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March 17 2000

Sorry I've been gone so long. A whole week between updates. That's just not right. It's not that I've been all that busy, to be absolutely honest. I've had more than enough time after work every day to type up something pithy, but I just haven't been in the mood. It's been a long week and I've been tired and increasingly frustrated about my day job. The most I've done after work is read a few journals and veg in front of the TV.

Not to say that I haven't had ideas or thoughts rolling around in my brain. I have, more than enough. Problem is, the ideas tend to crash into each other, causing them careen back into the hidden corners, then sit quietly until they decide it's safe to come out. Of course, when the thoughts get up to a full steam again, they start their entire rolling/crashing/careening/hiding routine. How's a gal supposed to latch onto an idea and coax it into a coherent essay?

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However, something happened tonight which bothers me profoundly. After getting home from paging tonight (after 11pm), I sat at my computer, getting everything booted up and running. Edison felt the need to scratch at the kitty placemats around the water bowls. That's ok, I understand cats' inbred compulsion to attempt to eradicate any trace of scent after eating or drinking, no mattter how futile.

Unfortunately, the kittens have a tendency to knock over their water while scratching at the mats. Makes a horrible mess that I'm tired of cleaning up, quite frankly.

Since Edison was in easy reach, and the water bottle wasn't, I leaned over and applied a gentle tug to Edison's long fluffy tail, just enough to let him know, "Hey, careful there, buddy." He didn't even pause. So I tugged again, a little bit harder. Still no acknowledgement. Unfortunately, I let the frustration of week (and night) get the better of me, so the next time I applied a tug, it was not "just a little harder". Without thinking, I dragged the little guy across the floor, his hind legs actually lifted off the floor.

Suddenly I realized what I had just done and let go. Obviously I didn't hurt him, since he didn't even yelp, but that doesn't excuse dragging him. I've never punished any of the cats in such a way that pain is caused. Annoyance, perhaps, maybe even a brief burst of fear, but never pain. I just don't think that's a valid method of discipline. And here I came very close to inflicting pain on an eight month old kitten.

So I scooped up Edison and snuggled him and murmurred words of apology, despite his blatant distatse (he's not much of a snuggler), then I let him go.

Then I glanced at the water dishes and noticed that, in the process of dragging poor little Edison, I knocked over one of the bowls and spilled water everywhere. *sigh*


How could I hurt him?

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Tomorrow I'm taking the little ones to the vet to get all of their shots and physicals, because on Wednesday, well, Wednesday morning I'm dropping them off at the vet as manly kittens and when I pick them up that night they'll be meowing soprano. They'll hate me for a few days, but maybe Noel will stop hissing at them. Besides, judging by the smell of my apartment, they've started spraying and that's just got to stop.

Well, I'm still really tired and I've got to get up early tomorrow, so I'll sign off. I hope y'all had a Happy and Safe St. Paddy's Day, with a minimum of pinches and a maximum of green things.

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It's time for...

From the Robservation Archives

Rob's Pantheon of Pets


TODAY'S TAURUS HOROSCOPE
(from Da Juana Byrd´s Metaphysical Web Site)

Like a well oiled machine, this day should be going great. There is balance at work and you may have made a good friend in high places that will help you advance to an even better position. You are work focused and have the ability to work well with others. Home is now the safe haven that you wanted it to be and you can be busy enjoying yourself there instead of always wanting to make changes. This is a time to make peace if there are any conflicts in your relationships. You may feel more aware and need private time to ponder the events of this day. It is good to feel good about yourself and to know yourself. You may feel the need to have everything orderly and organized so your life can continue on this course. Do something nice for yourself.


JOURNALS I READ

CAST OF THOUSANDS


WHAT I'M READING


SPECTRE
- by William Shatner
Believe it or not, it's not bad. Shatner's a better writer than I thought he would be.

WHAT'S ON MY CD PLAYER


EVITA
- Tim Rice and Andrew Lloyd Webber


i don't expect my love affairs
to last for long
never fool myself
that my dreams will come true
being used to trouble
i anticipate it
but all the same i hate it
wouldn't you

so what happens now
(another suitcase in another hall)
so what happens now
(take your picture off another wall)
where am i going to
(you'll get by you always have before)
where am i going to

time and time again
i've said that i don't care
that i'm immune to gloom
that i'm hard through and through
but everytime it matters
all my words desert me
so anyone can hurt me
and they do

so what happens now
(another suitcase in another hall)
so what happens now
(take your picture off another wall)
where am i going to
(you'll get by you always have before)
where am i going to

call in three months time
and i'll be fine i know
well maybe not that fine
but i'll survive anyhow
i won't recall the names and places
of each sad occasion
but that's no consolation
here and now

so what happens now
(another suitcase in another hall)
so what happens now
(take your picture off another wall)
where am i going to
(you'll get by you always have before)
where am i going to

(Don't ask anymore)

Tim Rice - Another Suitcase in Another Hall - EVITA



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