In This land of make believe
I find myself surrounded by lies
That curve in our minds
And are made into the truth
They all believe and trust
They see so much more than I can
The fire in the their eyes burns so bright
I long to be there too
so I close my eyes and try to let go
At first there was nothing
Then there was nothing
and then... nothing
Never giving up I tried day after day
and still there seemed to be nothing
Nothing but the darkness that I see
When I dream
Then there was an act committed
Committed before me
to me, on me and in me
consuming me
Suddenly, there was a light.
What he said started to make sense to me
I stopped stuttering in the dark
and started stammering in the sun
It wasn’t perfect
Not even close but it was honest
In the lie
and it was real.
I believed
there was just a cloud at first
Then the gleaming through the gloom,
Shining and then blinding
Everything was right and wrong
all at once We were
right and the world was wrong
Is that possible?
I found out later it wasn’t
and it was alright
Not at first, and not for what
seemed a long time
After many attempts
after many failures
after all the triumphs and defeats
on my own I stand alone
Gay Happy and Free