A Reuniting vs. 1 Things are over now, everything is. It was just two days ago that she died. I was the one who found her, and it just makes the pain so much more real. even at the time of my parents deaths I don't remember the heaviness on my heart as being anywhere comparable to this. Perhaps she meant more to me then anything else. No, I know she did. Somewhere along the line I failed her, everyone did. I don't think I'll ever get the image of my Lucrezia Noin lying bloddied and dead on the floor out of my mind. It's haunted me ever since I opened that damned door. It was easy to tell how she'd gone with the way her dark hair, which she'd let grown out, and her crimosn blood were spread out on the white floor. There was the razor too, but I had ignored that. As soon as I had reached her I had gathered her lifeless form into my arms and cried. The rest of them found me like that an hour later. I think Quatre, and Relena took it almost as hard as I did. They don't know how truly hard I have taken it though. There's two things that bother me about her death. The first thing is that I didn't even see it coming, in the end she wore a more elaborate mask then either Trowa, Heero, or myself. Second thing bugging me is that there was no note. I don't know why, but it frustrates me to no end. Why wouldn't she leave a note? Every other suicidal person tends too, but not her, its like she thought no one cared. Ironic isn't it, how you don't see just how much you don't know about the closest person to you until they're gone. No one was close to Lucrezia Noin. Heck, no one even knows if that is, or rather was her real name. I didn't even know her past, the only person who did was her, or possibly even Treize, but he's dead as well. Its ultimately very sad how these things are set into motion, and no one knows exactly where they started from. There's only one thing that gave us or rather me a clue as to why she went away. I combed her apartment after they took her away. It was devoid of presonality, of her, except for her books. In which I found a very depressing poem. Unwanted Solitudes End And yet again they go mute its inexplicable happens every time they can't understand my mind how lonely I've been am maybe its time to end It was written by r.l.w., whose work I've found to be very disturbing, this highlighted piece especially so, but it made me realize that we had all forsaken our dear Imperial Guard. I let the others attend to the funeral arrangements. I couldn't bare to. I feel detached, hollow. Her service was simple yet elegant, just like her, and at her rememberance I find myself longing to be with her. The Lightning Count is once more at the mercy of Noin's help. Funny how things are, and how fast its all gone by, its like they couldn't wait to be rid of her, but that's exactly why she left I feel, because she wasn't one to take the shunning, found it an error in herself. Oh how wrong she was, but I'll be joining her soon enough. There is no one here to witness it. With my ever present calmness I bring the Colt out of my pocket, and take great care to feel its coldness. It's loaded with hollow points, which seems only fitting for my end. She made me realize just how terrible our race really is, but now I have no crutch and can no longer wait to pass on. I am no longer weak or spineless, only foolish. With a press of the trigger it'll all be over, and I can join her. The last thing I see is her grave, and her beautiful face beckoning to me.... Zechs Merquise was found this morning sporting a large hole on top of Lucrezia Noin's grave by the cemeteries caretaker, who we have just learned was a personal friend of the couples. It appears that in both cases concerning the death of the couple death was the result of personal injury found too late to revive either person. Both were upstanding members of the community, and active field agents in the Preventers who has refused to comment on the peculiar loss of their two best agents. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ A Love Requited Ashes to ashes Dust to dust with an unrequited love's death an unexpected end a reuniting set to be but by folly ~r.l.w. A/N: Oh yes, for Imperial Guard forsaken its from Lucrezia Noin's point of view. A/N:There is version one of the sequel to Imperial Guard Forsaken, hope you enjoyed, although I think version two will be much more appreciated. thank-you for reading, and please review. |
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