Fitzann Reid

What You Want and What You Get

I am thirty- six year old female with a twenty- five year old body. I have a beautiful family consisting of a gorgeous husband (built like a rock), three genius kids (athletic too) and a dog. Working for one of the biggest corporations in Atlanta has enabled me to buy two bran new sports cars and a beautiful house. Occasionally, I have my twenty year old pool boy work overtime- on me that is- when my husband no longer satisfies me.

I do hope that as you read this, you will begin to realize that it is all bull shit. This was the life I wanted and although it's not true, I have played this scenario over and over in my mind millions of times hoping that one day it will become a reality.

OK, so I lied. Truth be told- I am a forty year old woman with a forty- one year old body. Up until the divorce, I had a good for nothing bastard husband who cheated on me. Now I just have a good for nothing bastard ex- husband who took everything except the kids. I love my kids and although they are a far stretch from genius- their OK.

I work at a day care center that pays not nearly enough to support three kids and far be it for that bastard to help out financially. I wish I had a real car in place of that piece of junk I drive. I have no pool therefore I have no pool boy- which leads me to the fact that I haven't been "satisfied" in months. This is what I got and although it isn't anywhere near what I wanted, it's my life.

A word from the wise- in today's world you are guaranteed nothing, Don’t expect all your dreams to become reality and although it is possible, it’s a long shot. Whatever you remember about fairy tales coming true was a lie (Cinderella was on drugs). That’s why we call them fairy tales because they're only a dream.

If you want to dream all your life that’s fine but if you don’t open your eyes to reality you'll never see what's coming. The real world is full of broken hearts, liars, cheaters and conniving bastards like my ex- husband. It's not a fair world and it doesn't help to complain. You have to take it as you get it and move on.

On that rare occasion when you just happen to stumble on chance- and what you want starts to resemble what you get, 9 out of ten times you want start to want more. And here we create for ourselves a whole new problem. This area is something that I cannot relate to only because I haven't been there yet.

So I will say this for the last time - what you want is not always what you get so be prepared for anything.