TITLE: When Charlie Met Mulder AUTHOR: Leslie Sholly SPOILER WARNING: Season Eight RATING: PG-13 CLASSIFICATION: VR KEYWORDS: MSR, RST, babyfic, Charlie Scully POV DISTRIBUTION: If you want it, I'd love to share! Please let me know, if possible. SUMMARY: Charlie Scully forms his own opinion of the father of his sister's child. AUTHOR'S NOTES: I wrote this before "Existence" so I guess it's slightly AU at this point. I did, however, pick the right name for the baby! More notes at the end. FEEDBACK: Cherished and saved at PennySyc@aol.com (Leslie). ******************************** When Charlie Met Mulder by Leslie Sholly ******************************** I've heard a lot about Fox Mulder. Got quite an earful from brother Billy on the subject--more than once, in fact. Thing is, I *know* Billy. (Billy-Bully we used to call him--still fits, in my opinion.) And I've learned over the years to take anything he says with a grain--or two--of salt. Mulder's an arrogant s.o.b., he's told me. Well, I'd have to admit Bill's an authority on the subject. Pot, meet kettle. He's a lunatic, too, Bill's told me many times. Believes in monsters, ghosts, aliens. Well. I'm a pretty practical, down-to-earth (no pun intended) guy myself. But I know my sister. She's a scientist at heart, and *she* believes in a lot of this stuff. Plus the evidence of Mulder's disappearance--not to mention his death and resurrection--seems pretty convincing to everyone at this point except my thickheaded brother. Bill is also enraged that Mulder has "gotten our sister into trouble." I swear to God those were his words. I half-expected him to show up at the hospital today with his shotgun to try to force Mulder to make an honest woman of Dana. Now, as a former seminarian I can proudly--or sheepishly, depending on the company--claim virginity (technically, at least) on my wedding night. But has Bill forgotten the girl he almost had to marry in college? Turned out to be a false alarm, but he was scared enough at the time to confide in me about it. Something tells me Bill wasn't paying close enough attention to last week's Gospel reading about attending to the plank in your own eye before you worry about the mote in your brother's. So that's Bill's opinion of Mulder, and the rest of the family hasn't given me much to go on. "He cares about Dana very much," is all my mother has said on the subject. It's admirable of her, I'm sure, to refuse to get involved in discussing Dana's affairs behind her back, but not much fun. As for Missy, she once told me that Mulder was a troubled soul. "His light is shrouded in darkness," was her New-Age way of putting it. It didn't sound good to me, but then I never could understand Missy. Dana herself has never told me anything of substance about the father of her child. Hell, she never even told me he *was* the father of her child. She left that to Mom. Not that we couldn't all have figured it out. Her long-standing devotion, her fierce defense of him to Bill, and her devastation at his abduction and death made it abundantly clear she's crazy about the guy. Anyway, I've been waiting a long time to meet Fox Mulder so that I could form my own opinion. I like people. I like studying them, figuring them out. I even took a short detour into psychology after studying for the priesthood and before bowing to the inevitable--hell, it's in my blood--and joining the Navy. And I couldn't have picked a more interesting time to study the guy. Dana gave birth just a few hours ago, and the clan has gathered at the hospital to welcome its newest member. Actually, to be accurate, Mom and I have been here for an hour, and Bill just arrived. He dropped Tara and Matthew at Mom's, where I also left Kristin and the kids. We have six of them, and although they can't wait to see their cousin, that would be just a little overwhelming for Dana and the baby, I think. He's a beautiful baby--Dana's blue eyes (so far, at least), Mulder's dark hair, pudgy baby cheeks. Almost ten pounds, quite a feat for my petite sister to deliver, and she's justifiably proud of doing it naturally and without problems, especially after her difficult pregnancy. I know better than to expect a brand-new mom to look beautiful but she does look very happy, and Mulder's been staring at her all morning with something like reverence on his face, as though she were the most wonderful thing he's ever seen. I'm ashamed to admit it, but although I've run into Bill here and there over the last few years, I've never met his son. I've enjoyed seeing the pictures of my nephew, I've sent him gifts, but I've never felt a particular connection with him. I used to watch my brother and sisters with my kids, whom they clearly worshiped, and wondered what that relationship was like. I figured they loved my kids like their own because they didn't *have* any of their own. So I wasn't prepared for the rush of affection I felt at the first sight of my infant nephew. I swear tears came into my eyes when I first held him, and it was all I could do to give him back to my greedy mother. But then, unlike most men, I love newborn babies. Even when they have names like William Jude. Not that the William part surprised me much. It's no secret that Dana was crazy about Dad. But Jude's--well, sissy may not be a P.C. term these days, but it's the first thing that came to mind. The grimace Mulder made when Dana told me the baby's middle name endeared him to me immediately. Dana herself looked sheepish. "The patron saint of hopeless causes," she explained. Oh. Well. I'd say sissy or no it couldn't be more appropriate for a miracle kid whose father was raised from the dead a few months ago. Pretty funny to me, though, to see how orthodox my brother and sister are becoming in their old age. Bill, the sower of many wild oats who didn't go to Mass one time in four years of college, is now a lector and a card-carrying KOC member. Dana, the scientist who once told me transubstantiation was impossible, called and asked me to offer our family's nightly rosary for Mulder's safe return, and said she'd been saying rosaries herself. Makes me wonder if Missy would have taken the veil by now if she were still with us. All in all, it's very satisfying for me, the one constantly faithful Catholic of the bunch, six kids and all that. Mulder's religion seems to be on "don't ask, don't tell" status, and I wonder how he feels about raising a Catholic kid. With Jude for a middle name, being Catholic will probably be his only hope to avoid teasing, and it probably won't help much. I don't know exactly what I was expecting when I first saw Mulder--something extraordinary, I guess, after hearing such strange tales abut him for so many years. But he looked like any ordinary guy in jeans and a T-shirt--good-looking, I suppose, although he needed a shave, had circles under his eyes, and smelled a little ripe. I could forgive him that, though, since he's been coaching my sister through labor all night, and I know what hard work that is. He was cordial to me, if tentative, probably afraid I'd turn out to be another Bill. I figured two Scully brothers in the room was probably one too many for Mulder. So after having held my nephew, exchanged a few pleasantries with his father, and greeted Bill, I decided to clear out for a bit while he saw Dana and the baby. I went down to the cafeteria and was actually impressed by their coffee. Coming back, I passed the family waiting room and was surprised to see Mulder sitting in one of the ugly green chairs, head in hands, looking like anything but a joyful new parent. I went in and sat beside him. "Hey, Mulder, what's wrong? I mean, I know Jude's a weird-ass name, but you'll get used to it." He gave me a halfhearted smile and I added quickly, "Seriously, is Bill giving you a hard time? Let me know, O.K.? I may be skinny but I can still whip his ass." His grin at that was genuine. "You'll have to stand in line." Then he sighed and the grin faded. "It's not Bill. He's being decent, for him." "Care to talk about it, then? Did Dana tell you I was in seminary for a while? I can still play Father Confessor with the best of them." He smiled again and said, "Sure, why the hell not, Charlie. Can I call you Charlie?" Now to be honest, I kind of cringe when I hear myself called Charlie. It's my family nickname. I've been Charles for years, even to Kristin. I started to say the usual, "Charles, please," but then I hesitated. Mulder's the father of my nephew. I'm not going to pull out my shotgun but I hope he's going to be my brother-in-law. Soon. So I said, "Please do." "Your sister and this baby . . ." "Yeah?" "They are everything to me. Watching him be born--miracle is the only word for it. I don't know why I'm such a lucky bastard, but I know I don't want to let them down." "What do you mean?" "I'll be honest, Charlie. I know the stereotype--every man wants a son, right? But I was hoping for a daughter." "That's normal, Mulder. Lots of people have a preference. Don't feel bad. I had the opposite experience. I was a little disappointed when Meghan--that's our oldest--wasn't a boy. It lasted maybe a day, if that. Just as soon as you spend some time with little Jude--" Mulder made an exaggerated gagging noise. "Please. *Will*." "O.K., then. Once you spend some time with little Will, you'll know him as a person, you won't be able to imagine your life without him, you won't be able to wish he was anything than just what he is." "I feel that way already." Now I was getting confused. "I think I'm missing something here, Mulder. Care to fill me in?" He hesitated, as though struggling to put his thoughts into words. "I never planned to be a father--never gave it much thought, really. But a little girl--I think I could do a good job of raising a little girl. I don't know if I can be a good father to a son. I--my dad--wasn't much of a role model. I've got this miracle baby here, this incredible gift, a brand-new little person. I'm not sure I know how to raise a son, and I don't want to mess it up." The guy looked absolutely miserable. While I was thinking how to answer him, he continued. "I'm a psychologist, you know. I'm well aware that despite the best of intentions, people all too often repeat the mistakes of the past, parenting the way they were parented. I don't want to do this wrong, and I don't your sister to be disappointed in me." O.K. My opinion of Fox Mulder was coalescing. Not a lunatic, not a deadbeat, not an s.o.b., and definitely not arrogant. I liked this guy. I wanted to help him, and luckily I thought I could. "Mulder, I remember feeling exactly the way you're talking about when my first son was born." "Really?" Mulder looked astonished. No wonder. Dana has probably painted quite the glowing portrait of old Ahab, as she called him. "Yep. Perfect, new little boy--mine, somehow, to raise properly or ruin forever. I really did feel like that. And I had the same doubts you do. I knew I didn't want to be the same kind of parent my dad was. Don't get me wrong, Mulder. I don't mean to imply that he was a monster. Not at all. But there were things about the way he raised us that I didn't care for, things I didn't want to do with my own kids." "So what did you do?" Mulder was looking at me hopefully, as though I held the secrets of the universe. As a father of six--and a pretty good one, I like to think--I do have opinions on fatherhood, but I didn't want to sound like a jerk. "I'm not perfect, Mulder. I've messed up plenty of times. And will again, I'm sure. No matter how hard a parent tries, I think there are always going to be times when you hear the words your father said to you coming out of your own mouth." Mulder winced visibly. "God, I hope not," he said, and I wished for a moment that I knew more about his upbringing. "Do you mind my asking what kinds of things your father did that you decided not to do with your own kids?" Doesn't every kid have a laundry list of these? I decided to start with the one that was most important to me. "Well, my dad didn't beat us or anything like that, but he did believe in physical discipline. I don't. His results were certainly good in the short-term--we were very well-behaved and respectful--but we were afraid of being spanked, and I don't want my kids being afraid of me. Since I did want well-behaved kids, though, I read a few books to get other ideas for discipline. I'll be glad to lend them to you, if you're interested." "Please." "I'm sure Dana's told you that Dad was gone a lot. As I've been--it's the nature of the job. But when I've had a choice, I've sought out assignments that keep me close to home as much as possible, as well as ones that help keep my family in one place for more than a year at a time. Those moves every year are hard on kids. I've paid a price for those decisions as far as career advancement goes, but it's important to me." "Considering that I'm out of a job myself, this kid may see more of me than he wants to," Mulder commented. "Not possible," I assured him. "Time is one of the most important gifts a parent can give a kid. Jeez, I feel like some kind of pop psychologist, Mulder. Am I boring you yet?" "Not at all. Although Scully's probably wondering if I've chickened out and flown the coop, so to speak. Maybe we could talk about this some more later, if you wouldn't mind." "Any time." "Any final words of wisdom?" Mulder asked as we stood to leave the waiting room. "Yeah. Corny as it may sound, love is the key to good parenting. Really. My dad may not always have approved of our choices. He may have made some poor decisions as a parent. But we always knew that he loved us. He said it often and showed it, too, and we never doubted it." "Thanks for the advice, Charlie." Mulder said as we reached the hospital room. He bent over Dana to kiss her and then picked up the baby, who had been lying by her side. When I was in the room earlier, I had grinned to myself at the tentative way Mulder held the baby, as though he might break. Many men are like that with their firstborns, but after going through this so many times, I know how sturdy babies are. Now Mulder seemed more sure of himself. I watched him as he held his son close to his chest, then bent to kiss him and to whisper something in his tiny ear. As Mulder settled into the chair next to the bed, I could see Dana's eyes were drooping shut. "Come on, Bill," I said quietly. "Three's company. Let's take Mom home, and you can introduce me to my nephew." THE END AUTHOR'S NOTES: Thanks to the I Want to Believe list for issuing the challenge that provoked me to write this, my first story since my baby was born. This story is dedicated to my precious nephew, Zachary, and to my own little Sweet William. :-) Thanks for reading and please let me know what you thought at PennySyc@aol.com (Leslie).