A Vacation Back To Life

I just got back from a very short, but needed vacation and made an interesting thought about how life runs.  Why is it that when one takes a break that one realizes that this is anew point of beginning something completely new?  I'm sure it happens at a lot more points in life, but somehow the vacation brings it all in focus.  A simple little thing like taking time away from the trappings of life brings about change in how your schedule works and it offers some form of renewal.

This has happened to me this weekend when I took a trip to Montreal.  Nothing incredibly special, but before I left, I made some choices that will affect me, good or bad.  I've had some issues in the past few months that were sucking the life out of me and I needed to deal with them pronto.  When one lets problems just continue without dealing with them, it creates a stall in time, a quick brake of the car of life.  It seems as if you are traveling along the road of life and suddenly you hit a pothole.  No matter how fast you drive or where you are going, all that you can think of is that pothole and suddenly you hit a second one.  When you hit the second, the road opens up and all you can see are the potholes on the road and you cannot get beyond that.  All you know is that you have to go much slower or nowhere at all if you keep avoiding the potholes and you find yourself sitting there with the car in park because you have nowhere to go.

Lately, I have been having a few potholes and as of Friday, I dealt with a majority of them.  I have set the wheels in motion of something and I will be honest, I have absolutely no idea where it is going to take me.  In fact, I filled in the potholes and I left for the weekend on a trip that gave me nothing but pleasure, being away from all kinds of stress.  I knew that in order for me to have this time to myself and my special person, I had to deal with these stresses now or have a weekend filled with thoughts about what I didn't do.  I think I scared that person because I was completely in a state of bliss, relaxed like I have never been before and I loved it.

This is what life is supposed to be like, a road without the potholes.  I know they pop up from time to time, but each time you see one, you fill it in.  The more you ignore the potholes, the bigger they get and the more there are.  Have you not ever noticed that when one problem occurs and if you do not deal with it, more problems occur?  The problems start to add up and they start to multiply in their pressure.  Suddenly it feels like they are a really uncomfortable knapsack filled with all the books you have to read for class.  Then one small situation happens like you forget your lunch or someone bumps you on the subway.  Then all out war happens.

I could feel this happening in the past while.  I left problems unresolved and they nearly got out of hand, so I dealt with them.  In one day, I single-handedly eliminated about four of them and they were not small.  It was scary, but I do not regret it.  They all had to be done and whatever the consequences, I will be okay.  I will move forward with some of my dreams without a second guess because I know that I am ready to take them on.  I have a list of goals on my board to get to starting tomorrow morning and it is time for me to move on with them.

I went on a vacation to get away for a few days, but maybe it is more like getting back to the rest of my life.  I got relaxation and time to rest my weary soul for just a weekend, but that's all I needed.  Now I have a whole new world to go after.  Who knew vacations could be so good?