Lazy

I am too lazy to live
I crave nothing but nothingness
Don't wanna be a pilot
Don't wanna be a cop
Don't wanna be an astronaut
I just want to find a place and close my eyes
Just wanna stop living out this blessing
God has wasted on me
I'll never grow up to abide by our rules
I'll never crave advancing in this
I don't cry cuz I don't care
I just wanna find a place to rest and close my eyes
And when I say suicide
I'm not talking about it the way that you think
Its been given all this negative hype
Because people say they wish someone weren't dead
And then pretend they don't mean it
I could never close my eyes and
Put a bullet in my head
But a razorblade might be the ticket
The one-way ticket
That would take me to the place
I will go anyway
That is if you believe it
It wont take away all the things I've done
But it might make a few more people
Smile more everyday
And if you knew you were just wasting time
Time and people's money
Would you be so unselfish
As to give our life
To make people happy
And the only thing that you'll miss
Is the pain and suffering
You've created yourself
By trying to become immortal like your foes
Wouldn't your death teach them a lesson
Tell them they've only got a moment to shine
So don't waste it cleaning trays
Don't waste it making pottery
Don't waste it selling cars
Just shine
Yes your death will teach them to love life more
So they won't want to die
And it will be longer before you have to see them in hell
And if salvation is true well then I guess
I've really screwed myself over
But if you already feel like you're living in hell
And salvation comes to everyone including you
Then you would see the same people you hate in heaven
And you'd be just as miserable in heaven
And if heaven felt like hell
What would that make hell feel like?
You see its looking better all the time
:)