An alternative fanfic created by Phlie.
Disclaimers: I don’t own Inu Yasha, but Kagome does.
Today’s grovel list is brought to you by Iron Chef. If you haven’t watched that show, shame on you!
Starring: The true grovelers….Reigufu, Sesshoumaru's wife, kayo, FranceGamble, niasdreams, and
animeangel
Special thanks to niasdreams for the suggestion in the chapter 11 review. Don’t be mistaken, though.
I already had this written before you reviewed last chapter. Wait for it, wait for it. Can’t spoil it for ya!
Thanks Nia-chan!
WARNING!!!! This chapter contains explicit sexual details, and even though I know most of you have
been waiting for this, I urge you not to read this if you are under 17.
Chapter 15 – Innocence Lost, Knowledge Gained
She couldn’t believe what she was seeing. Right before her eyes Inu Yasha was changing. His cute little
doggy ears were slowly disappearing, almost as if they were moving down the sides of his face and liquidly
forming perfect ‘human’ ears. His hair now dangled slightly in front of his face, and that’s when she noticed
that his beautiful silver hair had black streaks in it, and was rapidly turning darker with each passing minute.
‘He starting to look like…oh, no’, her mind screamed out. ‘I can’t believe I didn’t realize this before!
Everything makes sense now.’ She continued to watch him transform, not saying anything. Her mind was
too jumbled with this new information. It wasn’t until the transformation was complete and Inu Yasha raised
his now clawless hand up to push his long, silky black hair from his eyes that she really realized the full impact
of what had just occurred. She looked into his now violet eyes and saw the last rays of the sunset reflected in
them. And then it was almost completely dark and he had missed what he so desperately wanted to see.
Inu Yasha looked at her again briefly before the sun went down. He had expected to see many expressions
play across her face, but the only one he had the chance to see was anger. He sighed outwardly. He had
knownthat this would probably have been the case, but he had hoped that it wouldn’t end like this. He just sat
there with his head hung low, waiting for her to slap him, or worse, leave. When a few minutes passed and
he realized that she was also being still, he looked back up at her.
Kagome had been furious when she fully comprehended the meaning of the transformation. ‘How dare he
trick me like that’, she thought. ‘He toyed with me and had me all confused!’ But something in the back of
head kept telling her that she had really known all along, known that Inu Yasha and her mysterious man had
been one in the same. ‘I guess I did, I even remember thinking that they had switched roles.’ She looked at
Inu Yasha closely. He had bent his head down and seemed to be waiting for her to do something, anything.
That’s when it dawned on her. Even though she was upset with him, she had to admit that this now solved
all her problems with thinking that she was settling for less than what she truly wanted. He was, and always
had been, her ideal man. Excitement coursed thru her, but she had to make sure. He lifted his head and just
looked at her.
“Inu Yasha, remember that I told you I had made a choice? Well, I met these guys and one lusted after me
while the other loved me. I was so confused at first because I didn’t know which one I really wanted.”
She paused to look at him. He looked very confused. This was going to be hard.
“The reason why I was confused is because I really wanted both. I want lust with love. I want the one man
who can give me both.” She looked at him again. He still didn’t seem to understand what she was trying to
say. She had to show him.
She crawled towards him on all fours. He could feel the heat coming off her body in waves as she got closer
to him. Reaching her destination, she put her hands on his chest, pushing herself up until her mouth was almost
brushing against his. She glided her lips across his and then quickly moved away before he could try to stop her.
Tilting her head so that her cheek touched his, she parted her lips and slowly started licking Inu Yasha’s ear lobe.
His heart was racing. He had never felt any sensation like this before. She was doing this to him, and he didn’t
want her to stop. His brain barely functioning, he almost didn’t hear her whispering in his ear.
“Do you want me, Inu Yasha?”
All she got for a reply was a moan, almost a growl that started out low and then got louder as she backed away
from him and looked at his face. He opened his eyes and she got the answer she wanted before even asking.
There was still a tint of passion in his eyes, but beyond that was caring, patience, and love. But she wanted to
hear him say it. Somehow she felt she deserved that much.
“Inu Yasha, do you love me?”
He just sat there for a moment and smiled sadly. “Kagome, I have and always will love you.”
Inu Yasha knew that she had never heard those words from him before, even though she wouldn’t have
remembered them, even if she hadn’t lost her memory. That thought bothered him, and he stopped her as she
was about to rush back into his arms.
“Kagome, what about your memory? What if you never get it back? What if you get it back but things have
changed? I know how our relationship was, but I don’t want you to think that I’m manipulating you into a new relationship with me.” He thought about all that had changed since her accident. She had changed in more ways
than one. “Plus, what about your new powers?”
Kagome sat there for a moment, her head turned away from him, thinking about what he had just said. She was a
bit downfallen since he had effectively ruined the mood, but she knew that his concern was valid. Looking back
towards him resolutely she replied, “I believe that my feelings for you are so strong that they would have had to
come from my ‘other personality’. There’s no way I can imagine feeling this strongly about it if I hadn’t always
loved you. And as for my powers, I am still in the same body, still basically the same person. I think I would
have developed these skills in time. Just so happens the new me is great at kicking butt!”
He had to laugh at that. It was true enough. Part of him wanted to continue where they left off, the other part
just wanted to be close to her. She made up his mind for him. Turning away from him she collapsed onto her
back and pulled her hands back behind her neck, cradling her head. She was staring up at the stars that had
come out and were now shining their light upon the two. He silently joined her, barely touching his elbow to hers.
They were both just happy to finally be together, and they didn’t need words to express that.
For the longest time they just looked up at the stars, both of them sighing from time to time. He hadn’t heard her
or felt her move for awhile and he turned to ask her if she was alright, and realized she had fallen asleep.
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She woke up in the few hours before dawn, not knowing at first where she was. Her head was turned upright
and as her eyes became accustomed to the dark night she saw the stars shining down on her. She felt safe. She
turned her head to look at the sleeping form of a human Inu Yasha. He looked so peaceful. 'Well, he looks more
than peaceful', she thought to herself. 'He looks tempting. Those beautiful lips. He looks like he needs to be
kissed. That's how I would want to wake up.'
She couldn't help it. She scooted closer to him and laid her head on his shoulder. At her movement, he turned
his head slightly, bringing those lips even closer to hers. She reached up and slightly brushed her lips against his.
His lips were warm and inviting. She ventured one more kiss and was about to back away when his violet eyes
opened. She gasped. His eyes betrayed the fact that he had been awake the whole time. Yet, she could also see
love and passion mixed in with themischief.
He just looked at her for a moment, wondering if she had just meant to tease him or if she was ready to give into
him completely. He was delighted to see the blush on her face as well as the determination it took to keep looking
at him. She wanted both. He was willing to oblige. Slowly, he turned fully towards her and lifted one shoulder
up so that he was leaning over her. He brought his head down, as if to kiss her. Her lips parted slightly, awaiting
his kiss. At the last possible moment, he veered off and put his nose down close to her temple, sniffing in her
warm, wonderful scent. He rubbed his cheek against hers and made his way down her face and onto her neck,
caressing her skin with his, but never stopping to actually kiss her. When he got down to her collarbone, he
looked up at her.
She looked as if she was asleep. Kagome had her eyes shut and had a peaceful look on her face. He had
expected her to look annoyed or even curious. He leaned in closer to her, peering at her. That’s when she
attacked. She put both her hands on his shoulders and pushed as hard as she could. They rolled a few times
before stopping, with Kagome on top. She looked down at him sweetly before extending her tongue out and
brushing it across Inu Yasha’s lips. He sighed and parted his lips to let her in. Her tongue delved into his
warm mouth, finding his tongue. He was surprised by this, but utterly thrilled! His hands reached up and
encircled Kagome as their passionate kiss deepened.
She was straddling Inu Yasha and coyly repositioned herself to be directly above his waist. She knew that
she would have total control over him as long as she stayed in that position. She wiggled around just a bit to
reaffirm that fact. He groaned at the feeling of her pressing up against his manhood. His mind was blank; all
he could think about was the goal of making her his, forever. Leaning down again, she started to remove his
fire rat coat and shirt,her fingers splayed out on his muscular chest. She loved the feel of his skin. She grazed
her fingernails over his nipples and felt his body jolt beneath hers.
Inu Yasha pushed himself up, Kagome still straddling him, and caught her lips in a searing kiss. Neither of them
knew exactly what to do. They were both new at this and had no past experience to draw from. All Inu Yasha
could do was let his body take over. He moved his hands up to the collar of her shirt, unbuttoning the lavender
blouse. As soon as her shirt was open he got a whiff of her scent, stronger now from the lack of clothing. Her
natural smell was making his head spin. Imagine what it would be like to smell her naked body when he was in
hanyou form again!
Kagome moved her hands up to his shoulders. She could feel his silky hair against the tip of her fingers and ached to run her fingers thru it. She slowly intertwined her fingers into his hair. Inu Yasha broke off their kiss, but began lightly kissing Kagome’s cheeks and then down her neck once again. This time, however, he didn’t stop at her collar, but kept getting lower and lower. She tilted her head back and moaned with pleasure as he reached her bra.
“There’s a clasp in the front, Inu Yasha”, she whispered to him. Her voice was raw with passion, making her
usually sweet voice sound deeper and more sensual.
He found the clasp and released her perfectly formed breasts from the garment. For a moment he just held her tight, marveling at the feel of their bare chests pressed together, their hearts both racing. He looked down at her chest and smiled as he rubbed his knuckles along the sides of her breasts, then proceeded to return the favor by grazing his fingernails over her nipples. Kagome groaned and her nipples immediately hardened. Inu Yasha was quite pleased with his work, but he needed more. He pushed the blouse and bra off her shoulders and they fell behind her, then he pushed her back gently until she was on the ground. Now he was practically lying on top of her, her knees in the air with him in between her legs.
He moved back slightly, dragging his body across hers until his head was almost level with the top of her rib cage. He put his head, face down, between her breasts and for a moment he just let everything sink in. He couldn’t believe that she was finally going to be his. He turned his head and reached over to grab her left nipple with his mouth, gently pulling it in. He let his tongue roll over her hard peak and was about to release it when he heard her cry out his name in sheer delight. He felt his blood start to heat and instead of letting go, he started sucking on her hard nipple, nibbling on it now and again. He switched back and forth between the two breasts, giving both equal time.
Kagome couldn’t think. She had never even imagined that something so simple could feel so good. They didn’t
even have all their clothes off yet! Inu Yasha had been caressing her sides, but she began to notice that he had
tightened his grip and had left his hands at her waist. He was biting softly on her nipples and gently tugging at
them, and now he was moving his lower body up and down against her. She could feel how hard he had gotten
and wondered if he even realized it. He had just moved his mouth away from one breast and was seeking out the
other when she managed to gather her thoughts and speak again.
“Don’t you think it would work better with our clothes off?” He looked confused for a moment and she giggled
at him. She stopped, though when she saw that he was beginning to remove his pants and undergarment. She
couldn’t move. It was like she was under a spell. She had never seen anything so masculine, yet so beautiful.
His body was perfectly fit. Not too muscular, but lean and sleek. She gasped and then realized that he was
tugging at her skirt.
Inu Yasha began growling, not knowing how to get the infernal thing off of her. He wasn’t familiar with zippers.
She reached her hands down and undid the skirt, but left the job of removing it for Inu Yasha. He pulled it down
some then realized that he would have to either raise her legs and have her feet on the top of his shoulders, to
remove the rest of her clothing, or move from his position on top of her. Not willing to loose that precious
place, he did the former. Both skirt and panties came off rapidly. He had jerked them off in his hurry to continue making love to her body.
Kagome took the hint and moved her legs back to their former position. Inu Yasha looked at Kagome. His eyes
caressing every single inch of her body. She was like a masterpiece. And she was all his. He dipped down again and placed wet kisses all over her stomach as his hands stroked her thighs. He was careful not to touch his
manhood to her; knowing that would be the end of his control. He went further down with his kisses and then
looked up briefly for her reaction before he went any further. She seemed to have sensed his trepidation and
stopped moaning long enough to painfully whisper yes to him.
He bent his head down and slowly licked her between her legs. She was so hot and wet, he couldn’t believe he
had been the one to do this to her. He licked again. They both groaned now, Kagome thinking about how good it felt and Inu Yasha thinking about how good she tasted. She was driving him insane with her taste and smell. His tongue dove into her and she arched her back, lifting her thighs off the ground. The feel of his rough tongue inside her was almost too much for her. He lapped at her, delighting in her softness. He could feel her tensing up, but didn’t want her to climax just yet. He guided her hips back down and then ran his hands up her body and around to the back of her head. He moved upwards and claimed her mouth once more, letting his tongue glide over lips. She opened for him instantly and her tongue joined his. She could taste herself on him and somehow that was oddly pleasing to her.
He raised his head once more, silently waiting her approval. The sun was almost about to rise and in that pre-dawn light he could see her acceptance in her eyes. He thought the easiest way to break her barrier was to just thrust into her, getting it over with quickly. And that’s just what he did. She had gotten so wet from the foreplay that he easily slid right into her. He waited a moment before he continued, making sure she had adjusted to him. She was so tight and hot, he almost couldn’t stand it. Kagome nodded her head slightly and he began to move his body back and forth, gliding in and then almost out of her. At first it was a gentle rhythm, and she was keeping up with him, but that was before the sunrise.
As soon as the first ray of the new day hit Inu Yasha, he was transformed back into his hanyou form and with it
came the animal lusts of a demon. He was still fairly gentle with her, but his thrusts became harder and faster.
Kagome couldn’t keep up and finally just let his passion roll over her in waves. He was growling and panting as
he came closer and closer to his climax. He had grabbed both her wrists and had pulled her hands behind her
head. She looked so beautiful like that, her whole body glistening in the sun, sweat pooling at her neckline and
right above her navel.
This was so much different from the sensual feelings she had gotten from Inu Yasha’s human side. This was
down right primal, but she loved it just the same. Once again she was getting what she wanted. Lust and love.
That was the last clear thought she had before they both climaxed together. Inu Yasha spilled his seed inside her
with a sharp howl. He tilted his head back down and bit her neck, right below her hair line. That now marked her as his and the last piece of the puzzle fell into place. Everything she had ever known came back to her, flooding her with memories. Kagome simply gasped.
Inu Yasha collapsed on top of her and tried to catch his breath. Kagome had been silent since her climax and when he finally could breath again he rolled off of her and gathered her into his arms. She had a calmness about her, not one that worried him, but one that he wondered about.
“Kagome, my love, are you okay? I had to bite you to mark you. You did want to be my mate, didn’t you?”
Kagome turned to look at him. Because he had been her first love and only love and he had not deceived her
about the nature of their relationship, she knew that what he had just done was exactly what she wanted.
She just smiled at him and brushed his silver hair away from his eyes. She curled up next to him and watched
as the new day came to life. This was the beginning of their future together.
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Okay, this is the end of Lust or Love. I hope that I didn’t disappoint anyone. I am probably gonna write a
sequel, but it may be awhile. Keep your eyes peeled for it, or better yet, just put me on Author Alert….lol
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