Where to begin,     
       
I've really not a clue.....         
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     For those, 'in the know' please bear with me, for a few minutes, while I lay out some basic terms, for the unknowning, but willing to learn.......
       To the unknowning, but wanting to learn..... a couple of basic terms...

           GG- Genetic Female-   (Born biogically female)
           TS-   Transexual (like me) --  Those that feel that they were born of the wrong gender, that they know (in their heart and souls) they are
          TV / CD -- Transvestite / Crossdresser -- those that wish to appear in the opposite gender than they truly are. IE males dressing in female's clothing and make-up..... 
        My early years, (The how-for's, what for's and why not's) are all a bit fuzzy to me
         I do remember all the raids, in my Mother's closet's and drawers and the sweet sensations of the satin's and silks next to my skin    *VBS*

        My earliest recollections were in my mid 20's It was a very traumatic event in my life (Death in the family) that turned my life upside down. I shut myself into m own little world ('Cept to go out for Holiday family functions and to work).
        Remembering m love for cross-dressing, from my earlier years, I started
back in full vigor -- Body Shapers, short skirts / dresses, high heels -- the works!  Back then my name was Heather, but when I was reborn, I wanted a name -- a special name -- a name I would live with the rest of my life -- Hence, Daana was born.
        I was in my own little world [on and off] for the better part of the next 13-15 years.  During this time, I did have a couple relationships, but they never lasted very long. Dunno why, they just didn't. As I always had Heather to come back to, maybe they just couldn't compete with Heather.
       Though, in reality, it was just a few short weeks ago, (It's seems like such an eternity, now) I met a woman, on ICq, from another country. We quickly fell in love [in hind-sight so we thought].  Within weeks all thought were of me re-locating, to this other country, and marrying.  We met, for two weeks and all such thoughts only entensified.
        I sorted out my affairs here, purged Heather's things, moved there and we did marry.
        But some things just weren't meant to be....
        Things didn't work out. No one was to blame, or both were to blame.  We were both as much faulted as the other). My Visas were up, so it was back to the USA a financial and emotional wreck.
        I knew I need help (For depression and anxiety) and because of finances I could only get County  Sponsored Mental Health. Well, because of my living abroad. County wouldn't sponsor me.... So for the next 5 months, of pure living Hell (*Covers Mouth* 'Xcuse me)  the County and State fought as to who would sponsor me (or more appropriately, who would not sponsor me.  Finally, I was taken on for therapy.
       Toward the end of my Living Hell (*Covers Mouth Again* Xcuse me again), my thoughts went back to my cross-dressing days. And it was then that I realized something was missing. One thing led to another, and another, and another.... (Well, you get the point).  It wasn't that I wanted to appear female that was wrong.  it was that I WAS NOT FEMALE that was wrong!!   Then, after much soul-searching-- My epiphany!!!! I AM female..... I was just born with a birth defect -- I was born as a male.
       There was a time when I really hit 'Rock-Bottom' and it very nearly ended in
Catastrophe (For details click on the 'catastrophe' link, but please be advised the contents ARE NOT for the weak at heart.)
       The next several months, not having the advantage of focusing on my 'outward expression' (dressing), I've finally managed to get my new, true, self in proper prospectives, in my heart and soul.
       Things are defiantely looking up, these days.......
       I met a darling g/f -- Ayla -- I most probably couldn't have gotten to where I am today, without her love and support
       A few months ago, I met a GG (Andrea) , from here (she's going to college here, ad her g/f is TS.  She is turning out to be such a good friend.Though she is back to school again, we don't get to see each other much anymore....I know she thinks of me (well, when she's not in school, and well when she's not thinking of her g/f.... and just knowing that she's here, is quite a comfort.
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