Support

    Doubt not someone. Do not think that there is something they cannot do. By doubting them or their ability you inspire doubt and fear and insecurity and uncertainty in them where there was none before. Sometimes people fail not because they could not do that thing they tried to do, but because someone else convinced them that there was reason to believe they should not have hope.

    Do not destroy someone's hopes and dreams because you want to protect them, because you fear they cannot take the disappointment of their own failure. Those who are strong enough to dare to dream what so many say they cannot achieve with the knowledge of the difficulty of their aim are strong enough to survive falling short.

   I listen not to what others know of me. I Listen only to what I know. Your love and support do not constitute fearing and doubting and worrying for me, but supporting me so that Ican fear and doubt and worry for myself with someone to. Allow me to do what I do, attempt every goal, see all I see, live as I live supporting every decision of not condoning it. Even if you disaprove of my decisions, support my making them. I am tired of being strong because you are not. I am tired of hiding my fear and my doubt and my uncertainty because you harbor enough for the both of us. The key to loving me is allowing me to mess up and succeed and struggle and fall and soar because it is not my future, goals, ambitions, or decisions I ask you to support, but me. What I do in my life holds little relevance to your ability to support me. I cannot feel that I can talk to you, share with you, trust you to hold me up if I have to tolerate your doubting and patiently listen to what is in actuality only selfishness and fear of my doing something you would not do and fear of my disobediance in the guise of a disapproval.

     I can soar triumphant without you. I do not need support. But lonely is that glory that I cannot share. I want you along side me to pick me up when I fall and to stand with me when I succeed. But if the only support you can offer me is to check my ability, to check my hope which may appear to you to be false, to express and feel the doubt and fear and uncertainty you think my situation warrents, tha I not only do not need your support, but I do not want it. I do not want to share my strength with those who would not allow me to be weak.

    You no longer have any power of me. What I knew in my gut, what I knew of myself proved to be true. Your fears were fears felt because of how you would feel in my life. I am sorry you fear what I do. I am sorry you fear where I go. I am sorry you fear what I understand and know and live. But I am not sorry that I do and go and understand and know and live as I do, because in my gut I knew that your fears belonged not to me, but to you.