Poetry written when I was 17 in 1992

Red moving toward transition of the rain

Blood fills the freshness of her day

Intertwining thoughts of purity

The bright twinkle of her soul

Desert dust wiped from this dream

Lust and love interbred

An illusion

a illusion

Wanting a new start

Love of lover’s den

Cascading in it’s ever ambience

Watch men bleed for your image

Pleasure dome

Deserts edge

Blow your love back in sands

I am waiting

The Prince

Crown the prince

For he was once a clown

Glowing smile

Flowing hair

Feelings he felt

Passed to the masses

Driven deep into the abyss

Cycles

Afraid she prayed

Alive she cried

Thrived she died

Loves translucent

See through the mask of image

For I am a fire inside

But outward I am cold in looking

Love

Love is blind, beating

Love has a sweet touch

but bland taste

Homeless

The moon rose

While the man was dead

The sheep on the hill are to dispose of his head

List the details of the chosen people

Electric Life

First Show

Walking in downbeat rain

Watching the dawn

Speaking what must be spoken

The sulking pain of life

Gem

Your eyes are the gleam in a gem

the sparkle of ocean blue

extinguished

life is beginning into a stare

Sweet tempest you were mixing potion

cold and heat

Meetings

The snow freshly laid

Sprinkled and nurtured with your kindness

Lifting of the snow results into a spring grass blade

Spring like you

Beautiful blossoms

Your progressive soul reaches closer for I to see

Disorder as a tone

Calmed by the nexus of your being

No longer sensual seeking knowledge alone

Decipher the message of your beginning

for we are all brothers and sisters

because we all meet the same ending

His Justice

A broad range

decisive pre-ambitions

to commit the supreme act

a loathing taste

of all of humanity

that which is under his jurisdiction

for the dispensing of his justice

Accusation

Open the mouth to mournful belonging

Superficial desires

spent dreams are met

a disagreeable law

inbred into society

forty-million deaths

a number quite high where we could feed the world

and choose not

I will not go

I will not go

I will unite or die meaningless in a twisted world

Persian Gulf

Professional

Speeding

Death

into

a

phony

war

The Rich

I cry for the beautiful fish are dying

the food only settles at the bottom

where creatures live

teeth gleaming

eating their abundant servants

absorbing what they don’t need

Earth

I want to be at home

where the creatures roam

Blood, lust, and hate

I am here without debate

I am something more…

A belonging to something bigger in a world of outcasts

watching slow twinkling sparkles calling my name

proclaiming their actions

for destroying the unknown

fear breeding fear

in our society today

Religion

God’s children run rampant circles

unknown

Dismissing sin so they may get in

Spending un-living thought

The cycle of life (nothing)

I see

where

we

in blank page

into

future

nothing

Juice

Breed to feed on juice

they invented your appearance mirror

Scrub don’t wipe transparent desires

I will not go to seek your meager solution

of potent honey in a den of thieves

I will not go

I will not go

prefer self-knowledge

to ignorant oblivion

All I know

Anti-Christ until the

dawn

and it goes on

because the people laying

are watching death spraying

because their little and fierce

so your fucking spear may pierce

something in the grassy realm

slowly wanting what is right

regression of might

though the game is all the same

spread by lies in a world which I despise

Dionysian

Blood trails are following me

I own the way the future goes

Its so kind to me

devil misbehaves in children’s graveyards

drunken twice

because I am the dionysian bow to me

"A few giants have a special understanding for bugs"

"To live alone one must be an animal or a god says Aristotle. There is yet a third case: one must be both—a philosopher." Friedrich Nietzsche

Looking through the clouds

I am stone

ocean

death

alone

watching my corpse

weeping

chickens have eaten

fallen angels tooted

claiming mine of many souls

The unknown living

I despise

all who fly into a ocean of madness covered with sadness

the coming of the floor

close

"Worship god, indirectly pledging allegiance to yourself because you are actually the determination of fate"- GranolaJay

"I love the way you put me here. I suffer so. I want back in"- GranolaJay

Human, All to Human

I am

Therefore you are

human, all too human

as Nietzche once proclaimed

thought predicament

your eyes are closed in the light

for I am

therefore you must be

close to it all

Dirty Water

Bending the things that break

contemplating

who will watch the watcher?

if we all die

the mark of civilization

order

spreading

because I can see the dots

Without your love

Love hath committed me to you

Without your love I would fall simply blue

In the deepest parts of my heart burns this fire

Which thou has caused this unwary desire

Without your love

My spirit shall no longer soar above

I now feel grief

the void

the darkness

that finds no outlet of relief

In a word lies tears

thou know’st well

for that sore evil, I dread most

Milky as it be

Streets where darkness has came

steering my way

words are bags of dirt

Juicy flowers taste fine

but I would rather enjoy the feasting of myself

in rough pounding

covers are pulled

pull them back you say

but they are heavy

Being in a hallway

reject the masses

I am an artist

unbound

learn what it wants

milky cummings are fine

Pondering

Are all the justifications spent?

A last chance to repent?

Emotions are the ocean upon the beach

High tide

I am drowning

Come save me

Beautiful one

Is there a chance?

I’m not here, so hold my hand

Teacher

I not follow

boredom of lights

rambling nothings

outsider

Myself

BLINDNESS

INSIDE

MADNESS

WRITHE

IN

AGONY

I AM

WE

Phrase and arrow

My eyes

so much they tell of your world

while my thought shows me mine

Egoman

Always fate

your big computer

isn’t working

ego is its name

Devil Destroyer

Dark Destroyer

wonderful words lost

making martyrs

of those who find

killing and keeping

suave soothing

bleeding bastard

frankly he is seeking

THE WORLD IS OVER

Tired thrashing of the soul

holy spiting bloody war

either eternal damnation

Wanting water to remove the stains of dirt

overlord lovers

rings of deception

language a

disaster of separation

is

satanic

Overly tribunal

very carnal knowledge

ever clear

rusting

…

The dog asks the cat

D- Dog

C- Cat

D: Why are you so cold?

C: Why have you not been sold?

D: But you have not answered mine.

C: Okay canine

C: I understand the complicated slavery we are living

D: Can I only understand you kitty?

C: Understand?

C: Thoughtless action dog

C: I am your equal yet I’m your superior. I am aware.

D: I’m living the life of pleasure. True to instincts. Better unconscious then sadness .

C: I prefer sad living to happy oblivion

Human (resentment)

Goldfish swimming in a pool of thought

evil cat watching and waiting

kill her victim sought

resentment of fish freedom, wanting

Murder all who be

swishing loudly in the unknown

intrusion by kitty into the sea

eat the fish and now you are alone

Hold yourself feline

climb inside you brain

out of time

experience the insane

This dark cat your doing

All too human

Killing

Hypocrites all of you

Cutting of clothes

enter the womb

and see devil incarnate

pleasure

an instantaneous flash

you

are in command

encompassing evil

where are thoughts of religion

hypocrisy

Sweet song

your girlfriend

can

suck

my

my

my

my

long

my

oh

yeah

Electric Future

I am so comfortable

oh yeah

who is your guru

where were you today

hey

what the world has to say

jump into my brain

and visit the sane

because all the others play silly games

Electric future is calling, calling

Electric future is appalling

Feel my breath

I I I

want the species brought back

who likes frozen lakes in the spring sun

lets have fun

lets throw out the old

and them not be told

Anarchy baby

oh sweet baby

maybe

can I tempt you with this

maybe

enter the ocean bliss

Electric future is calling, calling

Electric future is appalling

New York High

Lifting of my head

results in seeing

a subway

of people

everyday

everywhere

walking

their

talking

I don’t know

they

all

look

the same

Pleasure Pills : Poison Pills

Poison pills

knifes of plastic people

corrupt a baby

but he was an adult

deny your pleasure

cry baby

I shout

mourn

I scorn

for your sense has gone

there is no here nor there in that

It’s easy to make gods

but can you make a sun

beautiful pleasure that it would be

embrace the lies

but the truth is so much more fun

Deception cycle

Plastic coating of sugar candy

spoon fed children

Where is your brilliance?

Children of the dream are you

Mirror, Mirror on the wall

twisted image

they all look the same

Poor babies

die

no food here

I looked so real

but transparent film hides

All the same

All the same

The world far away

The only cure to suffering

a world far away

a world of nothing

nothing yells

nothing spills

quiet

I don’t care

no air

burdens lifted in death

I cry no more

I am no longer sore

bleed me blind here

right inside your corner

but your not here

no thought

burdensome thought

how answers will want questions

questions of questions endless

black

no evil

only the void

heaven

Chains of the civilized

Hidden agenda

spins my chain

and mock me

until I bite meat from your hand

and spit in your face

burn me

I forgot

I remember now

You were trying to civilize me

Anarchy

Ideal

Overthrow fascists

Truth

Liberation

Utopia

Socialism

God

GOD is DOG

DOG is man

man is human

human is she

she is me

and I am we

Padded rooms

Life

pain

ruled by the forgotten

My world is in shambles

while once a great people

scrambles

torture each other endless

and babbled

while nothing happens

Foaming at the mouth

rabies spread by the fierce biting

Now past

calm

needle

insert the medicine

walls blinding soft pink

falling flat on my face

calm

nothing

Family

Survival is you

caring is twice thought

tight glove

no role model

confused children

Hope is here

future pretty

for me I want to continue

make others aware

further their existences

not my self-gain

but there it’s theirs

Coming of Dionysus

Lord Dionysus, women are calling

rumbling the leaves in dancing joy

smoldering torches were falling

nymphs of Nysa bring the boy

Cult of loving nurses

ecstatic orgy

tree god masked

pleasure unearhed

Sight of bewilderment

dumbfounded, they cry

what’s here is gone

why?

Women of Dionysus belong under the sweet

charm of their king

The mustang alone

"This was written after a police officer shot himself in his mustang in the parking lot of my high school and the students discovered it before the police did"

blue blood

red car

gun felt

while children play

bang of justice

in closed eyes

I will never be

Triangle

Rationalize the right

achieve civilization evolution toward perfection of thought

constant working of ideas

breed virtue of mind

mass television sucking your existence

life

people why do you halt

edge of there is here

god, I am

follow or lead

intellectual devastation eminent

People leaving meaning

beat dead by nothing

the meek shall inherit the earth

I no more the blind slave

the weakling of inherit brain

will not be the same

Outside looking in: Where am I ?

Ice pick death

in hot summer wind

smashes your existence

Little people in

a frightening frenzy

alone

quiet

Green grass in a barren desert

Crying god’s spawn

One day this might be my doing

where?

School of oppression

learn to hate

make the dull slave

listening quiet I plan

I am your master

because research is over

The sign of nations

Fuck, murder, hate

human without debate

Un baptized babies are fine

they are dead on the nation’s sign

where words read

want will flaunt

kill will spill

disgust not given lust

The king in me

You mindless mass

die flesh and their will be spirit

not

brain people

use it

or I will control you

primitive in me

Nihilism

Hi

my name is infinity

how have you lived today?

walking close to death step by step

Dog is not

a blind babies realization

confirmed

still what now?

inevitable nihilist

records are numbers

bloody consumers

producers are my gods

indirectly yours

IRS

Big Brother

scopes while he pushes dope

chases mother

eradicating hope

Please death fuck me

resentment, cause one man

you see

no commonsense he can

He is of better use underground

threat of none

IRS man moves quick to the sound