Some people wonder how you could think of someone each and everyday when they are no longer here, but you do, every single day, they are the first thing you think of when you wake up in the morning and the last thing you think of each night.
Michael had a certain something about him, I had him for 4 and a half short years, but in those years, he crammed so much into, he was so loving, he always told me he loved me, he used to call me "stick", and he was always into mischief of some sort.
But Michael being the way he was, always seemed to get himself out of it again, he would flash his cheeky smile at you and his big blue eyes would widen.
It was almost as if you could see right into his soul.
He would wake up very early in the morning and watch video's he knew he was not allowed to watch, many a time we caught him watching "Billy Connolley", Michael thought there was no-one funnier than him, even though he got into trouble watching him, he would always do it again because he adored him.
Another favourite of Mikes was "Red Dwarf", he would quote lines from the series, and also lines from thier "Smeg Ups" tape, one was on the bus coming home, he yelled at the top of his voice " I just kacked me pants", needless to say I was mortified, but there was that smile again.
His favoutite character was "Kryton".
Michael was also an avid Celtic fan, he wore his Celtic cap everywhere he went, he had a green bedroom, green carpet and green walls, everything had to be green.
Everyday I wake with the grief, nothing can take this pain away from me, and no-one could ever replace my precious baby, he is my angel.
My arms ache to hold him, even for a moment.
I long to hear his voice say "I love you Mummy"
And I long to tell him that I love him too.
There is no stronger bond than a Mother and Child, not even death can break this bond, it only makes it stronger.
This grief is the price I pay for love.
The day Michael died, a huge part of myself died with him.
I love you so very much baby boy.
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