Disclaimer: All the people and places in this story belongs to Squaresoft. This is just something I do for fun, I didnīt actually make any money out of this if someone actually thought so.

About the story: This takes place right after Seifer throws Rinoa to Adel and it is about his feelings as he is standing outside Lunatic Pandora.

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It is time. Time to make amends, time to change. Is it to late? Who would care for me now? My two only friends has left me, they betrayed me. No, I mustnīt think like that. They were right, things were getting out of hand. I was wrong, I hate to admit it, but yes, I was also weak. I never knew any loyalty. I followed Edea, I was her knight. But when she was defeated...I turned against her too. I should have protected her, stayed by her side but no, I didnīt. I allied with Adel, I never knew loyalty. Fujin and Raijin did. They stayed with me, they fought my battles. But they saw what I did, and then they couldnīt take it anymore. But they didnīt leave me, no, they tried to save me. Save me from myself. Tried to get me away from the sorcerres, they tried to make me do the right thing. But of course, I didnīt listen. Damn pride and damn hate, damn all feelings. Oh how I wish I didnīt have so many regrets, how I wish I didnīt feel. Raijin, Fujin, Iīm sorry, I should have walked away with you. Then at least I would have done something good in my life.

This horrible shadow. In my mind, yes, but that is not what Iīm talking about right now. Iīm talking about the darkness that covers the ground, that blocks out the sun. I brought it here, again Iīm responsible. It hovers above me, it will always do. Lunatic Pandora. God luck Squall. Ha ha, you would be surprised if you heard me now. As Raijin and Fujin said, you are all we got now, and that is true. I hated you, and I will hate you until the day I die. Still I pray that you will succeed now. Beat Adel, make my wrongs right. Save Rinoa. Thatīs right, I have walked out on Adel. I left as I saw her reach for Rinoa, I couldnīt watch anymore. I donīt want to hurt anymore, not myself and not the ones that I...love. But I had to leave, I couldnīt fight with you, not side by side with Squall. He will come out of this battle as the victor, even if Adel wins. He will always be the one who fought for the world even if he fails. I couldnīt stay because I have to go after my friends, I have to make something right before I die. If Adel wins she will come after me, she will take her revenge on me. Or maybe even worse, she will let me die with the rest of the world, I didnīt mean anything to her. And everyone will know that. Maybe they already know, yes, they probably know. I was stupid, I didnīt see what everyone else saw. Squall, this is the last time you will have to make up for my mistakes, that is the only promise Iīm ever going to give you. Donīt let our paths cross again, I wouldnīt be able to bear it. The shame, it would be too much. Sorry Squall, I messed up, but at least you will be the hero when all this ends, maybe you should thank me after all. I would trade places with you in a heartbeat. But I guess it is your destiny to be the hero, and mine to make you one. See now why I said you should thank me? I guess not, you never really cared about things like that. That is why itīs so unfair, you are living my life. I shouldnīt ponder about this anymore though, I said it was time to change and I meant it. So good bye Squall, save Rinoa, save the planet... save me.

One last look, what is that thing really? How did I get it here? Lunatic Pandora, we were supposed to see victory beyond this world together. But now I leave, I fear it might be too late. The world might go down. Life might end. There is one thing I have to do first. I have to catch up with my friends, with Fujin and Raijin. They must be told how sorry I am. If they donīt forgive me, well, then I hope Adel turns out to be stronger than Squall. I hope she destroys me and the whole world because I will have nothing without my two friends. After all if they donīt find it in their hearts to forgive me then who will? No, donīt think like that. It canīt be too late, I must believe that.

I didnīt notice, Iīm out of the darkness. The shadow Lunatic Pandora cast on the ground, Iīm out of it. It reached further than I thought but at least I got away from it. Everything is different here in the sun, isnīt that strange.
-Squall! Beat her!
I know, he canīt hear me. But at least my thought are out now, drifting in the wind. My final good bye to you dear rival, I swear I will never forget you. Save the world for me.

Is it them? There in the horizon. Raijin, Fujin, I want to call out their names, make them stop. But what if they donīt. What if they will just turn their back to me and walk away? Wait, they have stopped. Did she just wave to me? Oh dear Fujin, thank you. They are coming towards me, I can hardly believe it. No, Iīm not crying, this damn sand gets in my eyes. And it makes my throat ache as well. Ok, maybe it is tears, but I wouldnīt really know. I wouldnīt smile if I were crying, right? Fujin, Raijin, they actually forgives me, things doesnīt look so bad anymore. No, not so bad at all.

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