driver, it wasn't where the book said it was suppose to be either.
My head pains aren't as bad as they use to be, but they can be when I cough or sneeze really hard. I started to get choked one time and that really hurt. But all that is mostly because I try not to do anything to make it hurt.
Can't drink coffee anymore, or eat nuts or chocolates. I think I've become really nervous and tense then last few years and the caffine was just enough to make that worst. So I'm trying to find a new morning drink, it's apple-cinnimon tea now or sassafrous tea. Nothing is like a sip of strong coffee though.
Oh well, it's time to get on with the day already. I feel like I'm late doing things and it's still early in the day.
Friday February 13, 2004
5:40a
The MRI experience is over and done with. It wasn't all that pleasant either, I got tense and nervious over having to lay there in that machine for 45 minutes. It was partly about thinking it was a small space, but it's big enough for the whole body to slide through. Maybe if they hadn't ever mentioned being clostraphobic I wouldn't have thought about it. I didn't get a good look at the machine either before the process started so maybe that would have helped too. I just kept my eyes closed and tried to not think about it.
I left here about twenty till six and got to the place in Anderson about 6:25. It was 7:20 before the lady technician came to get me. Then it was a walk through their office halls to a trailer out back. They don't let people walk up the steps to go in, you have to ride an outside lift. But I guess that is for those who can't climb steps either.
It was one of the noisy machines that makes all kinds of sounds. They only give you foam ear plugs to dampening it. I've heard of other places who use ear phones with music.
I guess when one is tense and there's some bit of activity the 40 minutes seems to go by quickly. But like I've written before, I've become more nervous and tense over the last few years too.
I got to take a quick look at the images of the inside of my head. I really didn't seen much of anything that was obviously wrong, but then I would have to study them closely for a long time to understand what I'm was looking at. It is like everything else, you have to wait till the doctor's office calls to let you know of the results.
I sat out in the truck for a few minutes after it was over. Then I started the drive back to Pickens. I got back here about 9:15, then I sat out on the porch for a few minutes. I don't remember the last time I was out somewhere that late into the evening. Not that nine or nine thirty is late evening, but it has become that for me.
Sunday February 22, 2004
4:55p
Yesterday I drove up to sliding rock #11, it was actually warm enough to be outside and be comfortable. I walked down the trail nearest the road. As I got to the edge of the big rock the creek runs over I was strucked by how clean it looked. It is a popular place during the Summer and there is usually the accummulation of trash. There's also charred wood and stones scattered about where some build small fires on the rock. All that was gone too. The stones and wood used to spread the creek water out over the slick parts were missing as well. It was about that time I remember the heavey rains a couple of weeks ago. It had washed everything down stream.
I spent some time up at the head of the falls area where the creek comes out of the woods. Looked at the writtings on the big boulders, especially the one that has been there since 1969. Then I got to thinking about the lower end where the creek goes back into the woods. I guess I've only been there once in recent years after a long absence. So I went down there too.
The small pool area where I hung out some 25 years ago was easy to get too. I think the rains opened up that channel some. But it is Winter and the brush doesn't have leaves. So I sat there for a while and stared at the place where I was all those years ago. Then I wandered further down stream a bit, I had done that too back then.
Then I made my way back up to the main pool area and then I left.
It was the first time since last Fall that I had been anywhere for any length of time. At least it seems like that. I just don't go anywhere anymore, excecpt for Sunday afternoon rides to the same near by places. There just hasn't been any ambition to do what I use to do.
I started calling the neurologist's office on Wednesday. Found out they don't work that day of the week. I called again Thursday morning, got through the receptionist and then the answering machine started talking. I got furstrated and hung up. But I called back again and left all the information they wanted. Later the assistant called back and said the MRI looked normal. Nothing bad going on in there ... except those machines don't pick up depression, nervious, tense images.
So I guess that's the end of the cough - head pain exprience for the last 5 or 6 months. Or it will be after I go back to see the neurologist a week from Monday. Don't know what else he will do except tell me to learn to live with it.
I think leaving off the coffee just makes the pain less likely to happen. I ate one of those donut with brownish icing Friday. I think it must have been made out of coffee. I had to cough some later and it hurt just like it use too months ago.
Last night I woke up about 12:30 and laid there on the floor till 2:00, that's when I got up. I did most of the usual things. My intestants were growling and that's what was bothering me. I went back and laid down about 3:00 but didn't really fall back to sleep. Maybe a little from 4:30 to 6:30, then it was get back up again. I finished the normal Sunday routine, go get the paper and read it, then make some egg on toast. Used some of the can ham from a week ago this time. Then I went and laid back down thinking I might get into a dream state. That didn't happen either. It was 11:00 when I got back up for the third time this morning.
This afternoon I drove down to Easley and back, parked in the BiLo car park and listen to Wait, wait don't tell me on NPR.
I had brought some work home with plans to do a little on that reciprocal saw thing. It's been mostly ignored. I did some Friday evening and that was about all.
I haven't been to see DM or Micky since sometime in December. The trip to Anderson and stopping by Leander's is the only visting I've done for couple of months.
Seems like most of the time there's just no life left for me. I'm just doing the time till time ends.
7:50p
So that's one reason why I haven't been writing much recently. I've gone back to gripping all the time about a lack of life. It's like it was way back in the 1980s part of this blog.
Thursday February 26, 2004
6:00a
I checked the stats on my website a couple of days ago. The religious population pages have been active, about 3 times the normal page views. That started in September last year. I wonder what that means?
It is sleeting now, started about 30 minutes ago but the weather predicters talked like it was suppose to start earlier this morning. The wind blew hard last night and that was suppose to have started yesterday afternoon. So they must be about 12 hours off. There's suppose to be snow showers Friday now too and that wasn't predicted yesterday evening. I guess I will have to wait and see about going into work later.
At work I have been dropping a weight onto a steel block that's rigged to measure impact forces. It's not working out as easy as I thought, the plots of data isn't a straight line for the different heights. The block has a natural ringing frequency and that is interferring with the force measurements. This little project was to determine the actual damage don't to tool parts for measured forces.
My head pain seems to be under control now, at least I'm not doing anything to make it hurt. I've changed enough of my habits to do that. I think I've already wrote that back up stream on these entries.
The last few nights I haven't gone to sleep as easily as I use to. I was up ... oh, I've already wrote about that too. Nevermind. I did manage to sleep till 4 this morning even though I didn't get to sleep right away like I use to.
One of the people at work found some old pictures, or got them from someone else. One was of Joel and Robert when they were in the Boy Scout Troop at Pickens Mill. They and a few others were in the pictures, I knew only one other boy's name. It was part of the 50 year anniversary for Pickens Mill in 1954-57 years. I never got to be part of the Boy Scouts. We moved before I got old enough and I think the may have disbanded that troop too.
I guess that's enough for now.
Sunday February 29, 2004
7:50p
This afternoon I spent time over at my house, actually down at the fire ring bay the driveway. I built a fire and burnt some of the limbs, twigs and sapplings that have been falling for years. I really don't remember the last time I had a fire in the campfire ring. Could be ten years or so.
It's the first time in months, or four years, I've done something that I half way enjoyed. But it was mostly just escaping out of the current reality for a couple of hours. Better than just riding around to the same old places.
So it's a leap year day today.
It's also four years ago this past week that Mom had to go to the emergency room and started on the oxygen.
Wednesday March 3, 2004
5:50a
Monday afternoon I went down to Easley for the doctor's appointment. It was a followup to the MRI and cough migraine pain. I suppose it was mostly typical thing. How you doing, ok, keep doing what you're doing. He talked about the MRIs some, looking at them against the light and all.
I asked if they could make a photocopy of one of them, just to have. He started looking through the big envolope and handed me two of them. So now I've got pictures of the inside of my head. At least I'll actually have something for the few hundred dollars I'll have to pay on the MRI. I didn't get anything like that for the CT scans and that cost me 400+$.
Monday March 8, 2004
5:50a
Yesterday morning I went over to my house and made another fire in the fire ring. Most of the twigs, limbs and such came off the stack of wood next to it. I cleared more of the area down there too, where the old old road curved up into the woods.
That afternoon I spent cutting down the small pine saplings in front of the house. Tossed them over the bank which doesn't look good at all since that clearing crew came through. There's just too much debri laying around to pick it all up.
I really haveing been doing any physical exercise in so long. I had to cut and rest, pick up, toss and rest, do a little more and then rest. It was that bending over and stooping down and get back up.
But anyway I guess most of it is done and will have to pass for yard upkeep for the rest of the years.
Yesterday afternoon too, there was a brush fire in the woods north of Midway road and east of the highway. Lots of smoke blown mostly eastward. I drove around there and saw all the cars and fire trucks and forest service trucks. There was an airplane flying around in circles over it too. They eventually got it out.
Have to take Mom to a doctor's appointment today. Then another later this month to get her prescriptions renewed. She back to thinking she has enough left at the pharmacy from last time. But that was 6 months ago. But I cant get her to understand how things work and it is just another hassle I wish I didn't have to go through. She's going let them totally run out one of the times and I will have to scramble around to the doctor and pharmacy to get them.
Monday March 15, 2004
6:30a
Yesterday and Saturday was spent picking up fallen limbs and burning them in the campfire ring. I've got one side of the driveway mostly finished and the leaf cover rock falls. The logs from the trees that were cut down a few years ago got moved to around the campfire like stools to sit on. The area around up next to the bank behind the campfire is mostly picked up too. I did throw some of the big limbs and fallen trees over next to the brush pile next to the dirveway. Maybe if there are a few more weekends that it doesn't rain I will get the rest of the area on the east side of the house done. But then again, there was another forest fire, over in Oconee county yesterday too. And the forest people declared a burning ban. Saturday a car stopped next to where I had my fire and asked for directions to US 178 and Rosman. When I first saw them one had a shirt on that reminded me of the sheriff's department. So I thought it was them and they were checking on the smoke. If it was them they saw it was a contained fire and I had the water hose wetting down the area too.
Tuesday March 16, 2004
5:50a
It must have been Tuesday or Wednesday last week when I was over at my house after work. I go there to get the mail (when there is some). This time I started to cut down some of the small pines and other brush in the front. I got to noticing a white pine in the woods between the house and campfire ring. Don't remember one growing up there and it was really big too. It was leaning against another tree.
I went on about cutting and would look at it some times. I finally came to mind to look at the big white pine near the back porch. It forks at the top to make a double topped tree ... except now there's only one single top. It had gotten blown off by the winds on Sunday I think, maybe Monday. If it had happened last Sunday it was after I was there.
I've gotten back in the habit of reading the postings at one of the news websites. It's so pointless to sit and read the same old comments by the same old people. I need to just quit it's nothing but the republicans and democrats, liberals and consertatives bashing each other like they've done for centurys.
Thursday March 18, 2004
4:30a
This morning was like it use to be for months, wake up at 11:40 and then 1:40 and lay awake till 3:00 when I got up. I'm not sure what brought that back. One thing though, I went down to the store to get milk and cereal after eating supper. When I got back I brought those things in but never did go back outside to get my bag of stuff I carry around with me. And when I got up and got dressed I realized I didn't put my pocket watch on the light stand like always. So it was not doing everything in my evening routine that messed up the night.
It's getting really spooky in the States. The extremist Muslims who always referred to the States as the great satan will probably be proven correct. The leaders of the States have all the appearance of doing what one would expect of satan. The darkness grows through the country and no one appears to be able to stop it. They will have their elections in November. It will be only then when another data bit falls into the bucket proving he is in full control of everything in the States.