Who Would've Thought?

Who would've thought that after 18 years
I'd still be clueless as to why I'm here
And how I came to be remains a mystery
Should I follow the Darwins or the Hail Mary's
And what if my choice leaves me nothing to gain
Will the lack of truth make me go insane
What do I really have going for me
Just another sucker faced kid dumb and lazy
I'm trying not to be too hard on myself
Because I got no love for anybody else
And maybe time will change my mind and my ways
But til then my friend this pessimism stays

Dumber and dumber and dumber
My feelings getting number
It's not the way that it should be
But it's me

Living a lie almost every damn day
If you got a problem with me just stay out of my way
Cause I'm tired of being there for you people who hate
My voice isn't loud but it's not second rate
You're dissing my words just stay out of my biz
This brain is worth more than what you think it is
Who is to really say who is the idiot
How do you know you're not the one who's full of sh*t
I don't know how long I'm staying in this hole
But I'll never let you make me lose control
And maybe repitition'll change my mind and my ways
But til then this mother fucker stays
Who would've thought that after 18 years
I'd still be clueless as to why I'm here
And how I came to be remains a mystery
Should I follow the Darwins or the Hail Mary's
And what if my choice leaves me nothing to gain
Will the lack of truth make me go insane
What do I really have going for me
Just another sucker faced kid dumb and lazy
I'm trying not to be too hard on myself
Because I got no love for anybody else
And maybe time will change my mind and my ways
But til then my friend this pessimism stays

Dumber and dumber and dumber
My feelings getting number
It's not the way that it should be
But it's me

Living a lie almost every damn day
If you got a problem with me just stay out of my way
Cause I'm tired of being there for you people who hate
My voice isn't loud but it's not second rate
You're dissing my words just stay out of my biz
This brain is worth more than what you think it is
Who is to really say who is the idiot
How do you know you're not the one who's full of shit
I don't know how long I'm staying in this hole
But I'll never let you make me lose control
And maybe repitition'll change my mind and my ways
But til then this mother fucker stays