The Worst Hurt

lyrics by Steven Jackson

Maybe I was blind not to see the fall

Maybe lying there before me with its back against the wall

But all I know and all I see

Are the things that matter most to me

And maybe I don't matter that much at all

That's how you think

That's how you lie

If I live or if I die

I've seen this play a thousand times

This is your view, it's sure not mine

It wasn't nights you spent away

It wasn't plans for later days

You'll never know what I have learnt

That made me feel like I was the worst hurt

Maybe I tried to help you along your way

Maybe I gave patience and time when life led you astray

I know I did all that I could

To give you things I know I should

and now I know I don't matter anyway

That's how I think

That's how I speak

I care about myself too deep

Don't think I didn't play this scene

Benefit of doubt seemed more serene

It wasn't lies that you told me

It wasn't truths you never freed

Maybe it's time for you to be sure

Using my heart seemed to be the worst hurt

I wanted more

You wanted less

You hid yourself

I had to guess

It's time to leave with head held high

You'll never be part of my sky

So here's where I tell you why

That's how I love

That's how I care

There is no dream I wouldn't dare

You thought I'd break when you left town

Now worry here, I'm already gone

My bag was packed, I'm out that door

I don't need you here anymore

No reason for me to assert

I know that you're gone, hope that you feel the worst hurt.