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~ Jerry Lucas
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- Love's retreat-By:Celaine
- ?Untitled?-By:Tatiana
- The Cold-By:Jerry Hensley
- Awakening-By:Amethyst Silvermoon
- Baptism By Fire-By:Amethyst Silvermoon
- Dissolution-By:Amethyst Silvermoon
- Porceline-By:Amethyst Silvermoon
- The Embrace-By:Amethyst Silvermoon- NEW
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Alone
All alone in the cold
No one knows how I feel
All alone in the cold
All alone I kneel
With this heart that’s cold as stone
All Alone I knell
I pray to the god who commands the sun
I ask him to shine his warm light down
I pray to the god who commands the sun
To burn me to the ground
I ask lady death to take me fast
To take me ,force me to the ground
I know this pain it will not last
For now death holds me in its grasp
I know this pain it will not last
I see an angel coming fast
Good-bye my friends
My time has passed
-Jerry Lucas
Balrog
He stood there waiting all alone
Ready for battle stiff as stone
The creatures eyes shown bright with fire
Craving to fill it's blood thirsty desire
The hero is fast but the creature is faster
The battle ends in pure disaster
Good does not always triumph over evil
- Lucas
My Elegy
If I should die some time today
I would hope and kind of pray
That no one who loved me would cry
If today I were to die
I would rather have them smile
And joke and laugh and sit a while
Around my open grave
And they would dress their usual way
As they would most every day
But if they were to cry
I myself would have to sigh
Because I know I’m in a better place
Without the pain and all the hate
- Lucas
Lover or Friend
I used to watch you from afar
Even then you stole my heart
But these were things you’d never know
Fore fear kept me from saying so
Now years have passed we meet again
But as lovers or as friends
My foolish heart ... it fears again
She is hurt from a love gone by
Should I fear this phantom guy
I guess it matters not in the end
I’ll always love her lover or friend
-Jerry Lucas
Ode To Death
He follows us throughout our mortal life
An ever luminary shadow
Your very existence is a constant battle
For he holds you in his icy grasp
You can not run for he will follow
You can not hide for he will find you
Death becomes us all
Welcome it with open arms
- Lucas
She could be
Could she be the one
I’ve dreamt of all these years
To let inside my heart
And fill my life with cheer
She could be the one
But how my heart does fear
Fore I have been hurt before
When the feelings weren’t quite clear
She may be the one
And how my hope transcends
If I’m wrong I shall be hurt
But if right it’s worth it in the end
- Lucas
The End
‘Twas about this time of year
the sound of trumpets I began to hear
Then a voice from up above
Cried the end is here gods had enough
He gave you Eden
You ate the forbidden
He gave man Jesus
But you cared not for his son
He gave you knowledge of steel for tools
You made them into weapons ad guns
Prepare now for hell fire to fall
And malignant sores to infest you all
As the rivers and oceans turn to blood
remember the evil things you’ve done
The end is here, Hope you had fun
-Jerry Lucas
Strong
I stare out the window into the pouring rain
Nature too seems to feel my pain
We both get used then tossed aside
But mother is strong and so am I
-Lucas
What's Real
The happiness will fade away
Just like children's laughter
For their innocence will disappear
Then they will die soon after
The happiness will fade away
Like a stallion on the run
As a father runs away
And leaves his unborn son
The happiness will fade away
Though no one can really see
As time wears away the earth’s mountains
we destroy it’s precious trees
The happiness will fade away
And our life’s just one raw deal
For in the end I’d have to say
Pain’s the only thing that’s real
- Lucas
With Tenderness
-To Nina my love
With tenderness I look to you into your soft brown eyes
With tenderness I kiss your lips and breath a loving sigh
Most lovingly I watch you in a peaceful sleep
Most lovingly I hold you close to feel your breath upon my cheek
With heavy heart I must go but only for a while
You ease my heart when I return with your sweet and tender smile
- By Jerry Lucas
3/1/99
Even The Mighty
Faint words whisper in my ear
Memories long since passed I hear
They speak of love
I feign a laugh
I remember truth
But what is that
Emotion swells from deep within
I fight it back but do not win
Contain yourself
My pride does say
No real man would react this way
Then a tear it stings my face
The over flow of my empty space
I tell myself that this is wrong
It’s over now you must be strong
But no feat of strength can hold back pain
A shattered life has no restrains
In truth
Even the strongest men do cry
When hearts and love control our lives
When hearts are broken
When true love dies
Even the Mightiest of men will cry
When true love knows not your name
When life is just a losers game
Even the Mightiest of men will cry
Even the Mighty
Even ... the ... Mighty
-Jerry Lucas
11/26/00
Falls Down
Beauty friendship
My world is found
Love Laughter
My world goes round
Marriage Children
My world goes round
Then silence Fear
My world goes round
Painful words I dare not hear
My world goes round
Loneliness Heart Break
My world slows downs
Lose rejection
My world Slows down
Her love it ends
My world falls down
-Jerry Lucas
11-14--00
Forgive Me
Forgive me if I stare to long
If I love you even if it’s wrong
Forgive me if I care still
If I can not help the way I feel
Forgive me if I still want you
When even now there is someone new
Forgive me if I find it hard
To "just be friends" when we’ve came this far
Forgive me if I still cry
But when you left I died inside
Forgive me if I don’t understand
Why I can’t be your loving man
Forgive me if I go on with life
Hoping you will again be my wife
Forgive me if I love you still
I always have and forever will
~ Jerry Lucas
12/05/00
Gone
I know your gone
I know its over
But my heart tells me to hold on
I keep thinking of our time together
Of all the laughter and tears
Mornings just lying in bed
Evenings holding each other
Yet we let us drift apart
I know we can find that again
And so I hold on daring not to let go
God answered all of my prayers
When he brought you into my life
I can not think that he would bring us together
Only to watch us fall apart
Some day we will be one again
I know your gone
I know it’s over
Yet if I let go I will surely drown in the pain
- Jerry Lucas
12/10/00
Crash
The world crashes upon my head
My soul burns I feel half dead
Life was great or so it seamed
‘Til she revealed the truth to me
Her love was false our life a sham
Now here I lay a broken man
Cares she not for my words
Love a song that’s left for the birds
My hope it dies and slowly fades
I think now only in yesterdays
When happiness was close at hand
And I stood a proud and loving man
Time heals wounds or so they say
But scars are deep and seldom fade
For memories are so easily found
When your heart lies upon the ground
Yet carry on I know I must
Others need and want my trust
And need my oh so loving touch
So I hide my pain and bare no crutch
The world that crashed upon my head
That left my soul and heart for dead
Has crumbled with the pass of time
And now exist only in my mind
And crash again at times it does
When loneliness comes creeping up
And crash again I’m sure it will
And crash and crash and crash
No one said life would be easy
-Jerry Lucas
11-14-00
Breathe
I can not breath
I drown in the pain
But I’m still alive
So I can not complain
I shouldn’t be here
But maybe I should
To fight ever on
To make life seem good
For my suffering
Is mine alone
And no one can bring
Me in from the cold
-Jerry Lucas
11-14-00
Broken Promises
Sacred vows are spoken
Yet so quickly they are broken
Two hearts god joined as one
Painfully become undone
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Is it my fault is it yours
It seems that I am hurt the worst
You mask your pain or do you feel
Do you care of the pain you deal
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You say you love me not that way
Yet in a vow to god did say
Now your word I can not trust
For all there years there was no us
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-Jerry Lucas
11-14-00
Redeemer
~to my Bonnie lass
You appeared the day I needed you most
A face from the past a more than welcomed ghost
Though I know not what force brought me there
Perhaps the answer to an unspoken prayer
But now we find ourselves together again
Oh, how I’ve missed you my long lost friend
Your voice brings balance to my disordered life
When it seems every turn brings on more strife
Your slightly crooked smile makes pain melt away
And hides for moment thoughts of yesterdays
As I watch your fair hair dance in the light
The future becomes ever so bright
So hear me now my new found old friend
My redeemer when life seemed nearly at end
The savior of my nearly lost soul
When my broken heart had all but grown cold
I THANK YOU more than you’ll ever know
I THANK YOUfor saving my life and my soul
-Jerry Lucas
12 / 02 / 00
Thanks for the Memory
I remember basking in full moon light
A forbidden love that felt oh so right
I held you close to fight the cold
We professed our feelings so free and bold
You sang to me with song bird voice
My heart I gave with little choice
The pond reflects your lovely face
How sweetly does that memory taste
~ Jerry Lucas
Drown
I’m drowning in this sea of misery
I call to you my love my light
but you are no longer there
you care not for my cries
And on more than one occasion told me to stop
But how can one stop the tears when the pain is so great
I try to hold it in only to have it rip though my body till I Can contain it no more
I know you think its for sympathy but you are wrong
you think me weak enough without seeing me at my most vulnerable
If I could dam those tears I would hide them forever from you
You say that I will love again someday and that I should not concern myself with you
But I have never and will never feel this way about another person again
To that you would simply say that is my choice and my only reply is that you are wrong
True I may meet someone and I may care for them
But when you have given all of your love away there is no more to give
Dare I ask someone to love me when I can not love them
Was that not the reason you gave me for leaving
If the only way you could be happy is without me
Then why should any one else be the same
If I could feel so much for you only to have you feel nothing
Then how can I trust my heart to anyone else
Maybe it is my choice to drown in this pain
To live my life alone hoping for your return knowing that it will never be
I shall drown in this misery
In this sea of darkness but what other choice do I have
To find love I can not return
To give love only to have it denied
Perhaps drowning may not be that bad
~ Jerry Lucas
01 - 04 - 01
Faery Love
I remember times long since past
Faery kisses Faery laughs
I recall Faery in my land
Forest walking hand in hand
I think of Faery and the night
All we did it felt so right
Touches, Kisses, Holding dear
Faery passion Faery fear
Then came the day that tore my soul
The day my Faery had to go
Ripped from my pleasant dream
Life now so hard it seems
The pass of time it heals the pain
But the thoughts of Faery still remain
Years go by and now I hear
Faery’s voice ring in my ear
Faery girl now Faery queen
But I no pauper or king shall be
‘Till Faery’s love returns to me
~ Jerry Lucas
04/07/01
Anew
I won’t say I can’t live with out you
Because there are others I must live for
I can’t say I’ll never love again
Because one never knows for sure
I can say that I love you
So deep in side my heart
And though you no longer feel the same
There will always be that spark
And if someday you should feel again
The love I feel for you
All it takes is your gentle kiss
To light the flame anew
~ Jerry Lucas
12/18/00
What Will I Tell Her
What will you tell her
When with innocence she cries
What happened to our family
Why did you let it die
What should I tell her
With tears in my eyes
The reasons you left
When even I don’t understand why
How can I tell her
We were not meant to be
When even now
My heart cries for thee
What can I tell you
Now that your gone
As I beg your forgiveness
For things I’ve done wrong
What can I do
My life seems at end
For the day that I lost you
I lost my bestfriend
~ Jerry Lucas
12/21/00
I Need
I don’t need you to tell me when bills are due
I don’t need you to treat me like a child of two
I don’t need you to tell me when I’m late for work
I don’t need you to tell me when I’m driving to fast
I don’t need your pity when I’m hurting inside
I don’t need you to come home from work and cook my food
I don’t need your lies of how I don’t need you
I don’t need you to tell how someday it will be for the better
I don’t need you say that I will love again
I don’t need to hear that you don’t love me enough to be more than friends
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In short I don’t need you for a lot of things
I’ve lived long without you
But I don’t remember how
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All I needed from you was love, understanding and faith
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~ Jerry Lucas
12/11/00
Where Are We Now
I can not say I love you
I know I’m not there yet
I can not ask how you feel
For I fear the answer I may get
I can only say I like you
I think there could be more
I‘m sure I could love you
But as for you I’m not quite sure
So all I have to say
If I can find the words somehow
Is could you please tell me
Where we are right now
~ Jerry Lucas
12/16/00
As You Drive Away
I stand there in the freezing snow
I watch as you drive out of my life
Our child at your side
The cold stings my cheek and burns my eyes
But I pay no heed
It’s the burning of my soul that I feel
The longing for a love that may never be again
Its not the weather but you who seems cold
At one time you were my best friend
Now you act as if I never meant a thing to you
Even now I would do any thing for your love
And you barely speak to me
I offer love and you tell me you want friendship
I offer friendship and you say you don’t know what you want
I know what I want
I want us to be a family
I want you to love me the way you once did
If nothing else I want my best friend back
If I can’t have this
Then I fear what tomorrow might bring
~ Jerry Lucas
12/21/00
Wretched sweet Love
Oh wretched love do not enter my house
If you will not stay forever then steer clear my heart
And spare me the pain of your departure
I have known your sting as the arrow pierced my heart
Only to have it ripped from my chest
How quickly you tear down my defenses
The most welcome of traitors
Your charm both bitter and sweet
Leave me a lying broken mass upon the floor
So speak to me no more
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Return oh sweet love my precious friend
How I miss the warmth you provide my soul
To hold you for one brief moment would hide the scars of days gone by
With your presence you drive away the loneliness
A loneliness that would destroy the strongest of mortal souls
How easy it is to trust you my friend
For you make a moment seem like forever
Please enter my home
Pick me up from the cold hard floor
And nurse me to health till you must leave again
I can not live without you
~ Jerry Lucas
12/12/00
Love's Retreat
Through the flight of a nightingale
Sings the song of a lost love's retreat.
Never to be held, and never to be loosed
is the fate of her wretched soul.
Softly sighing through the trees
is the pain of her aching heart.
Mind burning from hatred
and spirit clenched in fear,
she turns to the One who can save her.
Her last resource of love.
She flies to His arms,
Embraced- she is strengthened for the flight
that ends with the night into the dawning of Glory.
- by Celaine
?Untitled?
I would miss you if you were gone,
I'd think about you all day long,
I'd dream of you as I'd try to sleep,
a thought of you in each tear I'd weep,
you mean more to me then you'll ever know,
and I would think of you whereever I should go,
It just pains me to see you this way,
and I hope that there will come a day,
when you can work things out...
just know that I'm here when you need someone,
and even if you feel you don't,
I'll stay on guard just in case
- by Tatiana
The Cold
Some times I think I feel the cold.
It chips away what once was whole.
From the cup of death, I'm forced to sip.
Each passing day, I seem to slip.
Once I knew from what I was,
But now I live on just because.
Life, it seems to slip away.
All the colours turn to gray.
Sharp, like teeth, begin to drain
Away my soul, away my pain.
My blood they took, and so much more.
Never will I live, like once before.
The days of Caine, we've walked the land.
My kind, in death, are hand in hand.
The beast, sometimes, begins to strain.
From the mortals, I'm forced to drain.
The sweet torture, it never lasts.
I feed their future, I eat their past.
In my frenzy, I rip apart
All the corruption of man's heart.
The shadows now cling to me.
Daylight, never will I see.
---Jerry Hensley
Awakening
crimson kisses
fueled by darkest desires
the first bite...always the most sensual
staining the lips and soul with sanguine passions
bloody kisses, red with lust
achingly beautiful intertwining bodies
biting, clawing at each other's flesh
drawing further into each other, spinning
enveloped by the darkness of this existence
vampires of each other, draining, draining
life is found in this most sacred of acts
awakening...arising
~ Amethyst Silvermoon
Baptism By Fire
I have been awakened--
bathed in oblivion
not quite knowing until now
the raw, unpolished need
coursing through my veins
like fiery lava
splintering passion
head spinning, whirling
like a crystal chandelier
hanging from the depths of my soul
clinging madly to this sensation
giving in, succumbing
catapulting towards desires
unrealized before this moment
swallowed by fear mingled with delicious anticipation
burning, aching, needing
~ Amethyst Silvermoon
Dissolution
dissolving
like sugar in the rain
melting, washing away
the tortured creature
trapped inside my soul
freeing me from the fury
you dissolve me
burn yourself into my soul
intoxicate me with your glance
shatter my reality, my core
consume my existence, save me
with your being
~ Amethyst Silvermoon
Porceline
she lies silent, delicate among the ruin,
this porcelain girl and her broken heart
alabaster skin, hair of cornsilk
eyes that once shone now dull with neglect
the heart that laid inside her
once alive with love and hope
has now dimmed to nothing but embers
slowly fanning out amongst the lucidity
inattention from a pathetic child
has turned the beauty into nothingness
he threw her into the garden of his apathy,
traded her in for another
though she may be newer and more beautiful,
inside, she is plastic and fake
she knows not what real love is
she is nothing like porceline
porceline...she longs for a patient dollmaker
to come and rescue her, to return her
to her magnificence, her beauty, her essence
when he comes, sweet release--the doll lives again.
~ Amethyst Silvermoon
The Embrace
How I long for a vampire's kiss sweet against my lips,
The ecstasy made sweeter still upon my throat.
Sheer madness mixed with pure desire,
Mingling like blood and saliva on my beloved's hungry mouth
He takes me in his embrace, safe and warm
Begins to breathe upon my soft flesh
My neck offered to him like nectar of the gods
The bite! A pain so intense, yet so erotic.
I shiver with maddening desire, passion so strongly felt
Aching for him to drink, drink...I scream,
"My blood is yours forevermore, my love, my beloved..."
Faintly smiling as my heart slows and my life ceases.
I awaken to heightened sensations
Colours so vivid, as in a dream...music so hauntingly beautiful
And my beloved...he is with me in the tomb
We lay tangled in each other's arms, two immortal souls joined forever
~ Amethyst Silvermoon
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