He Doesn’t See Me
Author: Kovacsgirl
Category: Lucy
Rating: G
Disclaimer: I DO NOT own ER or any of
its components. I believe they belong to NBC and WB. Nor do I own the song, He
Doesn’t See Me, quoted below. I’m not sure who does. You can find it on
Sarah Brightman’s La Luna CD.
When he passes me, he’s ray of light
Like the first drop of sun from the sky
And I know he’s a king, who deserves a queen
But I’m not a queen.
And he doesn’t see me.
When he dances, he moves me to a smile
And I see everything
near him shine
There’s a grace in his ways that I can’t contain
I haven’t that grace
Oh I haven’t that grace.
I’ve watched you John. If I can’t be
at your side now, I can at least pretend that I am. I am sorry. I wanted to
survive, my spirit lived. But my body was too weak. I saw you in the recovery
room, and my heart broke. I saw you trying to recover, and I wished I could
lend you my hand. I saw you struggling, and I wanted to lift you up. I saw you
start to overdose and I wished I could tell you to stop. I saw Abby catch you
with the drug, and I started to cry. I saw you fight with Benton, and I
screamed at you. I saw you fly to Atlanta, and I joined you on your journey. I
saw you struggle for a second time, fighting the addiction, and I wanted to
save you from the pain. I sat next to you when you returned to Chicago. I held
your hand when Dr. Greene and Dr. Weaver gave you the terms of agreement when
you went back to work. I saw you continue your life. But you don’t see me. I’ve
been with you in spirit ever since I left you in body. I am so sorry. You were
always there for me. Now it’s my turn. I love you and I will never leave you.
Even if you can’t see me.
Like the first drop of sun from the
sky.
And I know he’s a king who deserves a
queen.
Someone other than me.
So different from me.
He doesn’t see me.
He doesn’t see me.
He doesn’t see me.
Yay! My first ER fic completed that I actually like! Please send
comments to kovacsgirl@yahoo.com