This website is dedicated to Samuel...my firstborn son.
Samuel was stillborn after a pregnancy of 6 months due to a total
Placenta Praevia
which resulted in a placenta abruptia a condition
where the placenta comes totally loose from the uterus causing the 
baby to die in the womb.Due to a genetic bloodclotting disorder 
called Factor V Leiden  I had bloodclots in the placenta too.To prevent 
clotting of the umbilical cord,placenta or getting pre-eclampsia:
You can give yourself daily shots of LMWH that will help you and 
your baby not clot. Without taking these shots you leave yourself 
open to a major clotting event and/or pre-eclapsia, and your 
unborn child can die from clots that form in the umbilical cord or 
placenta(why many women with FVL have miscarriages). Both of these 
things don't always happen. I'm just giving an example of what 
can happen. An OB-GYN that specializes in high risk pregnancies 
should work along side with your hematologist so that your 
pregnancy is a successful one.I didn't know I had FVL(FactorVLeiden)
till 2002.I also found out I have Hashimoto's.A thyroid problem with 
thyroid antibodies.(autoimmune disorder)Both FactorVLeiden and Hashimoto's 
cause miscarriages....So it's a miracle we have 4 children.(I've
had 17 miscariages too)If you want to help someone who's grieving
due to giving birth to a stillborn baby please read this
Pamflet.
All parents go through 4 stages of grief.
After losing Samuel I wrote a lot of poems.Below a poem I 
dedicated to him.

My Baby....Born Too Soon 

He lay beneath my heart in a soft secret place
and I felt I knew him,
Yet I've never seen his face
Snuggled warm and quiet he moved to show he was there
like the touch of butterfly wings created from the love we shared

I'm sorry God kept you as an angel 
and that you couldn't be here with us
Wings on your back
a halo on top
would be your destiny
God didn't look deep enough into my heart
for a precious child like you wasn't here for me to treasure

I thought I found a love like no other
that blossomed till the day of your birth
I'm so sorry God kept his little angel
and couldn't send you here to me on earth


This poem is dedicated to little Samuel
Who came and went like a breath of air
but who will be loved forever.


(c) Jeunesse Baart-Voges All Rights Reserved

Samuel's light will shine forever in my heart.

"It's Hard to say good-bye before you've 
even had a chance to say hello."

One day after I have climbed the stairs to heaven 
I will hold you again.

Samuel is forever remembered in the Book of Life
at the Shrine of the Holy Innocents in New York.

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