By  Susan Rating: Pg-13 Category: UC, AU, Michael’s POV Summary: Sequel to Rebirth. **************************************** Ok I can’t believe I am doing this but here I am Michael Guerin writing in this journal that she gave me last night after sharing her big news. She said that she knows I have a hard time expressing my feelings and that this might help.  I told her I didn’t know where to begin. My ever-sensible wife told me to just start at the beginning that is usually what she does.   The beginning would have to be September 19, 1999 the day all our lives were changed forever. On that day Liz Parker was shot and my best friend Max Evans saved her life. Liz had been Max’s obsession since third grade and I wasn’t really surprised that he risked all our lives to save her. There have been many times over the years that I have damned Max for his actions that day but then I wouldn’t be here writing in this journal if he hadn’t. Saving Liz’s life and letting her on our secret, that we are aliens, in retrospect was the best day of my life. Liz then told Maria our secret and brought her into our world and into my life. She was odd and flighty and I was utterly fascinated with her. We got involved, something I had never done before. She got too close too fast so I pushed her away, over and over but I always came back to her. I loved her but I was afraid that just being with her would some how hurt her. Things happened, things I will never forgot as long as I live, and I had to push her away for good. I couldn’t control my powers, powers that could kill and did, and I had to stay away from her for her own good. Then Destiny happened. To find out that we; Max, Isabel, Tess and I were leaders on another planet and that we were recreated so that some day we could save that world was a little bit more than even I had expected. From the day I crawled out of the Pod I had been searching for my way home for my real family. I wanted answers and with one little hologram we finally got them. None of us expected what we heard that day. The hardest two things for me to accept were that on our old planet Isabel and I were betrothed and I was second in command to Max. Isabel was my sister or at least that was what I always thought of her and to hear she was my destined mate was a little hard to accept. Also, the whole second in command thing well threw me for a loop. I didn’t know how to feel about that. Tess helped me control my powers but my biggest fear was I wouldn’t be ready when our enemies came after us. Maria tried to get close to me over and over but I kept her at arms length and then I broke her heart. I was just trying to figure out what this girl wanted and to do so I had to kiss her a few times. There really wasn’t anything to it but Maria saw us together and got the wrong idea. I got hit twice for that one, once from her and once from her best friend Alex. I had to respect the guy for hitting me knowing that I could easily kill him. He really was a good friend to her. I guess that is why I was so surprised with what happened next.   All hell broke loose in Roswell. First of all, Liz Parker ran away, causing Max to completely lose it, and then we battled first the Skins and then our dupes. We defeated them both but we were never able to find out where Liz was. It hit Max really, really hard but he wasn’t the only one that was affected by her leaving. Max told everyone that he had seen Kyle in bed with Liz. Kyle explained that Liz came to him asking to stage it so that Max would find them together. She never did explain why she wanted him to do it. She just said she needed Max to let her go.  Maria lost it at that point. She blamed all of us for Liz leaving and retreated from us. Her and Alex spent all their time together and soon they were involved. I never understood that one. It just seemed and felt totally wrong. It hurt to see them together but a part of me understood that I would never be able to give her what she needed. Max took comfort in Tess who was very willing to be there for him even when she knew that Max would never love her like he did Liz. With Max and Tess together the pressure for Isabel and I to at least it became unbearable. Isabel and I lasted for maybe 10 seconds together. On this planet we were not meant to be together. For our entire lives we had thought of each other as siblings and nothing was going to change that now. Isabel then turned to Kyle. They had a really good friendship that became a little bit more. But no one was happy.   About six months after Liz left she sent an E-mail to Maria. Maria still resented all of us but she came to us with the news that Liz had contacted her and that she said she was ok. Alex eventually was able to trace the e-mail to a Cyber Café in LA. Max wanted to go after her himself but things were happening in Roswell that he needed to take care of plus he couldn’t get away not with Tess and his parents all over him. So he sent me.   It took me almost a month to find her and then it was by accident. I was walking into a Diner to get something to eat and there she was, a waitress once again. She dropped the plates she had been carrying and ran into the back. I wasn’t about to let her get away especially with my anger for her building. I yelled at her and told her that everything was her fault. I told her how everyone was miserable and how she was to blame for it all. She had a break down right before my eyes. I had never seen anyone cry like that before. My anger for her went away and I held her till she was quiet once again. She looked into my eyes and seemed to be affected by what she saw there. She asked me tell her about Roswell. We went back to her apartment and I told her everything. I didn’t hold anything back. She needed to hear what had happened when she was gone. She asked me why everyone was miserable and I broke the news to her about Max and Tess and the others. She cried once again. I think as much for us as for her. We had all been through so much. I asked her to come home but she said she couldn’t. Too much had happened because of her.   She told me about what had happened in the fall, about Max coming to her from the future. To say I was shocked would be an understatement. I thanked her for what she had done for us but she was still upset. She said it was all for nothing. We were still not together and we would still fail. I wouldn’t let her believe that. I knew that deep down all of us, when the time came, would put our anger and resentment away and stand together as we had always done. We would win.      She told me she wasn’t ready to come home yet and I insisted on staying until she was ready. I couldn’t go home without her. Max and Maria would never forgive me and in my heart I knew it was the right thing to do so I stayed. I called the others and told them I was still looking and that I wouldn’t be home until I found her. Max thanked me and told me he wished he could be there with me. I felt guilty for not telling him then but seeing Liz how she was now I knew it was best. She was not strong enough to face Max and the others. I worked at the Diner and shared her apartment with her. It was not easy being in such close proximity to her 24 hours a day. Feelings I never even wanted to admit to myself came to the surface and things between us changed. We spent many nights together lying in each other’s arms talking about anything and everything except for Roswell. At first it may have been just a sexual thing but it soon became so much more. We became part of each other.   Then one day she told me she was ready to go home. I was scared when she said that. Going back to Roswell would mean so much. Would she want to continue what we had in LA back in Roswell or would she want to end it? I asked her and she told me that she didn’t want anything to change between us. I have never felt such relief in my life.   Going home was probably the hardest thing we have ever had to do. Her parents went crazy when she walked through the doors of the Crashdown. Her Dad broke down in tears in front of a restaurant full of people. Maria practically hugged the breath out of us both. She thanked me for bringing Liz home. I couldn’t look her in the eyes. For a minute I felt guilty for everything that happened in LA but then I remembered my love for Liz. When things settled done and the joy of seeing Liz faded into the background there was a lot of pain to deal with from her parents and our friends. We broke the news to everyone about our relationship and no one was happy about it. I never thought Max would forgive me but eventually we were able to get past it and the most surprising thing happened. Max and Maria fell in love. Don’t ask me how it happened but it did and to be honest I have never seen either one of them happier. The day they were married they were both glowing with happiness and the love they felt for each other. Kyle and Tess and Isabel and Alex soon followed them done the aisle. After Max and Maria fell in love Tess fell for Kyle and Isabel finally admitted how much she cared for Alex.   Liz and I were married on September 19th. We thought it was the perfect day for us to commit to each other because September 19th marked the day of Liz’s rebirth, the day all our lives were changed forever. I have never been so nervous in all my life and of course Max, Kyle and Alex were not making things any easier for me. They tortured me with endless tirades about married life. I knew they were doing it to drive me crazy and it nearly worked until I saw Maria standing outside the door. She had been listening to all of them. I saw her smile and motion to Isabel and Tess. Seeing Maria who was pregnant with Max’s child made me realize that no matter what they said I knew that I wanted to marry Liz more then anything and that I wanted her to some day carry my child as Maria was Max’s.   Maria went into Labor when we were on our honeymoon. Max called us with the news. He was a father to a very healthy son. We came home early much to the dislike of both Maria and Max. We told them that there was no other place we would rather be then with our best friends sharing their happiness. We all celebrated the birth of their child because he was surely a miracle. None of us even knew if it was possible for us to have children let alone for one to be completely healthy and normal. We did not know if he would have any powers when he grew up because biologically he was completely human.   Tonight, almost a year later, Liz told me some amazing news. In six months I was going to be a father. I took the news rather well I think. I cried like a baby. All my life I have wanted a family of my own and now it was finally going to happen. I couldn’t even speak I was so happy. I hugged Liz close to me until she told me I had to let go because she couldn’t breathe. I let go of her but only for a moment so that I could pick her up and take her to our bed where I showed her how much I loved her.   I’m writing this now watching her sleep, amazed that such a wonderful woman is in my life and that she loves me. Whether you are a boy or a girl you will the luckiest child alive because she is your mother. I’m sure I will make my share of mistakes but I promise you that I will try to be the best Father possible. I will show you how important you are to me every possible chance I can get. You will never have to question whether you are loved by either of your parents. This I guarantee.   -------   “Good morning.” Liz says rolling over to see her husband writing in the journal she gave him. She smiles at him.   “Good Morning Mrs. Guerin.” Michael puts down his journal silently promising to himself that he is going to continue writing in it throughout Liz’s entire pregnancy. Someday when the child is older he will make a gift of it so that the child will know exactly what he was thinking and feeling while he waited for him or her to be born.   Michael smiled at his wife crawling onto the bed and pulling his wife up against him.   “I love you Liz, you and our child.” He whispers to her.   “And we love you.”   The End.