Still Life

I want so much to go under
the water. Every midnight I visit
this silent pond I've found.
The dark forms of trees
lace and lock across the moon,

a glimmer of whose shine still
escapes to slither into my pool.
There's something in there--when
I'm brave or fool enough to look,
strange faces float up.
They're warped and deformed,
souls breaking out of hell
in this secret place, or else
reflections of my true self.

I know I don't belong in the world.
How I want to go under,
to become another creature.

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