Warnings : Angst, Twisted ppl with twisted ideas (no I am not talking about me! *glare*), Harsh language and the first chapter is lemonish while the last chapter is Lemon *goes red* Ah almost forgot there's probably some OOC in there too *nods*
I'll let you get on with the fic but first I just have to say that I'm swedish which means that english is not my first language so please have that in mind when you weep from the bad spelling and the grama-errors…
TELL ME TO STOP
Chapter 1 - A Dream Inside A Dream
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Tough and hard, a colored facade that nobody can tear down
Feelings that, never get expressed stapel on top of each other
Need someone who wants to care, like me for the one I am
I want someone I can turn to, when I want to
Oh do you want to hug me, hold me, show me how
How much you like waking up and feeling me close to you
-FreeStyle, Nära dig [Discordant's trans.]-
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Zelgadis looked down at the young woman he was carrying. Her eyes were closed and her breathing shallow. Over and over again he cursed himself for not being fast enough. If he only had moved a little faster he would have been able stop her from running infront of him. But he had been one second behind and that second had allowed Amelia to move infront of him and receive an attack meant for him. It was so strange to him how she insisted on trying to protect him. This wasn't the first time and the chimera was sure it wouldn't be the last. His freakish body didn't need that kind of protection anyway. With fear in his eyes Zelgadis stopped and put his ear against Amelias chest. He couldn't hear anything, couldn't feel a pulse.
"No Amelia, no," he whimpered and put the pale girl down. His hands shook as he massaged her heart, trying to convince it to start beating again. After what seemed to be forever he finally heard heartbeats again. Still trembling he cast a healingspell over and over again not sure it did any good but afraid of what might happen if he didn't at least try. To Zel's relief Amelia's breathing improved and her heartbeat got stronger. Quickly he picked her up again and hurried towards the town he could see in the horizon.
Amelia slowly opened her eyes, tried to sit up and moaned at the pain the movement caused her body. The sunlight from the window were like knives in her eyes. Carefully she turned her head to see whose breathing she could hear along with her own. Beside her bed, on a chair, sat Zelgadis. He was fast asleep and his head rested next to her pillow. His mouth was slightly opened and his left hand laid open beside his head. Even though it hurt her Amelia lifted up her hand and placed it in Zelgadis'. He mumbled something in his sleep and closed his fingers around hers. She could tell he was about to wake up so she quietly watched him, waiting. She had loved him for years now and still it didn't seem like he knew or understood. His face was so handsome but he couldn't see anything good with his body, the hate he carried inside wouldn't allow him to. Amelia leaned back against the pillows again and thought about Zelgadis. Without even noticing it she drifted back to sleep.
It took Zel a few moments before he remembered what had happen. With concern he looked at Amelia. She was fast asleep and her breathing was calm. To his surprise he noticed that he held the Princess' hand in his. His brain was telling him to remove his own hand but he just couldn't. It felt so good to to touch her soft skin, it felt so right. Zelgadis sighed. He knew that he had feelings for the fragile princess but he had never allowed her to see that and his heart was screaming in protest. Never before in his life had he wanted somebody like he wanted Amelia. He wanted to touch her, taste her, give himself to her but he couldn't. She was a Princess. She was simply way out of his league. What could he, a chimera, offer her? Besides if he touched her the way he wanted to he would hurt her and he just couldn't let that happen. His body shivered in fear as he in his head saw how his stoney hide scraped her delicate skin. No, he had to stay away from her!
Amelia frowned as she walked beside Zel. It had been two weeks since she had gotten hurt trying to protect the chimera and with every day that passed Zel seemed to become more and more reserved towards her. She didn't understand. All she wanted to do was to put her hands on him and show him how wrong he was about himself. Still frowning the Princess of Seyruun followed Zelgadis into a small abandoned cottage. This meant she had to spend a night in the same room as him, again. Amelia sighed. Her desires were running wild and she didn't know how long she would be able to hide them from her friend.
Zel pulled up the covers again and growled. It was impossible for him to fall asleep when he knew Amelia was sleeping just a few meters away from him. A sudden squeak from the floorboards made the chimera turn his head towards the Princess bed. With his eyes wide from surprise he saw Amelia standing next to his bed. She was dressed in her nightclothes and her eyes were enlightened with something he couldn't read. Without a word the small Princess approached him.
"A-amelia?" he studdered and stared at her.
"Schh," she answered and kneeled beside him. Before he could say anything else the young woman leaned over and brushed her lips against his. Zel's body reacted before his brain had a chance and with confusion in his eyes he for the first time kissed her. Amelia wasted no time and put her small hands on the chimeras chest. Push her away, his brain yelled. Pull her closer, his body screamed. But the Princess was faster. The kiss deepened and she slid her tongue into his mouth. The war between his brain and his body was finally won by his body and the chimera pulled the young woman closer. Innocent hands wandered underneth the cover and unbuttoned his nightshirt. Soft fingers ran over his unhuman skin and made him shiver. And then her mouth was gone.
"A-amelia?" he asked again. She had her hands on his chest and her mouth was still very close to his. But she didn't answer she just smiled at him and caressed his neck with those soft wet lips. Incapable of doing anything but enjoy it Zelgadis let the Princess kiss her way across his neck and over his chest. He felt her lips move over his chest as her tongue traced patterns along the pebbles inbedded in his skin. Zel's cheeks turned a deep shade of red when he realized where Amelia's hands were headed and before he knew it her fingertips brushed over the crotch of his pants. The sudden touch caused him to twitch.
"Tell me me to stop," Amelia suddenly said. Zelgadis swallowed and tried to get those words across his lips. But he didn't want her to stop, he wasn't even sure he would be able to handle himself if she did stop. Again her hand touch him but this time on the inside of his thigh. She moved it higher finally allowing to rest just underneth his groin.
"Do you want me to stop?" she asked and looked into his eyes. "Tell me that you don't want me."
"I…" Zel tried. "I want…" he tried again. This has to be a dream, the chimera thought. But if it's a dream then it doesn't matter if I let her do this, does it? he asked himself.
"Tell me you don't want me," Amelia said again and softly caressed the crotch of his pants.
"I don't want you… to stop," Zelgadis moaned and closed his eyes. The small Princess kissed him again and let the touch of her hand get more intense. Nobody had ever touched him like this before. Hell he'd never thought anyone ever would. But Amelia didn't seem to mind the roughness of his stoneskin at all. Again her mouth moved across his chest softly nibbling, kissing, blowing warm puffs of air. Afraid that he wouldn't be able to controle himself Zelgadis pulled Amelia's face up to his for another taste of her sweet lips. Still with his face close to hers he gently turned her over on her back.
"Are you sure about this?" he asked hoarse from desire. Amelia meet his eyes, smiled and caressed his face.
"I've never been so sure about anything Zel," she answered softly and for the first time she not only dropped the -san but also used his nickname. Encouraged by her actions and answer the chimera brushed his lips over the Princess' neck while his fingers unbuttoned her nightshirt. Her soft pale skin appeared when he pushed it apart. Carefully Zel brushed over her neck with his lips. Amelia's skin turned red where his rough skin touched.
"I'm hurting you," the chimera sighed and backed away from her. The young woman shook her head and pulled him close again.
"I'm not made out of glass, I promise you won't break me just by touching me." She took his hand in hers and placed it over her collar-bone. "Touch me Zel," she whispered to him and moved his hand over her skin. When she let go of his hand he found himself holding it over her left breast. Everytime Amelia drew a breath the soft skin was pressed into his hand. The chimera swallowed and leaned forward. As carefull as he could he brushed over the center of her breast with his lips. The soft moan that escaped from the Princess lips made him braver. He repeated the movement again but this time he flicker out his tongue causing the young woman to moan again. Blank of any thoughts except those about Amelia Zel moved his lips across her soft skin. His hands wandered lower gently touching her stomach, hip and then her thigh. A movement from the Princes made the chimera look up at her. She had slipped off her shirt and again leaned back, letting him do as he pleased. His right hand moved from her thigh to the waistline of the pants.
"Take them off," Amelia softly ordered him. Zelgadis found he couldn't do anything but obey the young woman. Slowly he pulled down the pink pants. And there she was. Lying naked underneth him with her eyes almost closed. He could barely breathe at the sight of her fair skin and almost fell off the bed when she trailed a finger over his chest, stomach and finally allowed it to rest on his hip. The Princess sat up and made contact between their lips while her hands slowly worked on his pants. Unable to do anything Zel moved so that the young woman could slip his pants off and toss them aside. Her hands were on the move again. Soft, tickling and so inciting it made the chimera shiver. When he was about to shatter from the teasing touch of skin to skin she finally allowed her hand to touch the place that by now was screaming for attention. Gentle fingers drove all his thoughts out of his head and caused him to bite down on his own lip.
Sweating and panting for air the chimera woke up. It was a dream, just a dream, he tried to calm himself.
"Zelgadis-san?" Amelias voice almost sent him crashing to the floor. "Are you okay?" Zel nervously licked his lips and swallowed.
"I just had a dream…" came his trembling answer.
"A bad dream?" the Princess asked in the darkness. The chimera pulled himself together.
"No just a dream," he answered with the same indifferent voice he always used towards her.
"Oh." What was happening to him? How could he have such dreams about Amelia? She was so innocent, so young, so beautiful… Zel pushed aside his questions and thoughts. He couldn't allow himself to go there, but his mind ignored his efforts and kept on showing him images of the Princess' milky-white skin.
"Go back to sleep Amelia," he growled and sank back against the bed.
"No." Her answer shocked him. Never before had Amelia talked back to him like that.
"No?" the chimera ask in confusion.
"No!" she said again. "Stop treating me like I'm nothing!" Zelgadis twiched at the harsh tone in the Princess voice. There was nothing he could say to her, she was after all right. He did treat her like she was nothing but he just didn't know what else to do. Still trying to find something to say to her Zelgadis heard Amelia getting out off bed and moving around.
"Amelia?" he asked into the dark but got no reply. "Amelia what are you doing?" he tried again.
"Packing," she answered flatly. Zel frowned in disbelief.
"It's in the middle of the night, why are you packing?"
"I'm leaving," Amelia snorted in his direction. "You obviously don't want me here so why should I stay?" The chimera moaned inside. Actually he did want her there with him but dared he tell her that?
"Fine!" Tell me I didn't just say that, he growled inside his head. What the fuck is wrong with you? he scolded himself. Again the Princess snorted at him. He could hear her walking towards the door. In a few seconds she would be gone if he didn't do something.
"Amelia wait," he said out loud and got up from his bed. "Please, you can't leave like this."
"Can't?" she asked with an amused tone in her voice. "I'm an adult Zelgadis-san I can do whatever I want to!"
"But…"
"Besides you rather not have me here, right? What were you expecting? That I would just hang around you forever so you have someone to ignore?! Never in my life have I met someone so cruel and heartless like you!" Amelia screamed at the chimera and then she was gone.
Zelgadis sat up and tried to see through the total blackness. Another dream? But he woke up from the first one so how could this be another dream?
"Amelia?" he asked not really expecting an answer.
"Mmm…" Zel sighed with relief at the Princess' answer. She wasn't awake but she was there. What was happening to him? And what was the meaning of these weird dreams? He laid down again and sighed. A voice in his head told him that the dreams were trying to show him something. But what? From what he had seen in the first dream Amelia didn't care about what he looked like. But that couldn't be true cause no one could love somebody like him. The second dream seemed to warn him about the way he treated the Princess. Zel sighed again. He was unfair towards her, he knew that. But if he dropped his guard his feelings would run wild and then he'd… The chimera shook his head. Stop it! he growled inside his head. Not even for a moment could he allow himself to think about Amelia in that way! She was not for him. Slowly he drifted back to sleep and the dreams kept on haunting him all through the night.
Chapter2