I know I have way too many songs on here for one page, but I really don't have time to mess with it right now. I'm doing good to even get them typed. They are listed oldest to newest, kinda...yeah... Just click below on the one you would like to read and it magically scrolls there for you! Or click your heels to head back home...Ruby Slippers
pass me by; christened arms lingering by my side
resting on a feeling of passion gone awry the evening that you died
Your spirit's keeping me alive, yet holding me down to a minimal life of wishin you were here, the burn of another tear
So fly - and let me be So fly - let the sun set on this place, on this aura that's beholding me to you please fly
caught somewhere between all the angels and the earth trying to take me with you but you know I can't leave, it's just not my time it's so hard to say goodbye to you, since your soul won't even let you go, so you must let it; it's not about me
So fly - let me be So fly - let the sun set on this place, on this aura that's beholding me to you that's beholding me to you - please fly
you stood there with no friends you felt like your whole world was coming to an end, and you think it was your fault and you can't think of anyone that you'd like to call;
well don't you worry, cause a hand's always there to lift you out of hardship, pain and despair
A hand's always there to pull you out when you're in trouble or when you're in doubt so ride the tide - ride it on into the shore
a mediocre life, has followed you around admist pain and strife and when there was hope inside you you thought it'd live forever but then it died
well don't you worry, cause a hand's always there to lift you out of hardship, pain, and despair
A hand's always there to pull you out when you're in trouble or when you're in doubt so ride the tide - ride it on into the shore
and when you can't tell where you've been just wait and listen
Because a hand's always there to pull you out when you're in trouble or when you're in doubt so ride...ride...the tide - ride it on into the shore ride it on into the shore
i'm gonna pray for yesterday, hope God turns back the hands of fate
cause seconds glue your memory steadfast into the darkness, fleeting
each detail i cherish, slowly fades away
as the morning sun's rays seal the clouds away
And the trail you left behind wasn't strong enough to follow
guess you wanted it that way, guess it had to be that way
seeking Circumstance, make her proud to call my name
show me signs that point the way
treading through the parted sea
had a boat, but that sea was taken away, far from me
treading through the parted sea
a compass in my pocket, but for it, i have no need
cause my path's planned out for me
involuntary
navigation by the stars held captive in your eyes
didn't bother Common Sense to ask his opinion
maybe he'd fed me the truth with his silver spoon
placed the mud upon my eyes, restored vision in my mind
capturing my ghost so that i may have a soul
my shadow only burdening my way
treading through the parted sea
had a boat, but that sea was taken away, far from me
treading through the parted sea
a compass in my pocket, but for it, i have no need
cause my path's planned out for me
involuntary
winding my eyes down the ivy that grew along the balcony made out of wood seeing my breasts through the white night gown that clung to my body as the sun fell down
she tiptoed to the corner in emerald green tights hair to her shoulders, pulled back in a tie reciting our favorite Shakespearean lines as Mr. Stroupe pulled into the drive
Whatever happened to those days? We wrote and we filmed and we found out the ways that only girls know how portraying our lives through the innocense shroud
mixing the cola and tabasco sauce not taking Truth cause if so, it's a loss holding our noses as the film ran down our throats burning madly, but we never did frown
I remember the night I laid eyes on the star that fell from the heavens, across the moon's arm we laid on the dew-dampened deck until dusk and thought up of wishes for our crushes
Whatever happened to those days? we sang and we played and found out the ways that only girls know how portraying our lives through the innocense shroud
Alone on the highway of life I'm stuck without a map or a sign in which to guide My feet are tired, and my eyes are falling from the stars in the sky
I thought I was searching for the right thing But my eyes weren't looking up cause my head was in the clouds My thinking wasn't reasoning but just feelings that I trusted
And all I need is a little hope a little gas to fill my heart's tank So that I can get off this sidewalk and begin to run the race And even though my thumb is tired and I've relied on other's plans I know now that I must give in and search my own life's will
No one offered me a lift I had to catch my every move on someone else's drift Do you know how much fun that is holding on to someone else's back, never knowin where you're goin next?
Well, all I need is a little hope a little gas to fill my heart's tank So that I can get off this sidewalk and begin to run the race And even though my thumb is tired and I've relied on other's plans I know now that I must give in and search my own life's will
So you need to say what's on your mind
Daddy had a talk with you last night
It seems as if he thinks he's gonna go away
You're scared, you're hurt and "Overnight,
I can't become a man"
you say that life has never been kind
and far too much as weighed upon your mind
Don't breakdown, keep your cool
You can make it son, you're no fool
Take my hand, and I'll be there
Cause in my eyes, You're already a man
Finding hope in the sovreign skies
Telling friends when it hurts too much to cry
You want to believe there will always be life
But You're scared, you're hurt and "Overnight,
I can't become a man" You say
that life has never been kind
and far too much has weighed upon your mind
Don't breakdown, keep your cool
You can make it son, you're no fool
Take my hand, and I'll be there
Cause in my eyes, You're already a man
Cause in my eyes, You're already a man
Over my head and through the woods his love floated by, riding the sky I should have paid more attention or at least smacked him with a one-penny fine
Everything's in jest with his chest never knew what was coming back at me Didn't take too long to figure out though when he sounded dull and asleep
Petrified for his love wanting to have it all inside Can't see the forest for my knees down too low for anyone to see Can't hold on to nothing without a desperate heart but grasping at something I can never have is better than not grasping at all
He said don't miss me too much I said I'll miss you just enough Guess it didn't matter that he thought my southern accent was the icing on the cake
Petrified for his love wanting to have it all inside Can't see the forest for my knees down too low for anyone to see Can't hold on to nothing without a desperate heart but grasping at something I can never have is better than not grasping at all
You're the wind I rely on without realizing it the petal that fills my senses with sweetness the wrinkles that make the smile on my face the love I’ve found in something blind and intangible
The friend I’ve found in you The fire to warm me through
You’re the glasses that let me see the rainbow the mystery of the human touch the fondness that I find in the wake of an ocean wave the proxy of all my emotions
The friend I’ve found in you The fire to warm me through
Living out your past, to find the storms again
Maybe you'll learn this time before you try to fall
Did it occur to you, what you were doin?
Forever cursed
Doomed to life, to me, and to the lie
Did you ever wanna kick back and just breathe?
And you cannot hide
This time, drop your pride
Cause After all these years,
And After all these tears,
And After all this pain,
You want to decide if you'll be a friend
Well try to find the frown
That let you appreciate the smile
That you once had when you had me
For the longest time
I hope you learn this time that you have to
break down all the barriers before you hit the ground
Cause no one can tell you
It's one of those things you have to learn for yourself
And once you come
You'll carry the weight of it all
So After all these years,
And After all these tears,
And After all this pain,
You want to decide if you'll be a friend
Well try to find the frown
That let you appreciate the smile
That you once had when you had me
For the longest time
And do you believe that love
Could ever surround you again?
Maybe you'll wanna try
and make amends this time
It's clear, roll down the windows eat hair as we find a rubberband
Lay tracks on the cul de sac singin Dire Straits with the sun to our backs
Let's go stand out under open sky, the clouds absorb the city lights
As a mist begins to dance around, I turn your way to say
My smile is for you
Don't make me choose between Bob Dylan and
You set me free
With you babe it's just so easy
My mind unwinds with ease,
This is where i wanna be
I'm high as the moon, and babe,
My smile is for you
You always say what i least expect, Shifting the gears inside my head
You make me wanna believe, That i can be anything i wanna be
Let's go run nude thru the neighborhood, make em talk for a little while
And as we streak at Walnut Creek, I turn your way to say
My smile is for you
Don't make me choose between Bob Dylan and
You set me free
With you babe it's just so easy
My mind unwinds with ease,
This is where i wanna be
I'm high as the moon, and babe,
My smile is for you
Each day's made better by the fact that you are near
Even the rain seems happy, it's melody i hear
So come with me - let me ride upon your shoulders so that
I can see - is that our man on stage??
Let's get him to sign a body part
It might seem cool, but not so smart
And as we plow right thru the line
I take your hand in mine...
My smile is for you
Don't make me choose between Bob Dylan and
You set me free
With you babe it's just so easy
My mind unwinds with ease,
This is where i wanna be
I'm high as the moon, and babe,
My smile is for you
I'm too impatient to wait for an experience
too cold under water to feel bubbles surround me
Honored breathing that never was granted
on mother's machine and held up by strands
And although it kept me from gettin into trouble
I lived a lie, even though I sorta enjoyed it
want to be the old me again, but I can't go back
The birth of this being is stronger, its grip's its attack
So for Fortune, a fool have I been
Of Fate a puppet, a masked hooligan
from restraint & rules a martyr's target
and the poison on the dart, I digested
Wanting to be alone, on my own, since I was ten
stuck in a time warp that holds my face
it's younger than my mind, my mouth
holding the child I'll have in my sixteenth dream
so other's maturity begins to dampen mine
that old feeling of worth slips right away
I grasp in the chilly darkness of my mind
but it's gone until the next day
So for Fortune, a fool have I been
Of Fate a puppet, a masked hooligan
from restraint & rules a martyr's target
and the poison on the dart, I digested
Stared at the Sun for an hour today Trying to become blind in my own way Thought it'd help release the pain, but I was just left dazed To see the truth with my broken heart
So I use my mind's eye to deliver me, from something that's worse than holding on when time does not allow - when time does not allow
True feelings never change but hearts in an instant can start to beat backwards or the opposite way So fortune may find me a beggar on her streets, but I believe I'll be okay when the Soldiers come to play
So use your mind's eye to deliver you, from something that's worse than holding on when time does not allow - when time does not allow
So use your mind'e eye to deliver you From something that's worse than holding on
Holding back the past you wanted me to find, along the broken path But you never dared, never even dared to care
Never wanted something tangible, something beautiful, never saw that in me or you Never really wanted to
So do you ever make the day, when you're shining in your armor?
and you cry out to me, "Let me stay." And do you ever make the day, when you're shining in your armor? and you cry out to me, "Let me stay....oh let me stay."
I always tried to be the one you needed Closed eyes, closed mouth. Soft heart, right now But you couldn't see that I was doing it for me So you'll stand, strong & proud to impress the people that didn't really give a damn Overlooking the one who made you a man
So will you ever make the day when you're shining in your armor? and cry out to me, "Let me stay." And will you ever make the day when you're shining in your armor... ...and you'll cry out to me, "Let me stay...oh let me stay."
She's there for you during your trials She gets up, fixes breakfast and all the while You're rushing out the door at the speed of light Never taking the time to thank her for the strife
So one day when you come home I hope to God that she's not gone cause love was never recognized enough And if you thought life was hard, it's gonna be more rough
Do you kiss the moonlight as it gently falls upon her cheek? and do you catch the rays of sun as they illuminate her face? And do you take the time to make a wish under a falling star? She's all you got, your love - your life So give her all your heart
Take a little time to make a little love Give her the attention and affection she deserves Cause love is not a free-for-all and it's not all take and no give
So you better kiss the moonlight as it gently falls upon her cheek and catch the rays of sun as they illuminate her face Do you take the time to make a wish under a falling star? She's all you got, your love - your life So give her all your heart
I relinquish my decency for the art of efficiency
like the common man who cannot comprehend
Why the world reaps deterioration and
where love can no longer heal the soul
You try to hide away in my bed, pull the sheets over your head
and watch me through the visor of our lies
Where one may think that love still abides
But it's Gone, gone,
faded into the evening with my
Song,
wishing for that certain feeling that's
Gone, gone, gone...
Forget about the times we shared when we were so very happy
Memories that become sour never ripen again
And we can smile and hold each other's hands
But we'll never get back to where we were
Cause it's Gone, gone,
faded into the evening with my
Song,
wishing for that certain feeling that's
Gone, gone, gone...
And it cannot come back no matter how hard we try
Forgivin and forgettin are 2 different games...
...2 different plains.
Now it's Gone, gone,
faded into the evening with my
Song,
wishing for that certain feeling that's
Gone, gone, gone...
yeah, it's gone, gone, gone....
I can't promise I'll be nice if you come through the door
I can't carry you over the threshold anymore
It's too cold outside and too hot inside
But you can't straddle that fence anymore
So put on your jacket and walk away
Or hang up the memories and stay
Put on your boots and trample through the snow
Or sit with me by the fireplace and let it all go
Fall used to be my favorite season
But it holds too many ironies now
That period that exists between two extremes
Engulfs me as I try to find my way somehow
What was like turned into love
But never turned back to like
They carry each other like we used to carry one another
But honestly, hasn't winter come?
So put on your jacket and walk away
Don't hang up those memories and stay
Put on your boots and trample through our show
Cause this fire's spread and I can't let it go
Little Miss Religion, you tried to save them all
fighting all you loved to help them see the light above your wall.
No one gave you the time of day and didn't want to see your magic
It's not your fault the way you are: strong, stubborn, loving and smart
Broken-hearted by one too many people in your life
Always giving, never getting - did it work out alright?
Little Miss Religion, do you find yourself knocking on the door leading into a place you weren't wanted anyway?
Kill 'em with kindness is what you always told me,
but being too kind only gets you so far
I guess we've learned that the hardway
Broken-hearted by one too many people in your life
Always giving, never getting - did it work out alright?
There aren't voices in your head for no reason
There aren't forces in the world just to change the seasons
Saying that they don't exist is like saying that your mind plays tricks
You control it all - you've gotta make the call
What you find and what you make is all you own
What you leave and what you take is all you own
What you want and what you get is all you own
What you need and what you have is all you own
What you are is on your own
What goes in one ear comes out the other
Unless you put the blinds down, pull the shutters
Life is all you want to make it
You see a chance, you gotta take it>
Can't rely on no one but yourself
What you find and what you make is all you own
What you leave and what you take is all you own
What you want and what you get is all you own
What you need and what you have is all you own
What you are is on your own
Trying to collapse what's around you
To build a fortress higher than the last
All that time and all that pain all that heartache's just in vain
Save it for the knowledge you can gain
Just from standing in the rain
What you find and what you make is all you own
What you leave and what you take is all you own
What you want and what you get is all you own
What you need and what you have is all you own
What you are is on your own
wanted to leave a bottle of cognac on your grave,
except with yellow roses, they’re your favorite
i know we both said that nevermore was just a poem
but it looks like life had something different in store.
i made a bed of brown and golden leaves beside the stone
and made a chalking of your grave to hang at home
to hang above the mantel, to hang inside my heart
to keep your spirit with me cause i just can’t let it part
make believe, pretend that it’s me
soaring with you in the infinite structure of time
no one ever got my side of the story,
i couldn’t help that i was slowly slipping away
i heard your love notes crying out to me
i heard your tears resound through the trees
i know you weren’t sick in mind or spirit too
just heartbroken at the fact of me & you
your whole life was nothing but sorrow
but just wait, cause you might see me tomorrow
make believe, pretend that it’s me
soaring with you in the infinite structure of time
Someday when I’m drowning in choices
I’ll stop and consider you
Will you throw me the lifeline
Or bid me bon voyage
Is the heart of the timing there
The sun is lifting her head on the horizon
The mist is disappearing as my mind clouds
Do I follow you or step aside and let you pass
Is your heart with my timing here
I can’t answer that for you
I can’t dock the ship or
Lift the anchor from the sea
All I can do is follow the map
That guides me through
These feelings I wade through
I guess it’s fun to play around
But you might want to settle down
Can I become the girl that you claim
Once to have known
Is the heart of our timing here
I can’t answer that for you
I can’t dock the ship or
Lift the anchor from the sea
All I can do is follow the map
That guides me through
These feelings I wade through
I kneel before her temples and count the rays
Of light that pour through her eyes
As she prays inside so no one can hear her doubt
Crying tears of blood that flow just below her lips
Until they fall at the feet of the sun
Marble grooves carry the sacrifice on down
To where her knees are, seeping back inside
The body of a child born to Capricorn
As the tips of her fairest hair dance with the tears
They know that the outside's not the only part that's changed
A purple robe she wears at dusk
Crawling on the floor to reach for
Someone who's not there
Calling out so loud that surely her just twenty years ago can hear
Why doesn't she come home?
Leave the milk it's time for bed she says
Pull it back so in your dreams, you don't choke
Left her jar of sugar open, hoping the wind would wisp it away
Added flavor to a life that didn't need anything
Could I have been so sweet? She asks the mirror on the wall
It answers back in clearest form, why don't you ask the hall?
Calling out so loud that surely her just twenty years ago can hear
Why doesn't she come home?
Cry myself to sleep, in dreams I do not weep
Approaching a closer deep, tears into my pillow seep.
Wake up to the black, on my covers attached
Reminding me of little rest, as I see my face - it's all a mess.
Quickly, lay back down; Forget what's all around
Oh, the times I've tried. Understand what I get from a moment of emptiness It's just a place without regret.
There's no waking up for me, It's a pact inside of me to be
All alone for a while. Letting go of the sound that keeps my heart tightly bound into a ball of broken strings.
With the cool side up, I struggle with my love
Please look me in the eye, even if you're gonna lie.
Frizzy hair in knots, I give it one good toss.
God, how my head spins; I think I'll just lie down again
There's no waking up for me, It's a pact inside of me to be
All alone for a while. Letting go of the sound that keeps my heart tightly bound into a ball of broken strings.
I need sabbatical pants to take me out of here
to make me leave an island of fear
I need a walking stick to kick myself each time
I make myself bleed lonely tears
The countless times on my rug that held your kitten's fur
and all the memories on my bed that held our only worth
I need a lie a comfort for my pain
I need a star to guide me through the rain
to connect to my heart I need a star
I want the lesser life that knows no parody
oh what would I give for that gift
You want the best from me, but who am I to place the blame
you know it, it shouldn't be about that anyway
The countless times on my rug swept clean every night
and all the memories on my bed, alone & cold I'd fight
I need a lie a comfort for my pain
I need a star to guide me through the rain
to connect to my heart I need a star
Shoot the moon, rope the moon, use the moon
like you need to
Shoot the moon, rope the moon, use the moon
to remember who's living under it too...
I need a lie a comfort for my pain
I need a star to guide me through the rain
to connect to my heart I need a star
Not a day goes by without me wondering
why i left you there
standing by your old white car
trembling with fear
Something in my stomach was aching like the plague
but I couldn't shake what my heart was telling me
too old to care about young things
too young to realize the importance of my dreams
following so close in a shadow i knew well
and very well it covers me and turns me unsurreal
take me back to that place
where we'd lie on the trampoline and
talk about the stars
that rendered all their light to warm us cold there in the dark
a light so dim but nevertheless there
I miss the touch of your hair
Playing guitar on the stairs
Loving you like no one else had ever cared...
Feeling you against me was always the best
we'd play until our fingers hurt
then test the air's warmness
I never in a million years imagined life like this
but it's here and fixed and so far gone
from high school dreams and wishes
following so close in a shadow i knew well
and very well it covers me and turns me unsurreal
too gone to care about past things
too past into the present brings
the hopeless, helpless future that I see
take me back to that place
where we'd lie on the trampoline and
talk about the stars
that rendered all their light to warm us cold there in the dark
a light so dim but nevertheless there
I miss the touch of your hair
Playing guitar on the stairs
Loving you like no one else had ever cared...
She stares at her canvas
Questions her creativity
Fixes the glasses resting on her nose
Floating away on india ink
Takes her back to school days
& trips to the video store
But she can't travel that road anymore
It's too painful to ride by those flowers
So she's off to face what people say is life on the edge
In a world where your name is the only thing sacred
She can't believe it's happening to her this time around
Realization's too much to hold if you're playing for keeps
Must she feel all alone even though her brother's there
to Protect the enemies who violate
Feelings evoked from a bottle of rum
Takes her back to days at home
Rides were free and meals were cheap
But there's no more fuel to fan the fire
To keep her from questioning why she's here
And she's off to face what people say is life on the edge
In a world where your name is the only thing sacred
She can't believe it's happening to her this time around
Realization's too much too hold if you're playing for keeps
you wish you could sing with the beautiful angels
that you aren't even sure are still there
you want to conform to the changes that everyone
else has made, makes you feel all alone
try as you may to convince yourself you're ok
while listeners in passing throw blank stares your way
you make believe that the world revolves around you
in order to escape the manifestation of fear
that lingers inside your soul, day after day,
and haunts you by night through the shadow of dreams
fight as you may to retain your own sanity
while people you've clung to just laugh in your face
maybe they cannot understand
and maybe they cannot comprehend
what it is that makes you you
what it takes to get to you
sorrow and frailty have finally taken over
what used to be known as the pretty girl's soul
the one who was envyed or hated by most
cause closed-minded people can never stay hushed
and the law of chaos i'd argue has appeared
and reared its ugly head and its curse like a spear
through the heart of the innocent, the soul of the weary
patroling the freedom lost within the city
limits on your life have caused you to wither away
and retreat from the person that you used to be
maybe they cannot understand
and maybe they cannot comprehend
what it is that makes you you
what it takes to get to you
Farther than the shadow of a tree in noon day
sun
warms me with her loving arms that hold me in the light
that gently ease my mind
Coming to the present forgetting all that's
true Learning how to respond to the plan set forth ahead
how must I be aware
that what you are is something beautiful
how could I even pass by the opportunity
to learn and grow in you
to live inside the loveliness of you
Maybe I never took the chance to hold your
eyes My glances cast painful reminders of the past
somehow we didn't know the rest
To this day
I never wanted to believe
in someone who knows me better than I know myself
makes me want to just breathe in your breath
cause what you are is something beautiful
how could I even pass by the opportunity
to learn and grow in you
to live inside the loveliness of you
Someday I will make amends and
Fly but until then, our lives must jointly die
But what you are is something beautiful
how could I even pass by the opportunity
Cause what you are is something beautiful
why would I even pass by the opportunity
to learn and grow in you
to live inside the loveliness of you
I don’t wanna be that girl
That follows you around everywhere you go
See my eyes are weak
And I never know quite what I see
But I know you now
like I did not know you then
And it kind of scares me
so don’t try to change my mind
and don’t think of me cause I won’t be there
cause what I need
is something more that you’ve been giving
do I really need to beg
and what you need
is patience cause I’m tired of giving
do I really need to beg
I can’t help but wonder How you
Could change so much without changing at all
but in my heart I know That I cannot let you go
But you must tell me Cause I want to be there
But what I need
Is something more than you’ve been giving
Do I really need to beg and what you need
is patience cause I’m tired of giving
do I really need to beg
stop it now look at what you doing
cause you don’t mean to do what youre doing
cause what I need
is something more that you’ve been giving
do I really need to beg
and what you need
is patience cause I’m tired of giving
do I really need to beg
You search for something in the dark Wish that something wasn't my heart
Cause now that you've found me I can't turn away
But I need some light to show me your way.
Everything is simple to you Cause in the end it doesn't matter what you do But I'm right there to sweep away what remains Except for my lingering pain.
Caught in between a lie I want to leave And a soul that touches me Anyway And I'm not sure I can live this way
So let me be all I am I can't be anymore than that
You try to push but I'll only pull away
And I don't want us to live this way.
Caught in between a lie I want to leave And a soul that touches me Anyway And I'm not sure I can live this way
Call on me Call on me To be me in you...
Caught in between a lie I want to leave And a soul that touches me Anyway And I'm not sure I will live this way
I’m usually the one Who never gets what I need
The one who breaks hearts Always unintentionally
But when I’m with you I’m always content
And I can’t help but be afraid
That my love’s too strong When I’m holding you tight
Do I hold on too long? I can’t help it if I
Want to be in your arms as much as I possibly can be
It’s scary sometimes To be this in love with you
But I can’t help it This time I’m too weak
I know I may act Like a child sometimes
Cause your love’s so big It swallows all of my reasoning
But all I want is to give you my all
Yet I can’t help but be afraid
That my love’s too strong When I’m holding you tight
Do I hold on too long? I can’t help it if I
Want to be in your arms as much as I possibly can be
It’s scary sometimes To be this in love with you
But I can’t help it This time I’m too weak
All I want is to be near you And sometimes I know that I may cling
And you know me so well But you must understand
That I’ve never been this happy before
Is my love too strong? When I’m holding you tight
Do I hold on too long? I can’t help it if I
Want to be in your arms as much as I possibly can be
It’s scary sometimes To be this in love with you
But I can’t help it This time I’m too weak
I pretend not to love you When you stay gone for more than a day
But that’s just because I need you More than I’ve ever needed anybody
I know it sounds pathetic Playin mind games with myself
But it’s the only way around Not having you in my arms
So don’t take it so slow Next time you think about coming home
Don’t lay so low Unless you want me completely gone
My love’s in the air if you’ll just breathe it in
Don’t take it so slow my patience is running thin
Some days I want you And some days I want to die
Cause all the pain that builds and builds
Is worse than if the dam would just fold
I know it sounds pathetic Feelin sorry for myself
Cause I shouldn’t feel this way When you’re not in my arms
So don’t take it so slow Next time you think about coming home
Don’t lay so low Unless you want me completely gone
My love’s in the air if you’ll just breathe it in
Don’t take it so slow my patience is running thin With myself…
Twistin my thoughts around my finger at night
Trying to think of all the things I’ve done right
But they fall too fast to the floor for me to recover them
Then I just wish for more
My anger builds as my confusion grows
My lips can’t speak what my heart already knows
Concern sets in where reason usually kicks in
Then I wait for more
Seeing life with blinders on can only cause pain
Especially when there are greater things to obtain
So don’t I wish that I could laugh
a little more
too many times I walk on the wire
and so many times I wish that I could fly higher
so I could touch the star that all these wishes rest upon
Please stand by my way, open your ears to the importance of this
Silence took the place, held it's embrace on the regression of my heart
Why you left me here, I'll never know but your satisfaction grows
So here I am, a feminine man stripping away my outer shell
Do I take my time? If so, so long and goodbye
Should I take the time to believe in something that I will never see
A force in my midst, a flailing attempt to uncover myself completely
Do I take my time? If so, so long and goodbye
Goodbye, Goodbye, I will sail you home...
Fear never contests, it only concedes to the subconscious reasoning
That my life will never unfold, a story just waiting to be told
Come in though my lights are out hold out your hands and feel around
How do i let you do this to me? For my sanity I must break myself away from you
But I will and I'll still remember you when I should forget
And I will feel you still when I'm all by myself But I will and I'll still remember you when I should forget
And I will feel you still when nothing else is real
Pardon my kindness I was only caring and dumb Why did I let you do this to me? For my sanity I must break myself away from you
But I will and I'll still remember you when I should forget
And I will feel you still when I'm all by myself
But I will and I'll still remember you when I should forget
And I will feel you still when nothing else is real
Why do I let you do whatever you want to?
Why do I let you do whatever you want to?
But I will and I'll still remember you when I should forget
And I will feel you still when I'm all by myself
But I will and I'll still remember you when I should forget
And I will feel you still when nothing else is real
For days I have been lingering
Waiting for the world to open its doors
Many times I’ve stood On balconies without ledges
Hoping no one would see Cause what I’m about to do
Is give up on me and you And fall into the arms
Of a world that doesn’t want me
For years I have been dreaming
Silently for the one who makes me believe
Many times I’ve stood On balconies without ledges
Hoping that you would see Cause what I’m about to do
Is give up on me and you And fall into the arms
Of a world that doesn’t want me
Why should I try to find a place inside myself when I can’t face
This love inside my heart; the whole damn thing just comes apart
And falls into the arms Of a world that doesn’t want...
For now I must be leaving
Staying for a cause that’s dying is dumb
Many times I’ve stood On balconies without ledges
Hoping that I would see Cause what I’m going to do
Is give up on me and you And fall into the arms
Of a world that doesn’t want me
rest beside me so i can feel your dreams dance beside me so i can feel your strength walk beside me so i know you're always there fight beside me so i know you'll always care
please don't leave please believe me why must you always run away? why must it always end this way?
there you are now with tears in your eyes trying to wash out the fears you cannot hide once forgotten but somehow remains hidden deeply in a beautiful pain
please don't leave please believe me why must you always run away? why must it always end this way?
She made hands for you, had plans for you
She never wanted anything but to please you
Spoke your tounge for you, closed her mind for you
and never asked what her next role would be
You insult her now, you insult her now
You insult her now, you insult her now
She's forgiven you, but forgotten you
And you're something in her mind she cannot cling to
Washed her sheets of you, washed her heart too
and everything above her waist is running from you
She insults you now, she insults you now
She engulfs you now, she envokes you now
She makes love as your penance now
Swirls enough to never be let down
Belle de jour but without you now
Belle de jour but without you now
I didn't come here tonight to start with you again
I couldn't care who you've done or where you've been
All I want is for you to finally give it to me straight
Cause I need peace of mind, I need your piece of mind
Cause God knows I've put in my time
All I felt from you was not what I wanted
I thought that you knew this soul was haunted
Tribute to the cause of lingering loss
At least I can say now a lesson was learned
And I have no regrets as far as you're concerned
Forge your name on this last bit of us that remains
Cause we are ending here and now, here and now
No debts left to renounce
All I felt from you was not what I needed
I thought that you knew this soul was haunted
Tribute to the cause of lingering loss
Allowed nothing but misunderstanding when I play
So may I offer one thing to see and what I'll be
Is this pawn on your gameboard Move me where you want
just don't knock me out again out again
Though I believe Though I believe there's something more than
what's in between I know that it's more than it seems than it seems
Move over monster, time for your replacement
You killed my mother and left me her shell
Damn you lucifer for taking away her trust
Making a woman turn into a child
And you hell has been passed to me
She floats and she sings, but not on angel wings
Maybe you've changed now, grown up into a person
Maybe you're soul's now as bright as the sun
But the damage is done and it's been done a long time
Passed down a line that forever bleeds
And you hell is alive in me
I float and I sing, but not on angel wings
My life is bruised and torn by the one who kisses it well
You haunt half that I am with just shadows to cover the scars
And your hell is alive in me
She floats and she sings, but not on angel wings
As I lie here awake by myself And I think of the hands we were dealt
I photographed it deep inside my head I photographed it deep inside my head
I want you to know that Silence can mean
I love you more than I ever did before
There was never a time when my heart Didn't beat without you when I parted
I had you tucked away where I could find you I have you tucked away where I can find you
I want you to know that Silence can bring a heartache bigger than the oceans deep
I just wanna hear you speak my name just wanna hold you to me
I could let you go if you'd let me but you won't and I'm happy
Contrary thought of the day goes by slowly
taking a part in the drama surrounding
Every time speeds up life for the dying
packing to leave behind all of the memories
And you'll not feel their wrath any longer
Pain won't be recognizable
Life as you live it will not exist cause
You'll be the last girl to stand
Glory will come when the angel's wheels
begin to turn thus soaring upward until
The heavens look as far away as hell does
bypassing time that's been thrust overboard
And you'll not feel their wrath any longer
Pain won't be recognizable
Life as you know it will not exist cause
You'll be the last girl to stand
You're shape and form will change from before
You're heart and mind will be hard reborn
You're eyes I pray will sparkle still and
not dull to emotions that you feel
And you'll not feel their wrath any longer
Pain won't be recognizable
Life as you knew it will not exist cause
You'll be the last girl to stand
Holding something small so close to your heart so close that your lips don't move
The silence hurts my ears so bad my heart skips so bad my eyes want to dry
Lonely seconds draw a picture full of pain a thousand words lost within a frame
Holy words never spoken Holy words never mentioned
Holy words would forgive would shed light on these fears would whisper sorry without shame
The further from the source the warmer is the flame
to burn me with your distance again
And little light is there to feel your stinging glare
my soul's almost burnt down and bare
Lonely seconds sing a song without words
their meaning lost within a voiceless verdict
Holy words never spoken Holy words never mentioned
Holy words would forgive would shed light on my fears would whisper sorry without shame
The promises you keep would be better left broken
could change this sinking sand into ground
Holy words never spoken Holy words never mentioned
Holy words would forgive would shed light on my fears would whisper sorry without shame
City lights illuminate low lying clouds
Driving on an empty road, struggling to be found
But I bleed, and I need to turn around
Oh this death creeps slowly with no end in sight
Still I forge on blindly through the foggy night
And I scream, but no one hears the echo
Does my scream exist? Does my scream exist?
I can hear the echo, I can hear the echo run through me
I can hear the echo, I can hear the echo run through me
Does my scream exist? I can hear the echo
Do you ride with the saints of compassion?
Do you drive with the angels of hell?
Can you see beyond these signs that guide you?
Remove your eyes from lines and still be found?
Do you slow down or go?
Do you slow down or go?
See the light up ahead it's a question
Beckoning from you one more reply
Feel its warmth fill your eyes dilation
Pick and change or push forth, which is your crime?
Do you slow down or go?
Do you slow down or go?
The rain pours down and yet the sun still burns
One second left, til the point of no return
There's just a touch of the warmth I used to know running thru me
There's just enough of the rain I used to feel falling on me
That when it's cold outside, a small part of me cries
So listen up if you wanna know the truth about my dealings
Cause it's all shit, and it makes me wanna bleed out my treason
So when it's warm outside, a small part of me dies
And it's not fair to judge just because you're mad
My sin will erase what I could have been
I'll be the first to cast a stone upon my indecision
I'll never try again to hide beneath the cloak of intuition
Cause when I'm safe inside I'm only shielded by my lies
But it's not fair to judge just because you can
My sin will erase what I could have been
"Nevermore" quoth the girl who's morning dew kept her from heaven
Silhouettes on the carpet mark the stains of resurrection
So when I step outside I'll leave behind my ruined wings and Fly
Lips curl around me Teeth pull against thee
and yes, we both can be cold
I'm round You're square We rust In air
and serve the same taste as tounges slide underneath
but yes, I've had enough holes
So I thought I needed to be held as well
but my body was washed clean again
And if I would wish to be soiled and used
I'm afraid once again I would lose
simple eden you claim brought you down to your knees
brought you higher than trees on a starry night
as the sun reappeared all your senses were drained
all your fears left to face on your own
on your own on your own to seek dark in a light where no shadows are born
precious lover you cry am i sensing a lie
am i looking too deep into nothing
why you hide from me so is the silence i show
shall i then spread your lips with my own
on my own on my own to seek dark in a light where no shadows are shown
on my own on my own on my own to see dark in a light where no shadows are born
Am I taking you for granted if I know that I do
You're always there for me like I can't be for you
Too selfish sometimes I think maybe I'm blind
and maybe it's better that way
Do I call you too often with nothing to say
I think all of our honesty gets in the way
Too moody sometimes I think maybe I'm dying
and baby it's better this way
I'm a second guess, major mental mess
I'm oblivious to the obvious
I'm a ball of stress, psycho I confess
I'm oblivious to the obvious
Is it playing hard to get if you've been broken before
Too many walls built around my heart with no doors
So stupid sometimes I go out of my mind
and maybe baby I'm living a lie
I'm a second guess, major mental mess
I'm oblivious to the obvious
I'm a ball of stress, psycho I confess
I'm oblivious to the obvious
Drunk behind the wheel Stuck in second gear
Afraid of going fast How long will this last
Lights are blurring past
I'm a second guess, major mental mess
I'm oblivious to the obvious
I'm a ball of stress, psycho I confess
I'm oblivious to the obvious
Tired of being lonely, tired of being tired
Tired of being everything to everyone all the time
Finally found a reason to leave this place
Then you jump back into my life and set a different pace
It's been a long long time, since you were on my mind
And if I could, I'd take you with me now
Cause I need you to be you
cause I don't know if I can fall that hard again
And I want you to need me
if your love is something I can hold onto
When I thought I needed just to be myself
Letting go was all that I could do to make it through
Maybe it was better to go our seperate ways
But true love never dies, I guess I figured that a little late
It's been a long, long time since I could say you were mine
And if you would, I'd take you with me now
Cause I need you to be you
cause I don't know if I can go that far again
And i want you to need me
if your love is something I can hold onto
It's wrong of you to love me this way
and it's wrong me me to love you this way
I need you...I don't know if I can go that far again...But you know I would
I want you...I don't know if I can go that far again...But you know I would I need you...I don't know if I can go that far If your love is something I can hold onto
Something good is happening but it won't be done til I'm asleep
Maybe when I wake in the morning sun I won't know where I'll be
But I'll have sex hair and smoke in my clothes
Wake you up to say hello Drink water from the sink
Bitch a little cause I know I stink and then
Hold my head with tired hands Avoid the mirror of one night stands cause I don't need reminding of what I've done There are empty bottles on the floor you leaning on the bathroom door Why do I always say I won't do this anymore?
Thoughts run cycles through my brain as I walk blindly to my car
Pieces tend to fall in place but not all cause my headache's coming hard
And I'll have sex hair and smoke in my clothes
Wake you up to say hello Drink water from the sink
Bitch a little cause I know I stink and then
Hold my head with tired hands Avoid the mirror of one night stands cause I don't need reminding of what I've done There are empty bottles on the floor you leaning on the bathroom door Why do I always say I won't do this anymore? Why do I always say I won't do this anymore?
How much do I love thee? Let me count the ways
When fire burns my eyes into a salty flooded grave
When smiles begin to fade more quickly than the setting sun
When sleepy thoughts take rest upon the barrel of a gun
How much do you love me? Let me count the ways
When I love you is an intermission between acts of hate
When seeds that have no life are planted time & time again
Expecting fruit to blossom on an imaginary stem
The water's white, the oil is black Love Potion No. 10
We shake and swirl and dance and twirl but seperate in the end
Blackest black surrounds me as I cringe with every sound
Bodies all around me but I don't want to be found
The light shines on me now
Keeping time with time is the hardest thing to do
I cannot see behind me, oh my god what will you do?
My eyes are blinded now
And I Want And I Want And I Want
Grey is not the answer for this life I wish to lead
Maybe when my blood is spilled, the light will set me free
The time has come to leave
And I Want And I Want
And I want to resurrect the child Feel her warmth and see her smile
Stand within her shadow dark While purity rips my soul apart
Lie above my empty grave Feed the beast on which I crave
Shatter love and shatter life Sacrifice the womb inside Inside
Blackest black surrounds me as I cringe with every sound
Bodies all around me but I don't want to be found
The light shines on me now
