To Want And To Wait ~ scene II.ii
by the diggler
Warnings: This fic is YAOI [has explicit boyxboy homosexual content] and this part is rated PG15. Minor spoilers for events that happen in the manga after the anime ends.
Disclaimer: Slam Dunk and related characters are the property of Inoue Takehiko et al.
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For the third time that day Hanamichi wanted to punch something in, hard enough to make his knuckles bleed. He had just returned from his walk, his head a little clearer after having spent some time with his teammates talking about the game tomorrow, when he saw something that made his stomach turn...
Minami. Leaving Rukawa's room. Looking all too satisfied with himself as he smirked at Hanamichi on the way out.
He stood seething, glaring at Rukawa until the Toyotama player had left, and then he finally snapped.
"What was that?" he hissed, storming up to the raven-haired boy.
"What?" Rukawa replied, seemingly nonchalant.
"What was he doing here?" Hanamichi ground out through clenched teeth. Rukawa's eyes narrowed as he glared back at the infuriated redhead.
"Giving me some ointment for my eye." he replied.
Hanamichi growled and shoved the raven-haired boy into the room, slamming the door behind him.
"Don't lie to me Rukawa, I can see the bed, I can smell-- "
"What's it to you?" Rukawa interrupted angrily. "Why do you care?" he yelled.
Hanamichi blanched for a second, shocked at the other boy's sudden outburst, but he quickly remembered his anger and retaliated.
"So I guess you were just playing with me then huh? You don't really want me, you just want any piece of ass you can get." he snarled.
Rukawa's eyes flared dangerously before he slammed the redhead up against the wall.
"Shut up you idiot, you don't know what you're talking about." Rukawa hissed. "It's always been about you. I'm going crazy here waiting for you and he just offered me some... relief. But it's still you I want. Only you. Always you!"
"Let go of me you bastard." Hanamichi rasped out.
"No." Rukawa replied, and the next second he brought his lips down angrily against the redhead's, kissing him hard and desperate. Hanamichi froze, stunned at the sudden turn of events, and before he had a chance to pull himself together and react, the other boy pulled away. Rukawa glared at the redhead, his eyes a furious blue and his chest heaving from lack of air and anger combined.
"What are you so pissed off at Hanamichi? Me? Or yourself?"
"Fuck you." Hanamichi hissed.
Rukawa snarled, pressing his lips hard against the redhead's again. Hanamichi whimpered into the kiss, clutching at the back of Rukawa's shirt and pulling him closer as he devoured the raven-haired boy's lips with equal ferocity. Rukawa groaned, drowning in the redhead's taste, kissing him like he was his only source of air. But eventually the reality of his screaming lungs won again and he pulled away. Panting heavily, he locked his eyes onto the redhead's, daring him to see the truth. Hanamichi's eyes widened when he realized what he'd just done, and he looked away, unable to meet the raven-haired boy in the eye.
"Admit it. You want me too. You want me!" Rukawa growled. Hanamichi flinched at the words, seemingly lost for a moment as he stared at the wall. Then finally the redhead's gaze focused, steeled as he returned Rukawa's glare.
"So what?" he seethed. "So I should just give in and let you have your way with me? Let you ignore me or insult me whenever you want and then let you use my body to satisfy your twisted cravings? Forget it!"
Rukawa slammed Hanamichi against the wall again. "You idiot!" Rukawa yelled, "I don't just want your body! I want your mind, your heart, your soul. I want everything." Rukawa sighed in frustration before continuing in a harsh whisper. "I want to feel you, know you, breathe you inside and out and own you... like you were a part of my body... inseparable... essential."
The redhead was silent, his face eerily blank as he stared back at the raven-haired boy. And then finally Hanamichi opened his mouth to speak.
"And what do I get?" the redhead asked softly.
Rukawa blinked, stepping back in confusion and loosening his hold on the other boy.
"You expect me to give you everything, without anything in return?" Hanamichi said, his tone challenging, but a needy uncertainty flickering in his eyes.
Rukawa stared back at the redhead, stunned at the question.
"Answer me!"
Still Rukawa was silent, bewildered that the other boy didn't understand.
Hanamichi growled and shoved Rukawa away, punching him in the gut so Rukawa was forced back even further, keeling over as the wind was knocked out of him.
"You're full of shit Rukawa." Hanamichi glared down at the raven-haired boy, then turned to leave.
"You really are a do'ahou."
"Nani?!" Hanamichi yelled, whirling back around.
"You don't get it, do you?" Rukawa gritted out, glaring back up at the red-headed boy.
Clenching his jaw shut, Hanamichi angrily awaited an explanation.
"You already own me."
Silence filled the air as Hanamichi examined the raven-haired boy, his face going blank. Without another word he turned and left the room.
Rukawa remained motionless after the redhead had left, and then finally collapsed, clutching at himself, the wind punched out of him once again.
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July 1 '04