release

12-28-2000

Wanted to feel
                like I'd been washed clean
Wanted to see
               through once again innocent eyes
Wanted to experience
              the exhilaration of the first touch

Like you-with you- because of you

But I will not wish for a time machine
To change the memories
                     choices
                     -like pictures in my head
                     old and greay and some faded

Because they make me who I am
                    and you call me beautiful
    even         after I bleed in front of you
                   It makes me dry sometimes
But I realize that those tears hold dual meaning
Especially when you hold me
Wiping thos tears away

So finally I'm able to accept myself
and it's taking time
But it will never require a time machine