Dreams fade so quickly, like the catching water in your hands. It'll never stay with you, it'll always trickle off into an unknown world, where it will be kept free from harm and will grasp the edges of freedom itself ... dreams are such stubborn things ... things that yearn for freedom, and often hate the result in the the end. As my dream fades away, I look up into the night sky, the colours amaze me as I stare in awe. Nothing is more captivating for me, nothing steals me, or my dreams, away from this world, nothing is as precious as the beautiful midnight sky...
After nearly a year on hiatus, I've decided that Midnight Sky will be closed. Nothing was getting done, laziness took over, and all my files were lost when my computer had the biggest crash of all time. And 0catch sucks, in case you ever want to upload stuff onto there.
So I'd lost half the content I'd made for the site, content that wasn't ready for uploading onto the server, but it was still my content. My content that I worked unbelievably hard on. And when it disappeared, that was the final straw.
I'd been struggling with the site, because when you live in a family of seven, it's very hard to get on the computer and have enough time to do anything. And with the constant battle of school and struggling relationships, this site bore nothing but stress and false hope. I had been so aggravated by the end that I wasn't even going to bother changing the hiatus page.
But now, things have improved, and I have moved on. While I love digimon, I believe series one was the best series, and that died quite some time ago. I loved 03 + 04, [I personally thought 02 sucked], but they didn't have the same feel as 01. Nothing ever compares to the original, nothing, so it's death may have sparked some of the reasons this site will be closed.
I locked myself from the "internet world" for a while, only talking to close online friends through email, and rarely updating in my blog [sorry Saku ^^]. But I feel I am a person with many issues, and I choose not to express them to anyone, and I really mean no one, because though I complain and whine, how I really feel is never exposed. This ... fake mask that I constantly wear ... it began to eat away at me, and, in a way, it has consumed me altogether. The mask has become apart of me now, and ever since I realised it, my life has become somewhat better. Though the constant rants and stuff that I go on about seem to reflect my "bad side", you're really only getting a glimpse into my soul.
But for some reason, things are becoming better. Perhaps it is the constant support I get from my friends, even if they don't realise they're supporting me? Or maybe it's something else, something I don't even see. And because things have become better, I have come up with an ultimatum - I'm not going to close this site - completely.
Why would I bother closing something I put my heart and soul into when I was only 13 years old? It would be like throwing away a part of me, no matter how small. And I never want to do that again. Never. So I've decided that I will reopen this site, for those who wish to view it, but I won't update it. Maybe every once in a while I will, but I have other things to look at, other issues that are more concerning. I promised myself I would never close this site, and I don't plan on breaking it - I'm only bending it a little - though I only ever bend the promises that I make to myself.
But first, I want to thank all of my friends, who've put up with me and kept my spirits high. You will never be forgotten, and I know that I can always trust you with anything!! I wouldn't even be bothered with this if it weren't for you guys...
And please note, a lot of stuff is missing, so it's under heavy construction. Yes, I'm still lazy XD And sorry if none of this makes sense XDDD
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