It's been almost 2 year's that Brian and I have been dating. Threw the last few months we have become a strong couple, people would always tell us that we would make beautiful children. Are chemistry matched so well. I was starting to actually think that I loved him, boy was that a mistake…….. and yet again I'm left with another enormous amount of pain. Trish

"Brian what's going on with you lately?" I asked looking at him, are toes dug into the sand. There was a nice cool breeze flowing through the air with the sent of the cool salty sea water, it just seemed so perfect. The two of us just gazing out into the ocean watching the waves clash into the soft sand, just as we did so many times before. Brian didn't even glance my way, he just continued to stare as if he wasn't even there.

"Brian?"I said softly.

"……..Brian…?"I tapped his shoulder, finally knocking him from his thoughts.

"Yeah,…..oh…..nothing"he said with a knowing gaze.

"C'mon Bri, there's got to be something wrong, I know it" I replied putting my hand under his chin and turning his head so that he would look at me.

"Trish…….I'm sorry, I just….I…I…..think that we should remain friends and see other people" He said, his heart aching inside. He knew he was making one of the biggest mistakes of his life, But he knew it must be done. He was going on tour with the guys again and he couldn't handle being apart from her the last time, having all those horrible thoughts in his head, such as her finding a new guy, better then him. It hurt him to no end but he knew it had to be done sooner or later. I turned my head as a silent tear fell from my eye. I didn't understand why he did this, was it another girl? Did he not love me? ….. but there wasn't anything I could do, he seemed to have his mind made up so the only choice I had was to move on and get past him.

"Trisha, baby, I'm sorry, please don't go…"he begged. As I got up and grabbed my flip flops.

"No Brian, I need to leave, just let me go. Ok?"I said as the tears trickled down my face. Brian got up and rushed toward me.

"Trisha, if you only knew why" he said as a tear escaped his eye.

"I don't need to know Brian, not now anyway, please, just let me go…." I said pulling out of his grasp.
Brian collapsed down onto the sand, his head held in his hands. "What did I do, we could have gotten threw it" he thought as a few more tears fell helplessly off his cheeks.

I slipped on my sandals and walked up to the peer. I sat down on one of the benches and waited for the next bus. The whole ride home, I felt eyes on me, I couldn't hold back the tears that Brian had caused. I kept thinking of what had happened between us, was I blind and didn't see us falling apart, was that it?" When I reached the house I stood on the porch for a little while, I knew that as soon as I walked into the house, Sara would immediately attack me with a bunch of questions. I stood there for a few more minutes wondering if I was up to it or not. I finally decided to go in. To my surprise she wasn't even home.

"She must be out with Nick…" I thought. "Or was she secretly meeting Brian…….. Ok Trish now your just paranoid" I said to myself and ran upstairs to my room. I just laid on my bed for a while and ended up drifting off to sleep.

A couple days has passed, four to be exact, believe me I would know, it seemed like an eternity.

"I better call Brian," I said. "Oh yeah, I forgot.."I moaned waking up from the nap I had just taken.I walked to my door.

"Time to put on the fake smile Trish"I said to myself. As I turned off the light, I noticed the machine blinking.

"You have 4 new messages"It announced.

"Beep, Saturday 5:45 PM"

"Trish, pick up the phone, please, honey I'm sorry, please just talk to me.."Brian cried into the phone.

"Beep, Saturday 6:00 PM"

"Trisha I know you don't want to talk to me, but please I really have something I want to say……please give me the chance…..call me,ok?"

"Beep, Saturday 6:20 PM"

"Ok Trisha I really cant stand this, please I really need to talk with you, I'm sorry baby, I love you, please if you care about me at all you will meet me tonight at the little restraunt we used to go to at 8:00,………..please" Brian said his voice trembling.

I sighed just listening to him go on and on, made my heart start to ache I knew that he knew he made a mistake just by the way he was talking, but things cant go back, I mean he must have thought something was wrong with the relationship, that it wouldn't work.

"Beep, Saturday 6:50 PM"

"Hey Trish, it's me... Bone, call me when ya get home, later sweetie."

I picked up the phone and started dialing. I quickly hung up when I heard the firmilar voice. "Whoa there Trisha, cant even dial a number."I said as I threw the phone back down on the bed and walked out of the room and down the stairs.

"Hey Trish, have a good sleep?" Sara asked, as she flipped threw the chanels on the TV. "Whoa what's wrong with you?"she asked sensing a bad vibe in the air.

"Nothing Sara, I don't want to talk about it" I said grouchily.

"Ok, god you don't have to take it out on me" she shot back.

"Sorry, I'm just not in the mood."

"Yeah, I could tell."

"What time is it?" I asked heading into the living room.

"Uhh….about 8:15, why?"

"Shoot, I have to go…." I said running into the bathroom to throw my hair up into a loose bun. I ran out the door and got into my car. It was about 8:25 by the time I reached the restraunt, I walked in and looked around, Brian was nowhere to be found.

"He must have gone home"I sighed and walked over to the bar. "Since I'm here might aswell get a drink."

"What will it be?"the bartender asked cleaning off the counter top.

"Lemon Ice Tea, please"I smiled weakly, remembering that that was Brian and mines favorite drink and how we'd always come here and gaze out the window sharing the drink together.

Brian walked out of the bathroom scouring over the room. He sighed and walked back to his booth.

"I guess maybe breaking up WAS the best thing to do"he sighed taking a sip of his Lemon ice tea.Brian's eyes watered remembering all the old memories they had shared in this restraunt, their first official date particularly. That's when he realized just what a mistake he made.

The two were walking down the street when a little dog had went to cross, it was just about to the other side as a car came screeching by, hitting the little dog from behind. Trisha ran out into the street and picked up the puppy and carried him to the other side of the road, As Brian came shouting after her, "Trish No, your going to get yourself killed." Trisha finally talked Brian into taking the poor thing to the vet. They waited in the lobby for an hour until the vet came out. Trisha jumped out of her seat and quickly walked over to him.

"So, is he ok?"she asked anxiously.

"Yeah, he's going to be great, he just broke his leg, we're putting a cast on it now, you will be able to take him home today" he informed.

"Whoa there, we aren't taking it home, he's staying here, with you, sorry" Brian exclaimed.

"Buttt Briiiaaann, he doesn't have a home, please, I'll take care of him…"she pleaded her eyes begging for his approval.

"Trish, we have Tyke, and plus then we will have to potty train him."he sighed.

"Yeah but, he's a puppy so they can get a long, don't worry I'll clean up after him."

"Oh…fine……."he moaned.

"Omg thank you Brian!!" she said throwing her arms around his neck and kissing his cheek.

Later that night, Trisha was on the floor rubbing the little dachshunds tummy. The puppy got up and climbed on top of her licking her face. Trisha was smiling and laughing, she was so happy her eyes beaming bright. That was the day Brian realized just how much he loved her, everything about her, her smile, her personality, she was his all, his somebody's,someone.

As Brian sat there remembering that day, he leaned his head down and tears poured from his eyes. "Why," he thought to himself "Just what did I go and do."