Title : With You
Author : Beth and Kathy P.
Series :Voyager
Codes : Voy, C/P
Parts : 1/?
Rating : NC-17
Summery: Sequel to the "Redemption" saga. Tom still harbours mixed emotions about his relationship with Chakotay
Warnings: m/m relationship
Disclaimer: Paramount owns all character written about in this story. I am just taking them out for a walk.



WITH YOU

"Gods, Tom. Are you ever going to let me win?" Harry griped as he watched the lanky pilot proceed to clear the pool table. Again.

Tom looked up from the shot he was lining up to see the dismay on his best friend's face. "Well you never know Harry I might miss the eight ball."

Harry snorted, "Yeah right."

Smiling Tom lined up his shot again then resisted the urge to gloat when the eight ball skilfully sank into the right corner pocket. "That's game Harry, you owe me a beer." Tom said as he laid his pool stick on the table. Moving towards Harry he patted him on the back. "Come on, Har be a sport. You'll have better luck next time."

"Yeah cause I won't be playing you."

Laughing Tom sat on a stool by the bar. "Sandrine, two beers please."

"Right away, Monsieur Tom."

"So how are things with you and Chakotay?" Harry asked as he accepted his beer from Sandrine.

"They're great," Tom said succinctly.

Rolling his eyes at the brief reply he elaborated "Have you started making plans for your wedding yet?"

Tom reached for his beer taking a sip before he replied, "Not yet."

"It's been months, Tom, when's the big day going to be?"

"Jeez Harry, we haven't even picked a date yet." Tom replied.

"Why not?"

"I kinda like the way things are now."

"But you don't even live together yet."

"Harry, Harry, Harry. Please don't bug me about this. I hear enough about it from Chak."

Harry took a drink from the glass he was holding. The cold beer tasted wonderful.

Tom could tell what Harry was thinking. "Don't get me wrong Harry, I love Chakotay, it's just that I don't think I am ready for the next step yet."

"What's the next step, Tom?"

Tom took another sip of his beer, savouring the flavour. "I don't know. I just don't think I'm ready to get married. I like being engaged, but I worry about the next part that's all."

"Tom I don't think you have anything to worry about. Chakotay is head over heels in love with you. I've never seen him happier."

"I know, I know. It's just, man, I don't even know how to put it into words."

"You're scared."

Tom jerked his head up to meet Harry's eyes. "No, I'm not scared. Chakotay doesn't scares me." Tom paused for a moment trying to think of an excuse to leave. "I'm sorry Harry but I forgot I have to meet Chakotay. See you tomorrow. Ok?"

Harry frowned slightly, "Sure thing, Tom." He replied as he watched Tom quickly leave the holodeck. He vowed to himself that he would talk to Tom again tomorrow. He knew how complex Tom was and how the other man didn't like opening up about himself to let anyone know what was troubling him.

With a sigh he finished his beer and then left Sandrine's to turn in.


Tom entered Chakotay's quarters, happy to get away from Harry. His friend's questions were starting to trouble him. He didn't know why he was having such a problem committing to Chakotay. Refusing to start analysing himself, he pushed all troubling thoughts away.

Not seeing his lover in the main room he moved in the bedroom. Walking in he could hear Chakotay showering in the bathroom. Peeling off his shirt he tossed it on the bed before sitting on the edge to remove his boots.

Chakotay entered the bedroom, with a towel tied around his waist drying his hair with another. A smile spread across his face when he saw Tom sitting half undressed on the bed. Leaning down for a quick kiss he asked, "How was your evening with Harry?"

"Fine. I won at pool again." Tom said laughing. "Harry didn't take it very well."

Chakotay laughed along with Tom. "What did it cost him this time?"

"Just a beer, nothing too extravagant."

"Poor Harry. Are you ever going to let him win?"

Tom raised a finger to his chin and struck a thoughtful pose. "Hmm, let me think for a moment. No."

Chakotay lightly smacked Tom's hand away from his chin and chuckled. "Smart ass. What are you doing back so soon? I thought you boys were going to burn the midnight oil," he said as he placed the towel back in the bathroom.

Moving back toward the bed he picked up the shirt Tom had tossed onto it. Frowning at his smirking lover, he folded the shirt up and laid it on the back of one of the chairs in the bedroom.

"I like a man who'll clean up after me," Tom drawled in a thick southern accent. Grinning impudently he nudged his boots towards Chakotay waiting to see if his lover would pick them up as well.

"I ain't your maid, Tom," Chakotay replied in a mangled southern accent. He snickered as Tom threw himself back on the bed laughing.

"Nice accent, big guy," Tom chuckled. "You sound like a mutated redneck"

"Redneck?" Chakotay asked. "Where do you get these terms from, Tom?" Bending down he quickly picked up Tom's boots and placed them to the side.

Sitting up, Tom leered at Chakotay as he bent over, his towel hugging his behind tightly. "Nice ass too, big guy."

"Thanks, hon," Chakotay said playfully as he moved to sit beside the younger man. "By the way, don't think that I forgot my question. What are you doing home so early?"

"Well, I missed you terribly." Tom said innocently

"Try again."

"Umm, needed to see my hunk a' hunk of burnin' love?"

"Uh-huh."

Tom mock scowled at Chakotay, hoping to change the topic. "Poor me. No one ever believes me. There I was, sitting in Sandrine's horny for my man and now he is giving me nothing but grief."

Running a finger down Tom's chest Chakotay replied, "Horny, huh?"

"Yep. Very, very horny." Tom emphasized. "Can you think of a way I can remedy this situation?"

"Oh I can think of a few things," Chakotay replied as he moved a hand behind Tom's head to pull him in for a hard kiss.

"That's a good start," Tom panted when the kiss was broken. "But I can think of something else that will be even better." Tom said as he rose from the bed to kneel in front of Chakotay.

Reaching out to caress Tom's head Chakotay looked at his lover fondly. "Oh, and what would that be."

"This," Tom said as he pushed the towel surrounding Chakotay's hips out of the way. Reaching out a hand to stoke the hardening cock Tom looked up at his lover. "This will always cure my horny moments."

"I'm glad I can accommodate you." Chakotay gasped as Tom began to kiss his inner thigh. Leaning back onto his elbows he let the sensations that Tom was providing carry him away.

Kissing a trail up Chakotay's thighs Tom let go of the cock he was stroking and watched as it hardened to it's full length. Tom let his hand drop to the older man's balls caressing them gently, enjoying the moan of pleasure this wrought from Chakotay.

Chakotay clutched the edge of the bed tightly as Tom brought his mouth to place a kiss at the base of his penis. The teasing touch barely there. Resisting the urge to grab Tom's head he closed his eyes tightly and thrust his hips slightly signalling he needed more.

Tom grinned as he slowly drove his fianc? crazy. He loved giving Chakotay head, it always made him feel great to be in control of his lover's ecstasy. Not wanting to torment his lover any further Tom brought his tongue to the tip of his lover cock. Gently licking around the foreskin he lapped up the fluid that was collected there. Chakotay moaned beautifully as Tom's began to bring his mouth down around his cock. When the penis hit the back of Tom's throat he applied a suction and brought his lips up the length of the pulsing member. Plunging his mouth down again he began a steady rhythm of pleasure. Tom could feel his lover quickly losing control so he brought his mouth away from his lover's cock and grabbed at Chakotay's hand clutching the bed, "Not yet big man, I want us to come together." he said as he began to stand.

Fighting the urge to come Chakotay looked up the see Tom starting to remove the rest of his cloths. Finally standing nude before his lover Chakotay appreciated the view of his aroused partner.

Tom placed a hand on Chakotay's chest and pushed him back until he was lying on his back. Tom motioned for his lover to move up the bed before moving to cover him with his own body. He pushed his own hard cock in to his lover's below, enjoying the friction it created.

The two men lay in the bed kissing each other passionately. Tom blindly fumbled for the lube container sitting on the nightstand. Sitting up he straddled his lover's thighs, coating his fingers with lube he started to slowly stroke the Commander's stiff erection. When the member was liberally coated Tom rose up on his knees and edged forward until he could comfortable bring himself down on Chakotay's erection. When he was fully seated on his lover's cock Tom let out a sigh of satisfaction. He pulled his body up off the cock and looked down at his lover's face contorted in ecstasy.

Opening his eyes again Chakotay saw Tom straining above him, moving up and down on his cock, the sensations being pulled from him were delicious. Bringing his hands up to stroke Tom's thighs he knew he wasn't going to last much longer. He began to thrust up into the tight heat enveloping him.

Squeezing his eyes shut Tom rode out one wave of pleasure after another. Chakotay finally grasped his thighs tightly and lunged up into his body one last time to come deep inside him. Arching his back Tom exploded all over his lover's chest, shuddering until he came to lie in the stickiness of his semen covering Chakotay. Tucking his head in the crook of the older man's neck Tom got his breathing under control. Sighing softly against the sweaty neck he whispered a soft "Thank you," before rolling off his lover to grab at the towel beside the bed. After cleaning himself and his lover he tossed the towel aside and snuggled deep into Chakotay's arms, sleep quickly claiming him.

Looking down at his sleeping lover Chakotay sighed, he knew that Tom was keeping something from him, but couldn't quite figure out what. He began to wonder if Tom was using sex to avoid talking to him. Well he wouldn't let Tom push him away like he did at the beginning of their relationship. With a mental reminder to talk to Tom in the morning Chakotay pulled Tom closer and drifted off to sleep.

********

Waking up slowly the next morning Chakotay felt a presence hovering above him in the bed. Trying to gather his sleepy mind together he cracked an eye open to see Tom leaning over him, his blue eyes slowly raking over his body.

Another part of his body woke up suddenly when Tom lightly brushed his long fingers over his chest. A soft moan brought Tom's eyes up to look at his face.

"Morning, big guy," Tom said lightly as he leaned down for a morning kiss.

They brushed their lips together slowly, just enjoying their quiet time together.

Pulling away Tom moved to lay down beside him again, fitting his longer frame up against him. "I've been thinking."

"About?" Chakotay prompted from the younger man as he petted up and down the pilot's arm.

With a grin Tom placed a kiss on the tip of the older man's nose. "Us. I was thinking that maybe we should start living in sin."

"What?" he said with a familiar look of amusement and confusion.

"You know. Let's shack up together."

Raising himself up on an elbow he looked down at the younger man. "Does this mean that you want to set a date for the marriage?"

Tom reached up and pulled him down again. "Not exactly, big guy. I was thinking that maybe we should move in together."

Suppressing a sigh Chakotay moved back and sat against the headboard. "Why don't we just get married?"

"What's the hurry?"

"Hurry? Tom we've been engaged for months now. Don't you think it's time to start making arrangements, or hell, even setting a date?"

Tom turned away from his lover and sat up, swinging his legs over the side of the bed, not able to face Chakotay.

Chakotay winced at his tone, he didn't want to piss off Tom first thing in the morning. He remembered his promise to himself from last night to help Tom and not to cause the younger man to withdraw from him. Leaning forward to stroke Tom's back he said, "I think it's a good idea, Tom. I've never 'lived in sin' with anyone before."

Grinning brightly Tom turned back to him. "How about if I start moving my stuff in after our shift? That is if you want to live in your quarters, they are bigger than mine. Or we can ask the Captain for another set of quarters..."

Chakotay reached for Tom, pulling him in for a quick kiss on the lips. "My quarters will be fine, Tom. I just want to be with you. It doesn't matter where we live as long as we're together."

Tom's eyes misted over as Chakotay pulled him even closer. "Yeah," the younger man said softly as he buried him head again the bigger man's neck. "Together."

Kissing the pilot rounded shoulder his whisper huskily. "How much time do we have before our shift?"

"Fifty minutes if we skip breakfast," Tom replied as his hands started to wander over the commander's body again.

Pushing Tom down on the bed Chakotay loomed over him. "Who needs breakfast," he said as he moved to lay over the pilot.

Embracing the older man tightly Tom groaned with pleasure as the roving mouth moving over his body. "Who indeed."

**********

Chakotay sat in his chair on the bridge pondering his morning conversation with Tom. While one part of him was glad that Tom was moving in another part wondered why Tom was having a problem with getting married. They had been engaged for months now and he could count on one hand the number of times they had talked about marriage.

*I need someone to talk to about this,* Chakotay thought to himself, deciding he needed a sounding board to bounce his concerns off of. Not totally sure if there was a problem or if he was over reacting. Going over a list of friends he decided to talk to Kathyrn. She knew the most about him, and the least about Tom's troubled past. And unlike Harry and B'Elanna she wouldn't be biased on Tom's behalf. Making his mind up he decided to talk to Kathryn after his shift.

***************

"Enter," Janeway said when the chime to her office rang, not looking up from the padd she was reading in her office. Holding up a finger to motion to the person that she would be with them in a moment she finished perusing the report. Clicking off the pad she placed it on her desk and looked up to see Chakotay standing in front of her desk. With a quick smile she said, "What can I do for you commander?"

Chakotay smiled back, "I was wondering if I could sound a few things off you."

"Work related or personal?" Janeway asked.

"Personal," Chakotay replied.

Standing up and moving to the replicator Janeway ordered coffee pointing to Chakotay to see if he wanted anything.

"Tea please."

Taking the two hot cups from the replicator she moved over to the couch motioning for Chakotay to follow. Sitting gingerly so not to disturb the hot liquid. Handing Chakotay his cup as he sat she asked, "It's about Tom, right?"

Startled Chakotay asked, "How did you know?"

Sipping her coffee Janeway thought for a moment, "Well you were kind of distracted when you came on shift this morning and Tom's been acting skittish lately. Are you two having problems?'

"Yes. No. I don't know," he answered confused. "Tom said he wanted to move in with me this morning."

"But," Janeway prompted."

Chakotay sighed, "But he still won't set a date for the wedding, or even talk about plans for heaven's sake."

"Maybe he just wants to take things slowly, Chakotay. After all he is still recovering from a huge emotional trauma. Maybe he's still not to sure of himself and of your relationship."

"But I tell him I love him everyday, and I try to get him to talk about how he's feeling. It's so hard to get him to open up. I don't know what to do."

"Give him some time, Chakotay, anyone can tell he's head over heels for you. He's not going anywhere. Let him get use to being in a stable relationship for a while. Then gently urge him on to the next step. Support him no matter what. Moving in with you is probably a huge step for him. I don't think he has ever depended on anyone before. I think the relationship with his father wasn't the best, I don't know the details of it, but I know his father was away a lot."

Frowning slightly Chakotay nodded his head in agreement about Tom's father. He knew that Kathyrn did not know about the emotional and physical abuse Tom had suffered as a child, and it was not his place to fill her in. "Maybe that's all I can do."

Kathyrn rubbed Chakotay's arm comfortingly. "I realize your in a hurry to get married, but just slow down a bit, enjoy what you have and where you are going. It's a wonderful time in your life, never to be repeated again."

Chakotay digested what Kathyrn said, nodding slowly. "You're right, I wonder why I'm so uptight. I still have Tom with me and things are moving along, if a bit slowly, but still moving." Finishing his tea he placed it on the table. "Thank you, Kathyrn that helped a lot."

"You're welcome. You and Tom are my favourite couple on board, it makes me happy to see the two of you together. I know things will work out, just give it some time"

Chakotay rose from the couch, "Thank you, Kathyrn. I really appreciate your advice."

"No problem, Commander. Now tomorrow I hope I'll have all of you attention on the bridge," she said teasingly.

Chakotay just grinned and left her office.

Drawing her legs up underneath her, Kathyrn finished her coffee thinking more about the troubled young man that piloted her ship.


TBC.......

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