Warnings : Angst, Twisted ppl with twisted ideas (no I am not talking about me! *glare*), Harsh language and the first chapter is lemonish while the last chapter is Lemon *goes red* Ah almost forgot there's probably some OOC in there too *nods*
I'll let you get on with the fic but first I just have to say that I'm swedish which means that english is not my first language so please have that in mind when you weep from the bad spelling and the grama-errors…
TELL ME TO STOP
Chapter 6 - Touch Me
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Touch me, touch me
I long to live for real
Touch me, touch me
I'm just as human as a human can be
Please touch me
-Weeping Willows, Touch me-
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Zel shivered and stared at Amelia. She had said that she loved him. That was why she wanted him to tell her what he wanted and what it was that troubled him so. I want you, his heart screamed, want you because I love you too. This was too much for him. Suddenly tears started filling up his eyes and reached out his hands to the Princess.
"I want you to touch me," Zelgadis whispered with tears in his eyes. "Please, touch me." Amelia smiled softly and stepped closer. She could see that the chimera was scared. He trembled and couldn't seem to allow himself to meet her eyes. For so long she had waited just to hear Zel ask her to come close to him, to put her hands on him. Slowly Amelia raised her hand and caressed his face. His skin felt sort of rough but not unpleasent and as she moved her soft hand she felt the love for this man, who was so lost inside himself, grow even more.
"Zelgadis, look at me." Slowly the chimera allowed his nervous eyes to meet her calm and caring blue ones. "What are you afraid of?" The man infront of her swallowed slowly.
"I'm, I'm afraid I'll hurt you even though I love you," he answered just barely loud enough for her to hear. "Afraid you won't love me…" Her heart jumped when she finally heard the words she had wanted to hear for so long. She smiles softly and lifted his hand to her own face.
"Nothing is going to make me not love you," the Princess said pressed his hand fairly hard into her own cheek and made him caress her by moving her own hand with his underneth. "See it doesn't hurt me at all. And even if you should hurt me I know you would never do it on purpose." He stared at her cheek in amazement. Amelia was right, except a slight red tone in her skin nothing had happened.
"I'm so afraid I'll hurt you," he mumbled and touched her face again.
"I know, I'll try my best to show you that you won't hurt me" the Princess promised and placed her fingers on his shirt and her lips against his. "Just trust me Zel, that's all I ask of you," she added after pulling away slightly from his face. The chimera felt his heart beat faster. He loved this woman so much and right now all he wanted to do was feel her close to him.
"Amelia I trust you with my life," he said looking into her big blue eyes. Instead of saying anything more the young woman slowly removed his shirt. Her soft fingertips trailed over his body, setting his skin on fire were she had touched. Again she found his lips and kissed him with a hunger that he shared and answered. All too soon Amelia's mouth left his and he moaned in objection. With a longing he had never felt before the chimera reached out his hands to pull the Princess' face closer again. But before his hands found their goal soft, wet lips kissed him across the neck. Her tongue slowly caressed him, snaked out over the pebbles inbedded in his skin. Zel closed his eyes and felt how he started to shiver, tremble under the touch of Amelia's lips and tongue. Kisses tickled his collar-bone as her hands reached out for his. When he opened his eyes she was standing infront of him holding his shivering hands in hers. They were so close he felt every breath she took against his own chest.
"Amelia?" he asked with a trembling voice. She smiled at him and leaned forward, gently pressing their bodies together. "Amelia is something wrong?" He was scared, confused and almost set on fire by desire. Nothing in the world could make him deny that he loved this woman and he knew that his love was answered. But this was new to him. He had never felt like this, never been touched like this and he had never touched anyone the way he wanted to touch Amelia. She shook her head at his question and let go of his hands. Without taking her eyes from his she took a step back and removed her cloak. The soft sound of it falling to the floor made the chimera widen his eyes. Trembling he reached out his hands and with effort he managed to take off her shirt. With a tender look in her eyes the Princess took a step forward just barely allowing her naked skin touch his. Her soft but firm breasts pressed against his chest every time she inhaled air.
She could feel Zelgadis shiver with desire, from being scared and nervous. It surprised her a little that she was so calm instead of being afraid of what was about to happen. Somehow her mind and body had decided to take care of this man she loved so much and that she had wanted for for so long. Amelia brushed her lips against the chimera's and he leaned forward changing the soft caress into a kiss. Gently and slowly she slid her tongue into his mouth. With a low moan Zel placed his hands on her shoulders pulling her even closer to him. Her fingers stroke his neck and back as the kiss got deeper and their hunger for each other grew stronger. The chimera moved his hands from her shoulders to her neck, the touch was unsure but made the Prinsess' skin feel warmer. She left his lips and kissed her way along his jawline while she listened to his breathing. His heartbeat was like a drum and hers pounded together with it in the same rhythm. Gently and slowly Amelia put her mouth against the chimeras ear.
"Tell me to stop," she whispered and pressed her cheek against his. Zel let out a soft moan and placed his hands on her hips. "Do you want me to stop?" she repeated when he failed to answer. When she still got no reply she softly nibbled along his ear causing the chimera to shiver more.
"Please Amelia," he almost whimpered, "don't stop." She left his ear and went back to his lips. The hunger she could sense between them made her knees week but she refused to let it overpower her. This was not the time for her to be weak, not the time to leave everything up to Zelgadis but she had to be sure this was what he wanted and needed.
"Is this what you want Zelgadis?" she asked quietly into his mouth. The chimera opened his eyes and met hers.
"I have never wanted anything more than this," he answered with feeling. "This is all I need." For a moment they just stood there looking into each others eyes, drowning in the love, passion and the need they had for each other.
Zelgadis' inside was lost in confusion, desire and love. For the first time since he was a little boy his heart was free, free to love and free to be loved. Carefully and filled with amazement for these new feelings he leaned forward and pressed his face against her skin. Amelias scent filled his body with warmth and when he softly kissed her skin he could taste her. His hands caressed her body as he moved them from her hips to finally rest just under her breasts. They were so soft, so warm, so inviting. Slowly the chimera placed his hand over it. When Amelia drew a breath his hand became full of female flesh that deleted most thoughts from his brain. With his eyes widened in amazement he caressed the soft skin and got a soft, low moan from the young woman in reward. Very carefully he lowered his face to her breast and kissed it. He could feel how Amelia leaned backwards, pushing her breasts forward as to urge him to do it again. Another kiss was delivered to her milky-white breast but this time he kept his mouth just over her nipple. Nervously he flickered out his tongue and heard how the Princess moaned at the light caress. Her obvious liking made him braver so he softly started to suckle on the peak of her breast. When he lifted his face he met her blue eyes showing a light in them that he had only seen once before. It was in that strange dream where Amelia had appeared beside his bed to seduce him. A soft hand on his naked chest drew his thoughts back to reality. Slowly Amelia caressed his upper body making him shiver under her hands. Then she placed her lips against his skin. Kissing, softly nibbling and blowing warm puffs of air over it as she moved from his neck, across his collar-bone and then down his chest. It wasn't until she stopped and put some distance between his body and her mouth that Zelgadis looked down. Infront of him the Princess of Seyruun sat looking back up at him. Her lips slightly parted and both hands softly placed on his hips. The sight made him even more nervous. What was she doing down there? But to his relief and disappointment she stood up. She hadn't moved her hands when she gently licked his lower lip before she kissed him. She tasted to sweet and her lips were so very soft it felt unreal.
"This is just a dream, isn't it? Zelgadis sighed when the Princess broke the kiss. She gave him a strange smile.
"No Zel this is no dream, not a fantasy. This is reality," Amelia quietly answered. "Do you want me to stop?" This was so strange to him. Although it was diffrent from his dream it was also familier. Do you want me to stop? had been asked to him before and that had turned out to be nothing but a dream.
"I don't want to stop, I don't want you to stop, " he mumbled.
"Then I won't." Came her simple answer. Her hands were on the move again. This time they lingered just over the croth of his pants. The touch that followed was light, just a little more than a tickle and it caused Zel to stretch every muscle in his body. Amelia's hand drew back for a moment and then touched him again. This time the caress was more serious. Carefully she stroked him through the pants and received a hoarse moan from the chimera. He couldn't open his eyes cause he knew that by now it was very obvious just how exited he really was and that embarrassed him. His intire body was on fire and the fire had its origin in his groin. The next touch he felt was soft and light as butterfly wings but it still caused him to moan. This young woman was touching him "there" and driving him to insanity by doing so. Slowly and blushing Zelgadis opened his eyes. Amelia was standing infront of him with her eyes almost closed. Her right hand rested over his groin while her left hand was softly placed on his hip. There was no need for him to look down. He already knew how obvoius his erection was even though he still wore his pants. If he allowed Amelia to continue this much longer he would really have something to be ashamed off he knew that. An action that took her attention from that area was needed and fast. Zel's eyes fell on the bed on the other side of the room.
"Amelia," he said very quietly with a voice that he just barely could controle.
"Yes." Unsure he could force his voice to obey him once more he took her hand and lead her to the bed. But Amelia stopped him before he could sit down. Instead of allowing him to get on the bed she pressed her body against his. This was torture, pure torture. Everytime she moved her body she rubbed against him and she also manage to rub against his erection. It didn't feel uncomfortable in any way, it felt wonderful and that was what he was afraid of. Zelgadis was already fighting to restrain his body and this did in no way help him. Rushing this was out of the question as far as he was concerned. He was going to make love to Amelia and he refused to do it in a way that meant that only he would find pleasure in it. Besides who knew if he even could make love to her. He could very well hurt her by doing so. Therefor he had to make sure she was ready for him and that he could stop himself if he did cause her any pain or discomfort. Zel leaned forward and kissed Amelia on the neck. Slowly he nibbled and kissed his way to her ear.
"Tell me to stop." He could feel that his use of her words surprised the Princess. "Tell me you don't want me." Amelia turned her head slightly and placed her mouth against his ear.
"Don't start what you can't finish," she whispered back to him before nibbling on his ear-lobe. Smiling at her answer Zelgadis kissed her on the shoulder and down towards her chest. Again he covered her breast with his mouth, gently suckling. Amelia moaned when he reached the pink flesh in the center. He kneeled infront of her and placed his hands on her pants. Slowly and trembling more then ever he managed to convince the fabric, that stood between him and the Princess' naked skin, to give up. With a small smile he pushed them down and felt how Amelia stepped out of them. And there she was, standing infront of him completely naked. The fact that she was naked told him that her pants weren't the only thing he had managed to take of. No reason to think twice about that, he told himself, they were going to come off sooner or later. It wasn't until then, when he saw her completely naked, that he realized that Amelia was shivering and trembling just like he was. She had seemed so sure and calm that he had thought she wasn't scared or nervous at all. But she was and now he could see it. Why hide that from me? he wondered. It took him a few moments to find the answer. To help him and make him feel more secure Amelia had pushed aside her own worries. Just knowing that made the love for her pound even harder inside Zel's heart. He stood up infront of her and found her lips. As he kissed her, carefully exploring her mouth with his tongue he allowed his hand to wander over her breasts, over her stomach and across her thigh. A moment of hesitation stopped him before he softly allowed his hand to make its way in between her legs. As carefully as he could he explored her causing the Princess to moan. She was warm, moist and seemed to be welcoming his curious fingers. When her moans had gotten hoarse and her breathing very fast he opened his eyes and looked at her. Her lips were slightly parted, her eyes closed and her fingers gripped his upper arm. With longing Zelgadis removed his hand and covered her lips with his. Amelia answered the kiss with hunger and wanting. As soon as the kiss was over she took a step back placing herself against the bed, then her hands started to work on his pants. In no time she had his pants undone and pushed them down. With care she got him to step out of them and allowed them to fall to the floor. In her way were still his underwear that she turned her attention to next. Small innocent hands moved over the thin fabric causing Zel to moan when she came in contact with his erection. And then they were gone along with the underwear. Infront of each other they stood, naked hungry for each other.
He couldn't quite remember how they had gotten on the bed but now he was lying over Amelia with his lips pressed against soft milky-white skin. A few moments ago he had been kissing her lips and now he was nibbling on her shoulder. His hand caressed her breasts as his mouth moved closer to them. Gently he sucked in their flesh between his teeth and came closer to the peak in the center. When he took it in his mouth to softly suckle on it Amelia moaned and arched her back slightly. Her hands were drawing patterns on his back, hip and thigh. He knew where she was headed and closed his eyes as he waited for her to get there. After what seemed to be a lifetime her hand finally touched the area that was screaming for attention. Her soft and careful hand stroked him slowly as he hoarsly moaned out his pleasure against her breast. Zel was about to ask her to stop before she took him too far but she seemed to know already and let her hand travel back up to his chest. Before he could go any further he had to calm down. His body was already glistning with sweat and the pressure in his loins was pounding inside of him. Still with his lips pressed to her breast he started to caress her thigh. His fingers moved further up as his tongue flickered out across the peak of her breast. Amelia's soft moans got hoarser when his fingers found their way in between her legs. All of the chimera's concentration was directed at exploring the young woman's most intimate secrets. The more his hand touched her flesh the louder her moans became and the more her back arched up from the bed. When the sounds she let out were no more than whimpers he stopped. Carefully so that he wouldn't crush her under his weight he covered her body with his.
"Are you sure about this Amelia," he asked hoarsly and looked at her face. She opened her eyes slightly and smiled at him.
"Very sure," nodded and met his eyes. "Are you sure Zel?" The question and the concern in her voice made him want her even more than before.
"Very sure," he smiled and caressed the Princess' cheek. As slow and carefully as he possibly could Zel started to lower himself down and inside of her. He kept his eyes on her face to be able to see any signs of pain. When she frowned slightly and shut her eyes hard he immediatly stopped and started to pull back. A hand on his shoulder stopped him. With tears in his eyes he allowed himself to look at her again.
"I'm hurting you," he mumbled and tried to pull away again. To his surprise Amelia pulled down his face to hers.
"It hurts a little the first time," she said softly and kissed him. "Don't worry about it it'll go away, I promise." Her eyes looked into his so he knew she wasn't just trying to protect him.
"Just promise me you'll tell me if I hurt you," he begged with hurt in his eyes. To hurt her was the worst thing he could think of and if that ment not doing this then so be it.
"Zelgadis you won't hurt me because you're a chimera," Amelia answered and moved underneth him causing him to slide deeper inside of her. For a second he thought he saw a shadow of pain fly across her face but it was chased away by a low moan of pleasure. Carefully he pushed himself in deeper letting his own moans blend with Amelia's. When he could go no further he withdrew slowly and started over again. As he increased his pace he could feel how her inner muscles hugged him. He looked down at her face and cherished the beauty he saw. Amelia's eyes were closed, her lips parted and her raven black hair framed a sweat-beaded face that shone with delight and sensual pleasure. Her breathing was heavy and her moans husky just like his were. Satisfied with what he saw Zel focused on taking his beloved Princess over the edge to complete satisfaction.
It was still dark outside. Zelgadis opened his eyes just barely enough to see that it was close to morning. His body was still tired and satisfied from love-making. In his arms Amelia was sound asleep, breathing calmly. He smiled and pressed his slender body closer to hers. Everything was right and he was happy. For the first time that he could remember he was happy. The woman sleeping in his arms loved him and he loved her, more than anything. He wasn't alone anymore. Carefully not to awake Amelia he leaned forward and kissed her cheek.
"I love you," he mumbled quietly and drifted back to sleep. The dream that met him there was nothing like they used to be. Zel smiled in his sleep when he saw the door guilded in gold infront of him. It was open and through it stepped the former two-faced woman but this time all of her was beautiful, young and sweet. She was Amelia…
With you I am the man I want to be
How you kiss me right into eternity
And how the world is trembling when you touch me there
Give me the feeling of
Slowly diving into air
-Cue, Slowly diving into air-
By: Atsureki
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Well hope you enjoyed it *S* This was my first lemonfic ever and darn these things are harder to write than I thought *wipes forehead* Anyways… please lemme know what you think? *begs* Oh and if you have any questions about the songs used feel free to mail me at bornintwilight@yahoo.com *waves*
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