Release Me ~ Part 4
by the diggler
Warnings: This chapter contains YAOI [boyxboy homosexual content] and is PG15. Sorry, no lemon this chapter. Just bad language and quasi-drama… ^^;;; I tried…
Disclaimer: Slam Dunk and related characters are the property of Inoue Takehiko et al.
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Damn.
The doorbell was ringing.
Well, it had been ringing for a while already, but it had just started to get annoying now. He might as well answer the door and get it over with, so he could return to wallowing in his misery undisturbed.
Reluctantly Rukawa dragged himself out of bed, cursing as the high-pitched ring of the doorbell noisily persisted. He opened the door with a more annoyed than usual glare, hoping that would be enough to chase whoever it was away.
His glare didn't stand a chance against the fist that was already waiting for him.
"What the hell kind of fucked up game do you think you're playing?!"
Hands grabbed his shirt before he could even regain his footing, and he was slammed against the wall, face to face with the piercing blue of Mitsui's furious eyes.
"Answer me!" the older boy snarled, shoving him against the wall even harder.
"Hisashi, please, calm down..." a soft voice spoke from nearby.
"Don't defend him Min-kun!" the scar-faced boy sneered.
"I'm not! It's just... don't fight, please..." Kogure said as he appeared at their side, gently laying a hand on his boyfriend's arm.
Mitsui stepped back and released Rukawa with a contemptuous grunt, fists clenching in frustration at his sides.
Eyeing the older boy warily, Rukawa slowly reached up to massage his stinging jaw.
And then cinnamon brown eyes came into view before him, filled with concern.
"Daijoubu Rukawa-kun?"
If his jaw could've dropped at that point, it would have, but instead he just stared at the bespectacled boy, amazed that Kogure could still be concerned about him even now.
But as he looked deeper, he saw something else in his sempai's eyes as well, something unfamiliar, a hesitation... indecision...
"Hey!" Mitsui interrupted angrily.
Abruptly Kogure broke eye-contact with Rukawa, taking a step back. Head bowed, the older boy took a deep breath.
"Rukawa-kun, I think we deserve an explanation." the bespectacled boy said quietly.
Rukawa could only answer with silence, not knowing where to begin putting the words together.
Kogure looked up at him again, and this time Rukawa saw it more clearly… An uncertain... need... in the other boy's eyes.
"Was it true? When you told me you'd wanted me for a long time?" the brown-eyed boy asked softly.
"What?! What are you talking about Min-kun! Why do you care if he--" Mitsui's question trailed off when Kogure looked at the wall, unable to meet his boyfriend's eyes.
"Min-kun?" the scar-faced boy asked, pained.
Could it be...?
"You bastard. I should kick the crap out of you for what you did, taking advantage of him when he was hurting and vulnerable." Mitsui seethed at him.
"Hisashi!" The other boy said angrily. "Don't forget why I was like that in the first place! It was because of you too remember?"
Mitsui took a step towards his boyfriend.
"Min-kun... I--"
Kogure turned away again.
Mitsui froze, his explanations dying on his lips.
Then suddenly the scar-faced boy turned, stormed towards Rukawa and threw him back up against the wall, fist ready to fly once more.
Rukawa closed his eyes and let Mitsui have his way, willing to take any punishment he knew he deserved.
He waited.
But the blow never came.
Slowly, he opened his eyes... to see Mitsui looking just as confused as he was.
"What is this Rukawa? For weeks you've been looking at me like I'm food for your starving... whatever... and then I catch you jacking off while moaning my boyfriend's name?"
A small gasp from the other side of the room.
"My name? Hisashi, you didn't tell me that part."
If Mitsui heard the other boy he gave no sign of it.
"So what was that in the shower? Were you just using me in some weird, twisted way or something?"
Rukawa drew in a sharp breath. There was something strange in the older boy's voice… Mitsui actually sounded… hurt…
Suddenly the scar-faced boy stepped closer and menacingly tightened his grip on Rukawa's shirt.
"Is this some fucked up plan of yours to break me and Min-kun up so you can have him all to yourself? Is that what this bullshit is?"
"No." Rukawa replied, finally finding his voice.
Mitsui narrowed his eyes, waiting for him to continue.
"It... It wasn't bullshit."
"When? When wasn't it bullshit? When you were telling Min-kun how long you've been pining for him or when you were sucking my dick like it was the tastiest thing on the planet?" the older boy persisted angrily.
"Hisashi!" Kogure yelled. Mitsui released his hold on Rukawa to face his boyfriend.
"What! I'm confused okay?! I just want to know which one of us he really wants!" Mitsui yelled back.
"Why Hisashi?" Kogure asked, voice suddenly wavering.
Mitsui's eyes flickered uncertainly and his mouth snapped shut, unable to form answer.
"I knew it... you... you don't want me anymore." Kogure said, voice barely audible.
"No! No Min-kun, that's not true!" Mitsui said vehemently, approaching his boyfriend. Kogure took a step back, evading him.
"Don't lie Hisashi, I know you want him."
"Well what about you! You were the first one to ask him what he really felt remember? You're the one that really wants out of this, aren't you! So you can be with him!"
"No! I... I..."
"Hey!" Rukawa yelled suddenly.
The two boys turned, surprised, remembering he was there.
"It's obvious that you two are crazy about each other and that there's no way you should break up." Rukawa said.
The two boys stood stunned, perhaps shocked to hear such a long sentence coming out of his mouth, or perhaps shocked at the truth that sentence held.
"The thing is..."
Rukawa hesitated, suddenly aware of what he was about to release on them. He bit his lip and looked at the floor, uncertainty rushing through his body...
But then he remembered something… a whisper from a dream… and his doubts began to clear. And though he couldn't understand why, his instincts told him there was only one thing he could do.
Just say it.
"...I want both of you."
No response.
Just thick silence.
He took a quick glance at his sempais. They still stood dumbfounded.
"Um... maybe we can all... be friends?" he asked, holding his breath.
More silence.
Maybe they hadn't understood...
... Then he heard a chuckle.
He looked up to see Mitsui laughing, an amused look in his eyes.
Mitsui looked over at his boyfriend, and seeing the bewildered look on Kogure's face the scar-faced boy tried to control his laughter, but was still grinning. Then Mitsui walked over to the bespectacled boy, leaning close and whispering in his ear.
Kogure looked at Rukawa with eyes wide, then slowly, a huge smile broke out on his lips. Suddenly the bespectacled boy threw his arms around Mitsui and kissed him deeply. When he pulled back, he nodded.
Mitsui smiled and kissed him back.
Rukawa watched them, breath still held.
He couldn't take this much longer.
"Um..." he started, trying to remind the two older boys of his presence.
Kogure laughed into Mitsui's mouth and pulled back, burying his face into Mitsui's neck.
Mitsui turned to Rukawa and smirked...
"Oh you are soooo dead."
completed Nov 24 '02 ~ revised July 9 '03