"Ms. McLean has been sedated and we are going to keep her here overnight." the doctor broke the silence that permeated the waiting room since the unbeleivable and horrendous news had been presented to the friends. "The police are here to speak to you" The hospital administrator led the police into the room and before leaving asked "We know that this will have to be reported, how would you like us to handle this?"
Kevin looked up "We will handle it, our press secretary will be here soon and we will then issue a statement, now dammit leave us alone" Kevin broke down and Skylar rubbed his back trying to calm him down "excuse my husband's sharpness but this is a shock..thank you for your concern"
The detective handed a bundle of letters to Howie "sir this was found at the scene and it had your name on it." Howie gingerly took the package and started to cry when he saw the familiar writing that he had always teased AJ about. He opened it up and handed out the letters to the people whose names were written. There was silence as they read.
Nicky,
I know I always teased you and made you cry but I want you to know that you are the little brother that I always wanted and I pushed you so much because I wanted to make you tough, I wanted to turn you from the shy little boy you were when you first came to us, into a man. You have made me so proud. You are now self confident and quite the wise ass and I am proud to call you my brother. You better marry that other wise ass Kymmi, you two are perfect for each other. If you screw that up I might just have to come and kick your ass. Take care of her Nicky because she is special.
I love you,
Bone
~~**~~
Kymmi,
You are one of my best friends and one of the two reasons why I survived these past two years. You are my confidante, you are my soul mate and you are my moral booster. I know that you are angry and devestated right now but please know that I needed to do this. I needed to take control over my life. This was the one time that I was finally in control and I know that I made the right decision. I am writing this as I look at the framed picture of all of us at the Grammys, we all look so happy and do you know that at the moment that picture was taken I honestly felt invincible and actually believed that we would all be friends forever. Know that when I close my eyes for the final time I will be remembering all the happy times we spent together. If it is any consolation I am not scared, I am happy and I feel free for the first time in my life. I am embarking on a journey and I have the man I love with every ounce of my being, right beside me to lead the way.
I love you, Red.
Molly
~~*~~
Kevin and Skeelo,
You are the vision of a perfect love, you are the model that Chipper and I tried to follow in our relationship. Kev...what can I say, you helped me grow into the man I am today. You kicked my ass when I needed it but you also were there to listen to me when I was afriad that we would never make it, that I would never find a woman who understood me and you were there for the nights when I just wanted to give up. I love you buddy and I will never forget what you did for me. Skeelo...take care of Kevin and make sure he doesn't get all crotchety, life is too short to be that anal. You are the reason that Kevin smiles all the time, you are the reason why he is so loose and you are the reason why I survived out on the road without Molly. For those reasons you are my sister. Tell Hannah that her uncle AJ loved her very much and please promise me that if this baby is a boy that you will pass on my little black book to him.
I love you both so much and please continue to fill the world with your one of a kind love.
Alex
~~**~~
Rok, You taught me that prayer and strong beliefs could get me through everything life throws at me. You are inspiration for the courage you showed through your troubles and I am grateful that I got to share this journey with you. I know that you and Leighanne will be incredible parents and that you will love each other forever.
I love you buddy.
Bone
~~**~~
Jessi,
Although I have only known you for a short time, I have seen the joy you have put back in Howie's eyes. I know I hurt him and for that I will be eternily sorry for, but when I see him with you I know that he is happy. Please take care of him and make him move on with his life.
Molly ~~**~~
D...
Where can I start. We met 11 years ago as children and we are still friends now that we are men..No we are family..D you are the only one, aside from Molly, that truly understands me. I know that it was tough being my friend sometimes but you always found a way to forgive me. The times spent going clubbing, the long talks on the road, the concerts are all things I will cherish but the one thing I will always remember is the time we spent off the tour, just being two guys hanging out and acting normal. D you are my best friend in the world. When the days seem to drag and you feel like you cannot go on,just remember that whenever something makes you smile I have sent it..whenever you are cold and a warmness comes over you to soothe you know that I have breathed the life back into you and whenever you are lonely just close your eyes and remember all the fun times we have and I will be beside you seeing the same memories...Please take care of my mom, she always said that you were her second son and she is going to need you. Please understand why I did this.
Howie, I have watched Brian and Kevin find incredible women and settle down and I craved that. I always dreamed of someone who would encourage me, someone who could make me smile just by looking at me and someone who would love me no matter what I did. Molly was that woman. I have lived almost two years with her by my side and it was the happiest I have ever been. To have to go on without her is something I cannot do. I couldn't bear not being able to taste the sweetness of her lips, to rest my hands on her warm back or to bury my face in her vanilla smelling curls. I had never slept through the night until I met her. From the day she joined us on tour the insomnia that plagued me since I was a child stood aside and peaceful sleep took its place. We always thought our love was invincibal and it was, it was our lives that could not sustain it. Death is the only way to make sure that our love is forever.
Think of us often,
I love you with all my heart.
Bone
Everyone was crying as they finished reading the letters. "At least we know
why they did it." Brian said, through his tears.
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