Sleepless

I lie awake and I dream
Of a place where everything is as it seems
Where I don't have to lie or fake
Or say things I don't mean
Where all my life has a feel
Like what I do is really real
And if I left this world tomorrow
People would think it was a big deal

Will my naivetes blind?
Or will my intuition find
What I've been missing all my life
I'm afraid to look outside
Because I know everybody dies
The instant that I close my eyes
And I don't want to be surprised
When I turn around to silence

I lie awake and I long
For the day I leave this place that I don't belong
This place where nothing I say is right
And everything I do is wrong
And I have to pay every price
I have to make every sacrifice
To get the love that I should have deserved
From the second I opened my eyes

Will my naivetes blind?
Or will my intuition find
What I've been missing all my life
I'm afraid to look outside
Because I know everybody dies
The instant that I close my eyes
And I don't want to be surprised
When I turn around to silence

I lie awake and I pray
You'll hear my plea and take me away
Not just from this hell I live in now
But the hell that surrounds me every day
Because they don't know me like you do
And they don't believe what I say is true
Their ears are deaf to my wisdom
And my pleading does no good
Will my naivetes blind?
Or will my intuition find
What I've been missing all my life
I'm afraid to look outside
Because I know everybody dies
The instant that I close my eyes
And I don't want to be surprised
When I turn around to silence

Will my naivetes blind?
Or will my intuition find
Where I've been wasting all my life
And how to end my meaningless strife
And while I know everybody dies
In that same instant I shut these eyes
I just don't want to be too surprised
When I show my face to silence