Poetry written when I was 16 in 1990

Love is the strongest feeling known

an encompassing passion

an extreme strength

an overwhelming excitement

Love offering

Forbidden desires must burn in hell.

Deep within my self shall they hide forever,

For if they had been released all could tell.

Inner passions will not get out, never,

Because I cannot offer her good looks.

Only my inner beauty, I hold deeply,

I wish to love before death sinks it’s hooks.

Her lovely self looks at me suddenly,

Like the small deer I’m blinded by her light

She glances at me, with angel innocence,

I was dumb struck from her smoldering sight.

Her succulent lips on mine, so intense,

An un-thought of ecstasy among the stars.

Love fills me deep, brightly, like golden bars.

I Love you

I cannot promise you that I will change

I cannot promise you that

I will not have many different moods

I cannot promise you that

I will not hurt your feelings sometimes

I cannot promise you that

I will always be strong

I cannot promise you that my faults will

not show

But,

I do promise you that

I will always be supportive of you

I do promise you that

I will share all my thoughts

and feelings with you

I do promise you that

I will be completely honest with you

I do promise you that

I will help you achieve all your goals

But,

most of all

I do promise you that

I love you.

Till death

My love for you runs so deep

But you reject and discard me

A kick so hard in the face, I must weep

Embodiment of all that is beauty

Is it because I am ugly so

It is what is imbedded deep, you should love me for

I wish to love her from head to toe

To love forever till death does us apart, evermore, evermore

Life is not worth living

Death by hanging, or knife, suicide it shall be

Dagger plunges deep, what was inside is not out

Drowned in my blood, for she did not love me

With you

With you

I can be myself

and I do not have to

pretend to be

anything that I am not

With you

I can say and think everything

and I know that I will be understood

With you

I can be totally free

in body and spirit

and I can share my

deepest feelings and emotions

With you

I am filled with a love

that gives me strength and happiness

And I want to thank you

Thank you for loving me

I love you

for being so honest

for being so trusting

for being so passionate

and contributing so much to our relationship

I love you

for all you do for me

for all you share with me

and for all that you are

I love you

for understanding me

for having fun with me

and for being such

and outstanding person

I love you

for being so independent

for being so creative

and for being such a unique person

I love you

for all of these things and more

I love you

for everything about you.

I realize

Sometimes I wake up

in the middle of the night

shivering from the fright

feeling empty

feeling nothing

because I think about

how it would be

if you were not here

and then I wonder

if you really know

how very much

you mean to me

how incredible

I think you are

how you are

a part of all my life

how you are

the deepest meaning in my life

Please know

that I love you

more than anything else

in the world

Feelings

I always thought that

what I do each day

is so vital

what I say each day

is so necessary

what I learn each day

is so exciting

but I have found out that

what I feel each day

is the most gratifying

and my love for you

is the deepest feeling I have

thank you for your love

it is the most important and beautiful part

of my life.

Its like the first time for me (song)

Every time I kiss your lips

Every time I touch your face

Every time we get close

It is like the first time for me

I’m sure you know the story

It’s very much like your own

Why do we hesitate

Would we ever hate

It doesn’t get any better, no better

Every time I kiss your lips

Every time I touch your face

Every time we get close

It’s like the first time for me

Every time I see your eyes

Every time I hear your cries

Every time we get close

It’s like the first time for me.

Kites where so the looking continues

Candlelight

open only to the world’s watchers

and the moon’s hungry people roam

catching butterfly freedom

where once we lived

and I saw her

the blue lake blurs

sun rising blind

Cats roam in circles

ask me what you will

but my answers were questions

so tell me no one

till the day of cupid’s death in a bed of roses

I gave you one

beasties ate it

and I cried.

7/9/92

Hollywood

Silver dimes

insert into picture vending machines

crack away my piece

where masses sit

a candy machine collection

nothings

made RAM conscious something

blueprints

children’s footsteps in towers of gold

the ring of light surrounds the dime

and remember the quarter

it’s a dollar now

and they grin in their high places

for they are the keepers

puppet masters

whose touch is a cancer

rapid beast

The lake of blue

The lake of blue

our silver ship

wooden rudders but sails of gold

oh corruption

may we not run ashore

the coast is bleak and crowded with scavengers

help me navigate everyday

ride the streams of time

Separate

Dancing shadows

fence perched mocking bird

lounging rubber ball

vinyl intelligence

three upside down wandering worry heads

spilled milk on the smooth tile

and a store

a leopard skin print wraps

the naked figures

calendar of events

wind rider

a teddy bear torn from a young

child’s arms

his steady yearning for the podium

Gunslinger

Mount the back of a tall man

survey the vast land

appearing in the distance

a young fox

in his eyes you can see the awe

lightening doom in the sky

rain

severed heads

a railroad station missing tracks

surrounded by the Indians’ yelling, advocates of nature

gunslinger walking away confidently

holding his smoking gun

his worn face

paths he has left in the sand

encounters with the pits of glorified pain

sun’s molten rays

over the sand dune

he finds a city