~K~
I am missing you so much, I miss the way you always brush the curls out of my eyes when I talk, the way you squeeze me ever so subtly when you hug me and most of all I miss you. It has only been a month and I am going crazy. I was in a meeting yesterday with the construction firm who will be building the woman's shelter and you just popped into my thoughts, I think I missed half of what they were presenting to us but I couldnt shake your face from my mind. Why is it that you consume my thoughts every minute of every day? Sometimes at night I will wake up from a deep sleep and reach for you, only to be reminded that you are not there.
Well it is time for my weekly planning meeting and I must run, I hope that by thinking of you the meeting will be more managable.
I miss you darling,
~S~
~~**~~
~S~
I did a signing today and a girl and her mother were standing in line and Skylar I swear that the little girl was a perfect vision of what our daughter would look like. She had beautiful brown curls, a porcelin complexion and the most intense green eyes I have ever seen. It took all my might not to grab her and hug her, isn't that strange? Even after one month of being away from you, each night before I turn off the light I fluff up the pillow where your head should be. I have taken to sleeping with one hand outstreched as if I am reaching for your body. Sometimes when I awake and I find the bed empty I will go for a walk and as I walk the dark streets I will walk with my hand clasped, imagining that your soft hand is safetly in mine and play back in my mind the wonderful conversations that we have shared. I often re read the messages that brought us together and that helps me pass the long and lonely nights. When I am on stage I feel so alive, but back at the hotel, far away from the fans and the rest of the guys I am overcome with a lonliness that can only be described as devestation. I feel so empty and I know that the only way it will go away is to have you back in my arms. Skylar I am anxiously awaiting the minute when I see your face and can hold you tight. Know that I think of you always
Forever in my thoughts,
~K~
~~**~~
"Come on Max, we will go for a run boy. I need some fresh bread for supper," Skylar attatched the leash to Max's collar and out the door they went.
~~**~~
"Hello you have reached Skylar, I am not available so leave me a message."
Kevin closed his eyes as he listened to the message, he drank in her beautiful voice and he could picture the way her lips moved as she recorded the message. He clutched the phone trying to absorb her energy into his body through the phone.
"Hi Skylar, it's just me, I wanted to check in before I head to the show but you are probably still at work...well I miss you...I have to go....bye." Kevin's voice was barely a whisper as he spoke on the message. Hearing her voice made him realise how much he needed her.
He picked up his jacket
and
tucked the picture of the two of them in Colorado into his jacket
pocket. He
never went anywhere without that picture, his thoughts were that it was
the
closest thing to Skylar that he had and often during the show as he
sang a
ballad, especially the haunting Show Me the Meaning, he would touch the
picture and know that she was close.
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