Chapter 6: Don't Want You Back

Melanie

"Okay, boys," the doctor said, looking at his clipboard. "Um, AJ, if you will come with me..." The doctor led AJ out of the room and closed the door, leaving me and Brian alone in the room together.
I couldn't look at his eyes. It hurt me too much. I still felt bad about what I had done.
"Mellie?" The sound of Brian's voice made tears spring to my eyes. I had loved him so much! How could I ever do something so mean?
"Mellie?" Brian's voice sliced through the silence like a knife. "Melanie, I want you to know that I will never take this out on you, whether it's my baby or not." I looked at him. The look on his face mirrored my own fear but held a look of compassion.
"Brian, I will always love you!" I moved over to where Brian was sitting and put my arms around him. His hug seemed reserved which surprised me.
"Mellie..." His voice broke off. Then he pulled away from me and motioned for me to sit in the chair next to him. "Can I ask you one question and will you give me an honest answer?" I nodded. I would do anything for Brian. Anything.
He took a deep breath. "Melanie...Melanie which one of us do you love more?" His eyes were filled with pain that made me cry.
"Oh, Brian!" I covered my face with my hands. Brian didn't make any move to comfort me which hurt me even more. I felt so empty right then.
"Brian, you have to realize that I never meant to hurt you like that! I love you so much," I touched his face with my hands. His expression was still hard and unforgiving.
"Brian, I swear to you that I would do anything to avenge the hurt that I caused you! I never meant to do anything like this!" I leaned my head against the wall. "Brian, how could I have screwed up this bad? How could I have done something so dumb?" I turned to look at him. "My mother always used to tell me how much fun she had playing on the other guy, but then I'd hear her crying late at night because of how much it had hurt her and how much she had hurt the other guy. I always promised myself that I would never do what my mother does. My mother is a slut and I intended not to be. I hated my mother for that and I always will."
"You never answered my question."
"Brian, look deep in your heart," I placed my hand over his heart. "Who do you feel that I love the most?"
He placed his hand over mine, removing it from his heart and placing it back in my lap. "I don't know, Mellie. I really don't know."
Just at that moment, the doctor and AJ walked back into the room.
"Mr. Littrell, it's your turn."
Brian took one last look at me and turned and walked out the door, this time leaving me alone with AJ.
My heart was burning with all the different emotions that I was feeling at that moment. But I recognized two in particular. One was hurt. The other, I just can't explain but I know I've felt it before.
"Mel, baby, I'm scared as hell," AJ reached for my hand. I gladly let him hold it.
"AJ, you're not the one having the baby," I looked straight into his eyes, surprised that his were brimming with tears. "Oh, baby!" I pulled him into my arms and held him close to me. What had I gotten him into?
"Mel, do you think that Brian will ever forgive me for... you know, sleeping with you?" His voice was muffled against my body.
"I really don't know." I put my hands on either side of his face and lifted his face until it was equal with mine. "AJ, always remember that I'll always love you. I'll always be right here."
He put his hands over mine and put them around his neck. He softly kissed my lips. Now I knew exactly what had seduced me in the first place. His soft, sweet kisses and his love had gotten us all in this stitch in the first place. But I still loved him and always would.
He put the strands of my hair that were out of place behind my ears and sat down in the chair that Brian had previously occupied.
Brian walked back into the room, the doctor right behind him.
"Well, I'll be right back with the results of the DNA tests. Would you like me to just pull you out one by one to tell you the results or would you like me to tell you all at once? I've had some trouble with situations like this before, that's why I'm asking."
"Just tell us all at once," I answered. I guess it would be easier that way. There's no way that the two of them would start a fight right in front of the doctor.
"Alright, I'll be back shortly." The doctor turned and left.
What the doctor had called "shortly" seemed like an eternity. None of us could look at the other. We were all scared and anxious about what the outcome would be. I didn't know what I would do, no matter whose baby it was. But I was most afraid of what the boys would do. I didn't want them to turn against each other.
Finally, the doctor came back. We all jumped out of our seats and looked anxiously at the doctor.
"Well, folks, I don't know whether to say I'm sorry or to congratulate you. I do have the news of which one of you is the father."
I stepped closer to the doctor, also stepping between the boys. I wrung my hands nervously.
"Please, hurry and tell us."
"Well, the baby's father is Mr. McLean." The doctor turned towards AJ and shook his hand. Then he turned and shook Brian's hand. "I think I'll leave you folks for a minute. Just take this sheet to the front desk when you're ready."
The doctor left, leaving me with the two boys who were staring at each other as if they were about to have a duel. AJ had a scared look on his face; Brian's face was hardened with hate and anger.
"Let's go." Brian said between clenched teeth. We all turned to walk out the door.
The ride home was a quiet one, one that, like the wait, also seemed to take an eternity.
Right at that moment, I hated myself. I hated myself so much. But I also hated my mother for bringing me up in world full of cheating and hate. Yet there was still excess hate that I didn't know what to do with. I did have a plan, though. I did know a way to get rid of this hate. And I knew that it had to be done fast.

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