You want success. You succeed while its still novel to succeed, or until the first emotional hurdle arrives. Or the celebration,... or just because you feel like congratulating yourself for your sobriety. And once you've had that drink, you'll think "its ok now..I can have the odd drink and I wont slip back into the habit
haaaaaaaaahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahaaaaaaaaaaah.!!
Turkey One.. you None.
Start again. Thanks for playing.
What the hell,.. go a few rounds with the Turkey. See who wins.
Willpower is a brilliant little tool, that appears to work, based on how much effort you put in. ";ooh I'm strong !.. If i fail the first time, I'll just try harder and harder and harder. ...."
But when you've tried as hard as you can go,.. and you still fall off...thats when you get your payoff. Thats when you can finally sit back , relax , and say' "well I gave it everything, but I just cant do it ! *sob Sob* and you can whinge to your friends, and cry on their shoulders, and forgive yourself over and over. But now, not only do you not have to fight anymore,... but you get to stay in the same denial you started with, and thats where you'll feel most comfortable.
As long as you live on earth, there is bound to be trouble ahead, so,...you're setting yourself on a course that has an inevitable future. THINGS GO WRONG .Thats something you have no control over, yet ,.......youre planning on having control.? SetUp !. YOU yourself are subconsciously planning your own defeat, just so you can say " I tried"
As for THEY
THEY can be anything, from a memory of a kid in kindy who stole your pencil case , to your emotionally detached parents, or your selfish unavailable partner, .... anyone or any circumstance that introduced you to the lifestyle of being a Victim.
They dont even have to exist anymore.
You and the drink, are keeping them alive, in a private little ballet for 2.
We are raised to be good little boys and girls
But if mummy doesnt reward our good behaviour with hugs and approval, then why should we believe anything is worthwhile. Might as well get pissed.
If the one person on earth who SHOULD give us hugs, doesnt want to...then how can we not feel worthless.
Being a Victim, is our P a t t e r n ,.. and untill we learn otherwise, we keep feeding the fucker... and we're afraid to voyage out into uncharted territory. Nobody taught us how to handle success. So thats why we fail.
Only way out is not to PUSH against it.
But to YIELD to it.
Give in... Stop Fighting.
The Fight IS the ballet
You and the Drink, have been an even match for years.
If you fight... you just keep dancing.
If you Yield....the drinks power deflates like a tired balloon.
Pick a battle you can win, rather than the one youve been losing at all your life.