Hi my name is Carolyn Gwyneth and I'm a cross dresser. I started dressing at the tender age of 16 or 17. I was in high school at the time. I don't know why I started doing it I just started doing it one day. And I been doing it ever since except when I Was In the army I didn't do it any more until I came out a month later. When I was working in Manhattan I was on vacation I GOT Caught I was told not to do It any more but I didn't stop but never got caught I made sure i was very careful.

    Today is Saturday 9th 2000 and I'm home alone I have on a black skirt and black pantyhose and black pumps. I never went out as Carolyn only once. I was coming home from the mall I bought a new outfit and i decided to drive home to Brooklyn with it on and nobody even noticed me. When I got back to Brooklyn I stopped at a deserted spot and changed. This was many years ago, I never went out dressed again. But sometimes in the winter I Were pantyhose under my jeans. Ever since I came on this transgender site I have feelings I never had before.

The army years In 1983 when I was 25 years old I decided to join the army, at the time I was working In Manhattan as a messenger. Before I went to basic training I served three months in the reserves, I should have realized then, that I wouldn’t make it though basic training. I served at Fort Totten, NY it was a three-day stay. We didn’t stay over when we were finished for the day, so we left. Was helping a LT putting the filters in gas masks. I had to learn how to do it was part of the training, but I just could learn that’s when I should have backed out but I didn’t, that was my downfall. This was standard before you went for basic training, my job was going to be a fork lift operator. On October 28 1983 I went over to MO for my basic training at fort Leonard wood, they called it lost in the woods because It was so large. We didn't start training for a week we had to be processed first. We were in the heart of the Ozark mountains, my company was delta company. We learned how to march and how to shoot a rifle and we had to know how to take it apart and put it back together again. I wasn't very good at it, but it was a good experience for me I thought that it would make more of a man of me but it didn't. I was pulled out of training but before that I still had to go in the gas chamber after that I was released from the army, but before I was sent home I had to get another hair cut. I arrived home the night before Thanksgiving day November 1983, I didn't return to work for a month or two. I stayed at that job for 12 years, than I got a job as a messenger In a printing house, I stayed there for two years than I got a job with Waldbums supermarkets that was In 1987. Then in 1990, I had a job at the airport for Ogden allied services cleaning aircraft I worked the 12 midnight to 830 In the morning shift. I worked there for a year. I got laid off in 1991. In 1997 I got a job working In Shoprite Supermarkets I worked there for a year before quitting and going back to Waldbums where, I've been for 14 years now. In July I hope to go to England on holiday.

My future plans are to are to design web sites for people and to one day move to England to live.

Also Judith Wright for all of her help, love ya, and a special thanks to my good friend Joney Harper without her my web site wouldn’t look the way it does today thanks.

My dreams are to be Miss America that's not possible but yet any thing is possible. I always had this dream, wish it could come true.

ON SAT JUNE 16-01 I WENT OUT SIDE IN FRONT OF MY DOOR DRESSED AS DEB TANELLA. IT WAS ABOUT 1 OR 2AM IN THE MORNING I HAD ON A BLACK MINI SKIRT ON NUDE PANTY HOSE ON AND BLACK HIGH HEEL SHOES ON. I WAS TAKEING A CHANCE SOME ONE COULD HAVE SAW ME. WHERE I LIVE THERE ARE EYES ALL OVER AND YOU NEVER KNOW WHOS WATCHING YOU. MAYBEE ILL DO IT AGAIN THIS SAT IF I GET THE CHANCE.

On July 1, at two in the morning I went outside in front of my door dressed as Deb. I had on off black panty hose on a black mini skirt and black high heel shoes, a long heel. I walked a around the gate a little than I came in than I went back out and did the same thing again than I Went back in. I came back out a gain this time I went outside of the gate and walked a around a little. Maybe Next week ill walk to the corner.

It’s sat July 8th 2001 its 4am I went out side dressed as Deb. I sat on the stoop awhile and than I went out side the gate. I went back in side for awhile than I went back out. This time I walked to the next house and back, the next time I walked all the way to the corner and back. Walking gracefully like a woman should, I was ment to Be a women. I wish God would change me into a women. I feel more feminine every day that goes by and That’s a good thing.