[kaiko // tif] daydreamer . wingless . bookstasher . kismet . astral . simplicity . competitive . apathetic . cautious . independant yet shy . peoplephobia . happy 1am club president . diprogent .
silver . writing . borders . badminton . viola . spring . wolves . sunsets . sleep . photography . honey bunches of oats . laughter
dream job: traveling freelance writer
searching for: sincerity
one thing you want to do before your die: smile
best thing in the world: isnt worth money
080704 [struggling to write: a story, a poem. 10 cents.]
this summer has been science-y. i've been researching cells and jazz, thus neglecting my writing, which means i still havent gotten around to writing those dreaded college essays. I've tried to, but they're false starts; they sound tourtured as if I am forcefully dragging words out of an empty head. "I was four and eating a watermelon. I am like a watermelon..." *gags and dies* my writing muse has gone on her vacation and won't be back until it's too late.
061504 [photo collections]
new idea inspired by shutterbug: photo collections
made 2 new ones: natural photography and macro shots. quite pleased with results.
on a more journalistic note, i'm running into the final stretch of junior year - almost the end of the toughest year and hear I am, sitting and keying out HTML and playing around with PSP. Long summer ahead, even longer senior year ahead. *deep breath*
051504 [a fresh spring green]
massive clean up in the writing area.. removed gray old leaves and replaced them with a fresh twig and leaf. the short&sweet section was merged with the snippets
4 new poems added: queen of winter, journey, dead end, and snowfall (a lil out of season)
121303 [photo op: many new shots]
they've been lying around on the comp.. finally put up some pics. am also shopping for a better digicam.. 4.0 mp.. mmm =] maybe the Canon A80. who knows? ^_^
112703 [new poem: selene]
need to scrounge up 10 pages of writing for a contest.. *gags*. any suggestions anyone? ^^;
111503 [everything is up - finally.]
"i am really happy when i am really happy." (dais) and that just sums it all up. you ever grin and just cant stop? even though it hurts? yea.
101003 [layout designed. colors: light/dark green, gray, and pink]
do you ever just sit and really enjoy the emptiness? the silent echo of a haunting melody, chanting heavenly beneath the continuous clacking of a noisy keyboard. its a steady sound, this clacking, and for some reason, makes me feel quite productive and accomplished, despite doing literally nothing at all.
100903 [wingless reopened (in my mind only)]
Is it really better to have loved than never have loved at all? Would you rather hate someone with all your heart or love someone? If you never hated, then you've never truly loved? Who do you keep closer to your heart - the ones you love or the ones you dislike? But who can hurt you the most.. the deepest pain that extends beyond physical?
The difference between love and hatred is a tiny sliver of a space which even the quick breath of regret cannot pass. It swivels on pinpoint, forever tourturing one till one chooses to break free of the constraints.