Jennifer Ferguson

A LOST LOVED ONE

I almost dropped the phone when I heard the words "Kenji died today". You see Kenji was my godbrother whomed I loved dearly.He had a very bad heart condition. He was only 21 when he died. After I hung the phone, I walked to my room in a daze and started fumbling with my CDplayer hoping that the sound of my favorite songs would provide some comfort.

Although I had know this day was coming I still felt as if the wind had been knocked out of me. As I sat on my bed the tears came. My mother came quietly into the room and held me in a gentle embrace.

As I sat cradle in my mothers arms i thought to myself why him why now. As my mother left the the room i laid on my bed and sarted thinking about all those summers when kenji used to come by my house. It would be him my brothers and sisters and i we'd be out partying all day and night. The thing i will miss most about kenji was his abilty to me me laugh. The thing i reget most was me not being there to tell him i loved him before he'd died. My mother always tell me kenji knew you loved him very much. Well I just hope so.