I can write...

I can write…
I can spell, I know the mechanics, I am a good listener, and can tell great stories…
why am I a photographer in Television News?
where reporters have not near the aptitude in these traits,
that I do,
and I am…
“the photographer,”
Jason
the camera guy…

“fuck Armageddon, this is hell.” --Bad Religion

existential chaos,
disorder, comedy, tragedy, and reality.

As the world spins completely out of control in my mind, I wonder if my destiny will ever be feasible.
something I can do,
but unlikely able to do…
Money.
fucking burden of man,
of me,
The one thing that consistently holds me at bay…
unable to achieve my potential,
as a man, an artist, as one, walking alone,
with my work at my wake…

details to follow,
and an uncertain road ahead.

Television will never get me into film,
Television will never fulfill my destiny.
My role now in life is limited and beneath my abilities.
I can never achieve greatness like this…


3.3.05



2-26-05