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Saturday, October 07, 2000
Does AOL have a new policy? If your IQ is below 25, you get a free account? Too many goddamn idiots have been IMing me today. Entertaining, yes. But still annoying.
so go ahead push your luck say what it is you gotta say to me we will push on into that mystery and it'll push it right back and there are worse things than that -- dar Friday, October 06, 2000
so i just watched jay leno. jenny thompson (that american swimmer who has won so many medals) was on. i miss the olympics. i miss the watching people from all over the world do what they do best. i am not a sports fan. not at all. i like the chicago cubs just because in my family, that is necessary to stay in the family. and i like college football (go cal!! golden bears rule!). but that is the extent of my sports watching. but i LOVE the olympics. i LOVE watching the swimming, diving, gymnastics, and track. those sports are so different from your standard televised american sports. i also love seeing all of the different countries represented. plus the olympic games made tv worth watching for 17 days. and the fact that this year they were in australia -- i LOVE australia. i LOVE the olympics. i LOVE the female athletes get heaps of coverage as well. and man, do i ever hope that osaka wins the bid for 2008...
so i just watched jay leno. jefny thompson (that american swimmer who has won so many medals) was on. i miss the olympics. i miss the watching people from all over the world do what they do best. i am not a sports fan. not at all. i like the chicago cubs just because in my family, that is necessary to stay in the family. and i like college football (go cal!! golden bears rule!). but that is the extent of my sports watching. but i LOVE the olympics. i LOVE watching the swimming, diving, gymnastics, and track. those sports are so different from your standard televised american sports. i also love seeing all of the different countries represented. plus the olympic games made tv worth watching for 17 days. and the fact that this year they were in australia -- i LOVE australia. i LOVE the olympics. i LOVE the female athletes get heaps of coverage as well. and man, do i ever hope that osaka wins the bid for 2008...
my mom woke me up to tell me about this: Japan: Quake jolts western Japan, 22 injuries reported although the quake was centered in tottori-ken, nowhere near either tokyo (sangos) or osaka (taka <3 + all of my other KGU friends), that is not far from hiroshima-ken. i don't think there was any damage there, but i do have heaps of friends in hiroshima-ken. luckily the quake hit a rural area. but the latest report i heard was that there were 22 injuries and 2 people buried alive (by rubble, i assume). at least i need not phone the sango family and taka. at least i know they are ok. but any time a big quake (or typhoon, or volcano, name your natural disaster) hits japan i tend to worry because a) i used to live there b) i want to live there again c) i just have so many friends over there, i worry that someone might have been traveling through the area or that someone's family lives in the area of the disaster and d) because i just love the japanese and their country so much that i do not want to see anything really bad happen over there. (sigh) Thursday, October 05, 2000
so i took that "are you a nerd?" test? i guess i'm not a nerd because i scored an 18%. BUT on the bitch test at the spark i scored a 47%. way above average. yes, i know i am a bitch. but no, not a nerd. i think i got that 18% just because i own a computer, send e-mail, etc. but math and science. forget it. just a bitch. not a nerd.
ever had one of those days where you don't want to do anything, but are still bored? that is the scenerio for me today. if i went back to sleep, i'd feel lazy. and besides, i am not even tired. but i can't get my lazy ass out of the house. i guess everyone needs those downer days. i was working on some graduate school applications, but i need to wait until my transcripts arrive in the mail, since i do not have my exact undergrad gpa memorized. mail came...no IG boots. i am starting to get pissy again with certain people. tonight is the VP debate. maybe i can convince some friends to come over to watch it with me. yeah...a lil' debate watching party. dream on, karen. everyone else finds this shit awfully boring. i rescheduled the gre. i am retaking it the wednesday before i leave for europe. keep your fingers crossed that i get at least 675's-700's across the board. i am just a horrible standardized test taker. blah. one of my other cousins is pregnant now. that means that i have one pregnant cousin and one pregnant cousin's wife. all the better for me. maybe then my family will never attempt to pressure me into having kids. i fucken hope so because i hate babies. all they do is cry, puke, and shit. i don't even think they're cute. i want cats, not kids. lyric of the moment: "i don't wanna be another mystery, oh no, i don't wanna see who's a-lookin' at me, oh no, i wanna be the one who feels the sun woah-oh, so if you wanna see the world with me, let's go" (thanks, dar). why? i guess that so many people find me to be extremely mysterious. i guess i should be happy about that, but in all honesty, i do not think i am that far out. also, a lot of people at wittenberg (aside from my closest friends and professors) thought i was someone who i am not. whatever. . .
good news. very good news. if gore's lead starts to increase even more, then i can vote for nader. and then my vote would actually go to nader and the green party and not as a vote against gore for bush. US Election 2000: Al Gore: Gore's Lead at 5 Points in Reuters/MSNBC Poll Wednesday, October 04, 2000
yeah! jim huffman (one of the gods of asian studies at witt) has agreed to write me letters of rec for grad school! he says the prospect of anyone wanting to teach about japan pleases him. from what ted told me, kurt miyazaki was out ill today, so maybe i'll hear back from him tomorrow. but i just sent out two packets of letters of rec. what a relief! other good news is that tower records gave me their IG cd sampler for free. free. i didn't have to buy anything. free. how nice. and on the way home, i heard galileo ON THE RADIO! wow. yeah, happy day! now if my allergies would just go away! Tuesday, October 03, 2000
so i was on the phone with university of washington (that is in washington STATE. . . not DC and none of that Washington University of St. Louis) and as it turns out for my program (japan studies in the school of international studies) they actually look (and highly weigh) GRE scores. whatthefuck?!? what does the GRE (or any general standardized test) show? how someone does on a useless test on a random day? i don't think that shit reflects any intellectual ability whatsoever. nor do i believe that that it can determine how one will do in grad school. i know i fucken flunked the SAT and still did superb at college. looks like i'll be taking that GRE at least three more times. or forgetting about U Wash. too damn bad cause they have a hell of a program... and isn't applying to grad school stressful enough?! the fucken GRE just adds a higher degree of stress. i do not think that someone who had a great GPA as an undergrad along with praising letters of rec should be forced to take that shit! i mean, grad school apps ain't fun. at best they are books...at worst they are novels. not to mention tracking down former profs (amy christiansen, i love you), hearing back from them on whether they agree to write letters of rec, requesting zillions of transcripts and finally having to prove to 8 schools that i am serious about academia. hello?!?! aren't these obnixious apps proof enough? it's not like very many little kids say "i want to be a professor when i grow up." many college grads don't say that shit either. in fact, not many of my friends (at this point) are interested in graduate work. they are sick of academia. i am not. there is nothing i'd rather do than work on my research, maybe publish my findings one day, and teach my passions to college students. i highly doubt many people have such goals. the fact is, grad school applications are tedious. no one, in their right mind, who doesn't give a shit about furthering their studies in a specific area is going to want a Ph.D. no one who wants to be OUT of academia is going to apply to grad school. i think the personal statements are the most valuable section of grad school apps. they give the candidates the chance to discuss why they want to go through crazy academic hell in the first place and what they plan to get out of it. GRE scores only reflect that daddy is rich enough (or in my case, mommy was nice enough) to pay for kaplan or the princeton review...
for once i feel alive. i woke up at 6am (that's right people...6AM!) today. maybe it's because my meds knocked me out at 11:30pm last night. or maybe it's because i am excited to get my ass out of the house and get to borders to spend my gift card on the BRAND NEW (today's the release date) indigo girls cd! only 2 new songs on it. both of which i know, but i need it for my collection. or maybe (just maybe) i woke up at 6am because my allergies are finally going away and i am feeling better... nah..that's wishful thinging. i still feel like shit. just an alive piece of shit. so tonite is the big presidential debate. and yes, i am still torn. i support nader 100%, but a vote for nader may be a vote taken away from gore which translates into a vote for bush. i'll have to see how the polls are right before election day and then make an educated decision. ok, need to run... Monday, October 02, 2000
Sunday, October 01, 2000
ok, i do have more to say... (sorry) it annoys me to no fucken end when men (who are complete strangers) on AOL IM me and address me as "sweetie" "honey" "babe" or aything along those lines. i always respond sharply (karen be bitchy to AOL freaks? nah, never! right, brian ok here is a typical start to a conversation: I don't know why I have so many random assholes IM me. Brian and I think it is because in my profile under marital status, I have "I am a bitch. Don't try." it's like they need to go for the conquest. I always (happily) explain to them that "bitch" is a term that the current feminist movement is reclaiming as their own. it means a women who is independent, opinionated, and will not take crap from any man. a bitch can be a woman who doesn't need a boyfriend or a husband. they'll never get it. . . i also have a policy of never meeting anyone who i chat with online. that is just too freaky. besides, 99% of all the men online who randomly IM women are losers anyway. . . brian wants me to set up a section of my web page with all of the pointless online chats i have had. they are usually quite entertaining (my favorite is still the idiot who did not know that japan is an island nation. some people...). maybe one day i will, but now, this blog's for brian!!!
so maybe i can leave before next april? i hear japan calling. tomorrow i can finally begin (drumroll, please) grad school applications. i got all my shit in order. i need to call wittenberg and speak to two more professors about recs (sensei already agreed to do them . . . 1 down 2 to go). i need to go to kinkos and xerox everything so that i can do a handwritten copy and my mom's secretary can type them and make them look really spiffy. oh, friday was my dog's birthday. oops. anyway, happy birthday, shanghai. today is my father's birthday. i ain't calling him. so anyway, i am supposed to go downtown later this afternoon. i'll see how up to it i feel. but i must admit, i am hungry and could go for some good food (not CPK and not junk food). alright, i really have nothing more to say at this moment.
had a huge fight with my mother. i hate fighting, but i had some shit that needed to be said, ya know? |
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