Never have a meaningful conversation

    spend all the time filling the emptiness

Spending time in school learning about everyone else

   never taking the time to learn about myself

Playing soccer.

    Taking showers.

Drinking coffee.

     Smoking weed.

Eating burgers and pizza.

    Watching movies.

Listening to Nine Inch Nails.

    Reading books.

Staring straight ahead at my computer.

    Writing shit down on paper.

Watching stupid TV shows and even more stupid commercials.

    Doing homework, but more like copying it

Ditching Stats class.

    Going to school, but not really there

Sleeping till 1.

    Filling out the same goddamn college application over and over.

Taking the fucking SAT’s

    And not even trying to study or pretending to care.

Inhaling hot smoke, ash and gas fumes

    Paying taxes

and dying every day

    Not that I think about it.

Haven’t even thought about how to use the rest of my life.

 

4 April 2004