Activities

Hey guys I've decided my "Activities" would kinda be like a daily journal (well basically whenever i feel like typing journal)(if you notic i like using these((()))) alot!!) . but anyways it is just to give you an insite into my life! So LETS BEGIN!!!

December 30, 2001

ok man tonight is the first night in like forever i have acctually FELT like doing any REAL work with my site. but alas instant messanger has has got me caught in its web again! haha! so needless to say hopefully i can do more and more work thought out the remainder of the week. oh oh and did i mention and you good pple know that NEXT SUNDAY.....AN EXACT WEEK FROM TODAY is......MY BIRTHDAY!!!!! yes! soon gonna be 18!!!whoo hoo oh yeah i think i may have already mentioned that but oh well i mentioned it again!anyways tomorrow i'm going to try and work some more....oh yeah check out under the pics the brmhs stuff i've done...it will get better though.

random December 27 entry

man i'm sooo bored! i'm like sitting at home cleaning my room an have been doing so for the past 2 days cause i have nothing else to do, however tomorrow i am excited cause me and amy are going to work on our senior dance at the studio. so i get to go somewhere...anyways i better go to bed cause it is 12:30....but this is just some very random work done cause i was bored. anyway night!

December 27, 2001

WHOO HOO! i'm so glad that this break is here! And christmas was great too! well the only thing i didn't get that i really wanted was a boyfriend but hey santa can't help me with that one ;)! anyway i'm really looking forward to my birthday! 18! yahooo!! clubs here i come! anyway...i'm enjoying the holidays...there have only been 2 christmas parties and both were real fun. i want to go to the mall but there are wayyy to many people! ohoh but i did rearrange my room and still i'm in the mist of doing so...i just don't know where to put everything! anyway i'm going to sign out so i can do so! see ya!

December 13, 2001

Ahhh getting ready for midterms can be sooo hectic....like everything is always dude now! oh and don't even think about trying to save money cause that won't happen. sooo many senior fees and things to pay for! ahh man i'm really going to be cheap this year! oh now i'm in the mist of "English Lit" class finishing up an audition resume so pray for me that i get the scholarship and don't batch up this one! anyways like i'm just sitting around waiting for Elizabeth to finish typing up hers only to hull my butt to guidence to have the councer fill out the little bitty section of this app. anyways so i figured i'd come here and work on this soo i can "look" busy. haha! i'm sooo smart! haha not! anyways i'm like such in a worried frenzy about getting all this crap in and like in a few we have to order grad supplies errr. i'm sooo tired also like i haven't gotten any sleep...ohh but i got a new leotard! it is purple! heheh my first new one in like 3 years it is great i got it yesterday and it does this awesome crossy thing in the back ok like i'm going to go now so i can finish up all this crap!!

December 8, 2001

DUDE LSU KICKED SOME MAJOR BOOTY!!!31-20!!!!LSU WONWONWONWON!!!!!!SUGAR BOWL HERE WE COME!!!!!!

December 8, 2001

mannn i'm sooo tired like last night we had winter formal. it was fun! i didn't have a date but that really didn't matter i wore an old dance outfit and tennis shoes!! yeah it was GREAT! yeah but like i just hung with my stag friends and the people that had dates but like that really didn't matter we all meashed(sp?). yeah but like i didn't get home till like 12:30 so then i like didn't get to bed until almost 2! but like that wasn't that bad but like i had to get up for 6:30 this morning to go to 7:30 mass! yeah then we came down to my grandparents house because my relatives from texas, alabama, and oregon had come down. whenever all of us get together it is alway fun! haha! yeah but like i was trying to sleep and like that just wasn't,,well then! but like yeah anyway so now it is 10pm and like my eyes are burning but i'm pumped cause right now LSU is ahead of Tenn. and i'm excited,, man i really hope we win! i keep running back and forth between here and the tv. so if somethings don't make sense cause i'm tired and i'm not paying too much attention! haha yeah and tomorrow i have to work at this kiddy christmas party at my church, but that will be fun yeah and also like i have a lab to write up and all. so like i guess i'm going to end this...i know it hasn't been much but it is something!

November 22, 2001

I just got back from san anotnio, tx, last night. i had been before 2 years ago with my family but thinkgs are always better with your friends . well rather different not really better cause you can have fun with your family too. but anyway we mainly went to the same places i had been before, but we had done some new stuff too. and it was kool to see all the stuff they were working on when we left. but the bus ride was fun. me and claire took the back seat, you know the one with 3 seats, and like during the day it was known as the "hott seat" anyone sitting in that seat was deamed worthy of our attention!! hehe! yeah but like when we got there we checked into the Durey Hotel(very nice, I recomend it highly!), which is like right on the river and like very much under lock and key. and like we waited about an hour and then went to a church across the street. after church we went to see "snow white and the several dwarfs", which if you live in S.A. that is another thing i hightly recomend...it is playing till the 27 i think...but anyway it was really really funny...and you can like talk to the characters and like it was just a whole lot of fun. Anyways we got up early the next day and headed out to seaworld. it was ok but i had been there before so it like wasn't much different...i got to go on some rides i hadn't got to go on before...also with NO WAIT so that was pretty awesome! but mainly we just saw some of the shows and walked around. we left early and went back to the hotel and we went on a boat ride down the San Antonio river that is always such a nice ride and it is even better at night because every thing is lit up! we got off at the hard rock cafe and that was just awesome! i got a hat and a shot glass(of course, hey they are everywhere and cheap!)...so that is my second hard rock glass(hey if you want to send me a hard rock glass email me!!one from chicago also, yeah baby!). anyway we had fun being spontaious as usual! On monday we took a tour of the alamo, mission San Jose, watched "The Price of Freedom" and we went to the mexican market, i got one of those HUGE colorful blankets which are awesome!(haha it has been so hot i have yet to use it!) also we ate at a mexican resturant...however i'm not really a big mexican food fan! oh well! but yeah, then it got cold! but anyway that night we went to the magic time machine and like we ate at the roman orgy....yes i did say roman orgy...dude they had mirrors on the ceillings!! ok yeah me and like another person brought clothes to change into but it was like wayyy tooo coolllddd(becca don't like cold!) yeah so i didn't wear it but anyway after eating we like all were like dancing and stuff... haha they had to kick us out so they could close up! haha! anyway on tuesday we got up and went to the natural bridge caverns, then had lunch(@ the Gritsmill (sp?)) and visited the historic town of Greene, texas. From Greene, we headed on down to the riverwalk again for a little shopping and then went back to the hotel and hung out. That night we had our senior night and pizza party and i came sooo close to crying as mr. bo read the poem he wrote about me. mannn i feel sooo bad i'm like leaving my little buddies esp. claire...mann i'm really going to miss her in college. Yeah but anyway it was an early morning the next day and we were the first ones out. but like the bus was soooo hott! man not just the fact that me, claire and ryan were in the back seat(very dangerous trio!hahahahah!) haha ok no just joking... but like the entire trip it was sooo hott in the back! geez! yeah but the way back we mainly spent sleeping. anyway that was San Antonio and yes about 2 weeks after starting this i finally finished! haha yeah it was a really fun trip!

November 11, 2001

Wow it has been like a month since i have actually written anything. but it has also been like extreamly crazy around here too. I have had our school play to work on and it was just Crazy, but i already mentioned that. we just got finished with that this week so now i can take it somewhat easy. the costumes were awesome and we all did really good. after thursday's some friends and i were suppose to go out but they left me so i am kinda upset about that. but that is ok cause friday i went out with some better friends and we went out to mcdonalds and had fun. yesterday i went to tiger day, at lsu, and it was fun. me, stephine, and libby spent the day roaming about lsu finding out about the different colleges and our planed majors and stuff. Also i have basically decided that i am going to minior in, mass com. i figure that since it covers such a large variety of job offers and alot simi related to mine that it is pratical. then after tiger day i went to the game afterwards. ryan came with me and he had gotten better seats so we had a better view and actual seat backs. YEAH LSU won!!!! it was their homecomming game and they won! it was awesome! anyway so that was fun. today i have just kinda sat around doing nothing of any real importance. oh next sat i'm going to san antoino so that willhat anyway that is about it for now!

October 11, 2001

this week has kinda been fun. it is THESPIAN WEEK!!!! every day the new members are REQUIRED to dress up. however since i'm an old member i'm not required but it is still fun! so i go with it! oh and i'll have some pics soon! monday was cartoon character day...i was jane from daria. then tuesday was dress like your favorite thespian officer day...i was this girl named wendy who was an officer LAST yeah...hey they didn't say it had to be recently. on Wednesday it was Willy Wonka day...well i didn't know what in the world to do here, but i found a really spiffy outfit while going though the drama room closet and i wore that. HOWEVER today was the BEST...it was rock star day!!!!!!! i had the most kickin' outfit!!!! first i bought a purple mullet wig which is the koolest! then i bought a black shirt at Wal-mart for like $2.50 spray painted it with silver streaks then cut the seams off and then reattached them with safty pins! my mom made me a black pleather skirt and i wore a black pleather jacket i bought a rave! then i also had my shiney black and silver stockings and black high heeled spikes! it was sooo great! oh also i forgot the koolest thing besides the mullet wig! i had some black gloves i cut up and made into some awesome gloves!!!!!i really don't know what i'm going to do tomorrow it is evil villian day and i have no clue what i'm doing....so i'll get to work on that now and tell you about it later!

September 21, 2001

you know reality is a real slap in the face isn't it? here i am complaining about every problem in the world and seriously consumed in my own actions. well today i read matt smith's journal like i do ever so often, and i realized that thoughout the week in trying to cope with the stress of the past tragedy i tried to hide behind my own fears. But i can't put MYSELF in the front. it is not Christ-like. i should not spend my days dwelling on personal problems because all God ask us to be is happy. "What father among you would hand his son a snake when he asks for a fish? Or hand him a scorpion when he ask for an egg?" - Luke 11: 11-12. so therefore if God ask us to be happy who are we to dwell in despair and pain. Yet i know it is hard. I have not stoped praying for the lost souls and the men hard at work doing a job that i wish i could help them with. also i have not stoped praying for the poor me sent off to fight a war that probably never will be won. for the past week and a half my eyes have been glued to the news, more of the begining of last week then this week. but i still find myself curious to what it has to say. I know it is hard but we must pray for our enemies. The power of prayer is wonderful, and we have all seen it's affects in the past weeks. What more can bring a country together? it has been the first time i have seen so many religions get together and all agree. It has been amazing! We all come together we all sing for God to bless us. Bless America! to bless each and every one of us! how powerful is that, we are blessed! However we take so much for granted. we get up go to work, not worring about what the day will bring for us. and we think WE are in control of our lives! until last week every American thought they were safe. the majority of americans thought they didn't have to have so much faith in God, they thought just because they go to chruch they were safe. Just going to chruch does nothing. Just standing "praying" does nothing. You must BELIEVE with you HEART and SOUL both combined or he will not know you. You MUST have a total dependance on God. So i leave you with this:

"Therefore I tell you do not worry about your life and what you will eat, or about your body and what you will wear. For life is more than food and the body more than clothing. Notice the ravens: they do not sow or reap; they have neither storehouse nor barn, yet God feeds them. How much more important are you than birds! Can any of you by worrying add a moment to your life-span? If even the smalles things are beyond your control, why are you anxious about the rest?"...."All the nations of the world seek for these things, and your Father knows that you need them. Instead, seek his kingdom, and these other things will be given you besides"..."For where your treasure is, there also will your heart be." -Luke 12: 22-26 30-31 34.
September 20, 2001

I already wrote one to these type letters but it just hasn't gotten any better. my fear has been coming true and i wish i could do somthing about it. I'm being forgotten. yes i can feel myself vanishing off the face of the earth. well i feel that way. right now i have a total of 8 pple online one of which i wanna talk to but since i haven't heard from him in a while i'm not going to intant message him. what is wrong with me? if someone knows let me know so i can fix it.

September 17, 2001

well i finally went to the doctor about my breathing problem. I am now classified with a "condition". i have Sigh Respiratory Response (oh hoo, dum Dum DUM). but don't worry i'm not going to die or anything well hopefully not anytime soon, that is up to God. it is a condition that is brought about by stress and fatigue, it causes you to want to yawn excessivly and you feel as if you can't get any air in. it really sucks and lately it has flared up and is really annoying. but it is kinda weired and scary knowing you have a "condition" it almost is kind of exciting. i have had this problem ever since 7th grade it seems to flare up in the fall and in the spring and really all thoughout the year. anyway....back to the druling highschool life oh and if any of you had entered my name on crush link please let me know it is driving me crazy! i won't be mean about it or anything but it is causing alot of stress i just wanna know!!!

September 14, 2001

this week has been really hectic. almost spiralling out of control. besides what happened on tuesday I stayed up really last last night (or rather should i say this morning, 3am) to finish up a project. well when i got into class today she postpones the due date(even though it was due today) and it really aggravates me. but i bought some ribbon yesterday, and today made some ribbons for my friends to wear. also i was one of the few on my block to light a candle along with putting up a flag...but they are getting into it. it is amazing to see how the world is comming together. but it is sad that it has taken a national crisis like on tuesday to bring the world back to prayer. however i'm still very saddened by the sick jokes that some people have played calling in bomb threats into new york and around the nation. i wouldn't mind giving up some of my rights after this but could you imagine having to be searched before you go into any public place? and i heard over the radio that to be trained to serve coffee at starbucks requires 3 more hours of training then the average airport search security. that is extreamly sad. also all those flights were way below capacity and really should not have taken off on the first place. anyway i hope this brings the world together. God Bless America.

September 11, 2001

As i sit at my computer i'm in a sureal world. at about 9:30 am our vice principal, stone wall jackson herself, came on and her voice was fill with upmost pain announced today that the twin towers in new york were attacked and demolished. at than moment dead silence was heard thoughout the school. as i'm sitting at my computer i'm am in still utter disbief oh the shocking events that have taking place today that many will know for the rest of thier lives as "the day of terror". as we watched palistians praise god for this horrendus deed, we wondered how could they believe god has done this? years from now OUR CHILDREN will be taking test on this just like we take test on pearl harbor, i feel the pain and shock that americans felt when thy found out we were attacked by pearl harbor. i pray heavily not only for our safty but for the many lives and souls that were lost. also for all those innocents family. Dear Lord please protect us, keep us safe. for all our trust and love is in you. Amen.

September 5, 2001

ok if you couldn't tell by the last one for about the past month i have been pretty much stressed out....life is so agravating. people seem to loose intrest in you and you are left to talk to people who bother the hell out of you. i feel so horrible because i know all God wishes of me is to be happy and i have been unfaithful to that degree. when you have no one to hang out with and what seems almost no true friend to talk to the world seems to shunn itself away from you...if it weren't for graham and vicky....they are the only ones that seem to listen to my complaints lately. everyone else is too busy. thankx you two!

August 18,2001

This past week has been sooo hectic between starting school and trying to get everything accomplished i have become extreamly tired. yet even thought it is 12:10 am I can't seem to pull myself away from this endless cycle of information casully displayed on the web. It is amazing to read and find out about how many people have to same thoughts jumbling around in there heads of so many "individual" people. Only a select few have the real talent to be true individuals. (Oh by the way if you can't tell already i'm taking philosophy) Many find people to latch onto and others seem to be left behind in this endless void we call earth. I try not to be judgemental until i have actally gotten to know them, however others tend to choose to know someone then to throw them out of their lives completly without even the slighest bit of emotion( and i can say this because the people i'm talking about don't even care enough to come to vist my site and read this). It really not the only one so at least i have someone to complain to. but this is probably the last year i will ever see them then they will forget i have even existed which in a way is fine because i will move on and then only see them casually on the street and we probably won't even say hi. but i know who i can trust. but it still agravates and depresses me that your "best" friend can turn against you in such a way. and then when you are in another country and then completly forget you exist, and in what they said would drastically change their life, hasn't affected them in the least. however on the contrary it has affected yours, and they are too blind to see it. anyway this was just me complaining and i figure if they ever find my site and read all this they have finally decieded that they care enough and it will finally soak in... anyway sorry if this is too long i just had to let it out! plus some things might not be spelt right...it is 1 am i don't care!

August 3,2001

Ok within this past week i have had alot of pain inflicted on my body...haha no i just had my wisdom teeth removed. Well it is not the most plesant experiance a person has to go through, and i have yet to be able to eat normal again! my left side of my jaw still hurts and i'm very curious as to why. but i'll live. I have been trying to finish all my journals from jamaica and that was just an awesome experiance. in fact i was interviewed about it for our church's newspaper (i'll have that artical up soon too). but whenever i start typing them out i get imed and i love my friends too much to just blow them off. oh and in my pain from the wisdom teeth extraction i only had one visitor....yes i know i wanted people to visit but only sean came, i was glad to see someone from "the outside". the majority of the people i saw were my family member and even though i love my family i wanted to see "outsiders"..haha...then when i was finally able to get out it was awesome i took friends pictures then went to a friends house to play video games(i never do that) then went to a softball game. it was so awesome!!! but anyway i need sleep...goodnight!

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Hey today i joined the lunitic world of drivers today. Yeah i know i'm a little late in getting my license but it is a very long story. I went and visited one of my best friends and we watched Center Stage which is one of the greatest movies. Then when i was driving home (in traffic may i add) i saw one of my friend's dad and he was giving me a hard time but that is ok, he's kool. Anyway i have been pondering for hours on who my Person of the week would be(well not really but it was really tough). Since i sent out the entry forms to be completed i got a bunch of interesting replys. All at one time or another will be used one week or another so don't feel bad if i didn't pick you this time. I LOVE YOU ALL!!!But Two people really came in close so one will be this week and the other will be next week (because i haven't finished reading the other one yet!).

June 23

Today i went to New Orleans again. In louisiana it is my favorite place to visit. I love the unique atmosphere and everybody is always doing something new susaly something you have never seen before. Like this one dude was painting these AWESOME paintings with spray paint and they were so detailed, it throughly blew my mind! I saw him do a black and white one and it was just amazing, he had colored ones laid out, but i think only for display since they were all taped down. And it is amazing to think that people can sit outside of a church, no matter wether you believe in the religion or not, and give palm readings. It was also such a gorgeous day that everybody was out! We went down to the french market and i bought a pair of sun glasses that at the riverwalk (or any place else!) would have cost me $17, and i bought them for $5! So many different venders all selling almost the same stuff from mardi gras beads to clothes. It is a great atmosphere! Well except for the couple of undercover cops we saw and someone getting aressted. It is a unique place to go and if you have never been GO! Definatly to visit. I personally wouldn't live there but just go...if only for the day visit! and see some southern hospitality!

June 17

This past weekend i've worked at the mall wrapping gifts for father's day to raise money for our jamaica mission. The gift wrapping was free and it was the mall paying our youth group to wrap the gifts. However some people were so kind they gave us money to support the jamaican kids. But other people didn't care how long we had been there, how tired we were, some of the youth's unexperiance but enthusiastic attitudes to help out; and they were very rude. You really get to experiance different types of people doing stuff at the mall. And talking to them makes it even more interesting. it makes me think of some of the journals that matt smith has on his website and his experiances so far in new york, and yesterday as i was wrapping gifts i thought of some of his inpirational journals(if you haven't been there to read them go they are awesome), along with some of apex's newsletters. all of a sudden my work became lighter and i realized once again what and who i was doing the wraping for. and even though i didn't mind the work to begin with, at least now it ment something more to me then just meeting interesting people.

June 12

ok a couple of entries ago i wrote about the unexpected. well it happened again but this time it is more hilarious then the other one. Any way i always go to www.teenmag.com and enter their contest to win stuff and i've won stuff before like a pair of really kool sunglasses and i was suppose to get one of those animated watches but they must have swaped packages with the sunglasses because i got those instead. but any way some of the contest i just kinda enter cause it is something to do online not that a actual expect to win it. Mainly because i think it is going to be so popular that alot of people enter it and i think i won't have a chance. So oneday while i was on it they were giving away replicas of the swim suit they use for the miss america pagent. and not thinking anything inparticular i entered(because i enter almost everything). I only filled it out like 2 other times, which is not alot considering you can enter it once a day every day. So we got home from disney world and my neighbor gave us our mail she had picked up for us. My dad handed me a package and without looking where it was from or anything i just ripped it open and found this red thing that fell out and a letter saying "Congratulations From Teen Magazine". I was still confused. Then it dawned on me "DUH! this must me that swim suit that i entered to win as a joke!" i started laughing histarically. i don't even remember if i had told them the right size i had just picked one. but It semi fits. but that was really unexpected. It is still very funny.

June 8

I just got back from orlando and DISNEY WORLD....it was a very long drive! Not to mention we kinda got lost on the way home, it cost us about an hour, but we got out of paying the fee for the flordia turnpike! Anyway we got to orlando about 1 pm on Sunday and we really really didn't feel like doing anything cause we drove all night. However we did want to do something that night so my dad had picked up a flyer for this place called Medievil times, that really wasn't that far from where we were staying, so we called and RSVPed. It was a really good show and we had a cute waiter aka "slave"(if you read this email me!) and i got a carnation from him because i didn't get one from the knight. but anyway then the next day we went to Epcot and had fun. it was different being there now that i'm older also it is a different experiance with your parents, but i still had fun. anyway tuesday we went to MGM and also had fun there, i rode the rockin rollercoster starring Aerosmith and it was sooooooo awesome!!! I love Aerosmith!!! Also we saw Fantasmic which was also really kool and if you are going to MGM i suggest you wait in line for about 2 hours in order to get good seats because it is a good show. anyway the best part was on wednesday when i got to go to universal studios where when we went to see the alfred hichcock thing i got to recreate one of his scenes where i was suppose to fall off the the staute of liberty. it was great! but anyway i had an excellent trip and will write more about it later!!!!

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I'm finished with my recital and it was ok the second one was better than the first. but i'll write about that on my activities page later. I'm still stressed out about some of my upcoming exams, but at least i'm done with my reports!!! YAY!!! Also we had senior take over day on monday which was AWESOME (well even though i am still sore and tired from it- it was still AWESOME!) but i don't think we will ever go the that perticular waffle house again...it was horrible it took them forever to get our order, then the waitress was very whiney(i don't think that is an accutal word but oh well), and it was just a pain in the butt all together.

May 10

Only like 10 more days left of school and i am majorly excited. I can't wait for monday because it is senior take over day and i'm going all out. my entire goal at BRMHS is to be voted most spirited...it has been that way since i was a freshman. Also i really can't wait for the summer. first i'm going to disney world (YYYYAAAAYYYY!!!!), then in july i'm going on a mission trip to jamaica with my church. we are spending about 10 days to work in a children's summer camp and most of the money we are paying for the trip is to help some of the children to attend the camp (it is only $5 per child, for the entire camp but some can't even afford that). However we are not spending the entire time working we will get to have fun and go to the beach but the majority of the trip is for the mission. anyway these next 2 weeks will be choas with about a hundred reports due (well not really 100 more like 3 but that is only this week who knows what he will have instore for next week), plus like 5 million ?'s (once again not really 5 million). In addition this weekend is my dance recital and that will finally be over with for the year(if anyone wants to go email me and i'll tell you where it is at, it's free). So the only real time i have found to write this is during computer class, i'm done with all my assignments so this is what i decided to do. anyway class is almost over and i still have things to do..............

May 7

Sorry but this entry is just a little delayed.....anyway the unexpected is just the weirdest thing, ya know, you can be sitting at home listening to the radio and BAM! there is some sort of message on the radio just for you (not that it has happended, well at least not to my knowledge). Or you can think you are not qualified to get a grade and you get it anyway. Just the other day at our awards day (which we have to sit though even if we are not getting any type of award what-so-ever) i was sitting thinking "just once would i like to get some award for something i have done, just to be reconized. Not that i need it just to say 'hey this girl does do stuff'(not like people don't know i do alot already)" and so through out the entire ceromony that is what i kept saying to myself. As they were announcing the awards i was curious to what i might, or could have won, if i were sitting on that stage. Well they start announcing the awards that are given to the people who are picked by each of the departments to be the best in that subject...well they came to the performing arts section and i thought "i'm not going to win drama that is probably going to go to a senior like rye, kris, or julie". Then SHAZAM out of nowhere they announce....."Drama- Rebecca Williams". Everything seemed to melt away as i shot up and tryed to make my way through the crowded asiles to go and accept the medal. It was really weird cause i really didn't expect it......so the unexptected is sometimes a good thing except for when it is bad and then it sucks.....i don't think that made any sense but oh well!!!!!!

April 29

Ok i know this is the 1st entry in a while but i'm trying....spring break was fun and i have tryed to update the site some. but most of it was spent dancing. i hate the crunch time before dress rehersal and it is just not one recital we are praticing for, i have 2 coming up within a week. well one is a rehersal and the other is a "spring dance concert"(at school they have to be formal and call it that). also along with the "spring dance concert" for drama we are doing a musical scene for drama within the concert. the song is "Summer Nights" from "Grease" and we really have to work on the scene to polish it up. but most of the rehersal time for my other dance recital is very difficult because we are never all together in order to reherse and so we have timing problems. the thing that really gets me is i dedicate myself to dance and drama and so do my teachers yet the people who volenteer for these things seem not to care. like it will all fall in place at the last minute. well in most instances it doesn't, and the people who work hard are always the ones who seem to get screwed over. anyway that really bothers me.

April 11

Waiting for vacation is a drag this short week is turning out to take forever! I can't wait just to be able to sleep in, of course that won't happen till next monday(::sigh::). Today i kept thinking it was the end of the week and i'm lucky it was just a half day(not to mention i'm struggling under sleep depervation), i guess it is the week just throwing me off i can't wait till the hollidays.......all i gotta find is a prom date.

April 8

Dude i had the best time at Abby youth fest, at st. benedict's seminary. Matt Smith from the real world new orleans spoke and he is an AWESOME speaker. and my year was made when i got him to turn my ring and got his signature on my ring list(pics coming soon). he is really a down to earth kinda guy and it seemend like he still can't believe his is that famous. Anyway the day consisted with about 2,200 youth from 7 different states and we all had a rocking time just worshiping the lord. besides the fact we all had sunburns by the end of the day the day was excellent. the theme was "Catholic Survivor Outpray, outgrow and outlove". the day started with speakers a mass, followed by matt smith's talk, a vocational call, a concert, and ended with an awesome benadiction service. we didn't get home till midnight, but it was still very awesome!!! and i hope i am able to go again next year. more on this to follow the next time (because i'm running out of it -time that is)

April 2

The reading this sunday about the women who was going be stoned for adultry. When Jesus said "Let the one among you who is without sin be the first to throw a stone at her"(John 8:7) makes you think about how many "stones" you may have thrown at people and weather or not you have the true "right" to throw that stone at someone. I know personally i have cast stones at people whether or not they knew it or not and now after an examination of conscience i relize how wrong i was for that. "Casting stones" comes in more than just a form of visible abuse it also comes in the form of verbal and even abuse that is thought (but in my opinion it only counts if acted apon). Example you meet someone and they don't seem to be the nicest person (but hey you could give off that impression) in the world, and you decide to aviod them. Then you start talking to them, and your ideas are changed by how much you could have missed. That thought could have cost you what could be a life long friendship. So i try my hardest but i'm still human.

March 22

I love ministry work. Not evangelism, but just sharing my experiences and helping other just to understand my religion. I'm really excited about this weekend, our youth group is holding our annual retreat this weekend and it always gives me new material to work with whenever i am posed with a question about my faith. Also i grow alot on this retreat so i'm really looking forward to it. Yesterday i spoke to some 7th graders and i was really unprepared so i didn't have too much material planned so i hope to gain more information for next year. But i'm gonna have fun!!!!!

March 19

I hate writers block. Trying to get through it is so hard, all you can do is think of small phrases that you have a hard time fitting them in place. Also since i am somwhat of a perfectionist(especially in my writing) i can't just slap some words on a piece of paper and call it "art" it has to be perfected to the last detail. but anyway i'm gonna keep trying.

March 16
don't you hate it when you have so much energy, then you sit down for like 2 seconds and all the energy drains from your body. that is basically how i feel now. we got done with our comedy cabaret II tonight and then i went to my very go friends laura and megan's party then on the ride home i just was drained of all energy. on another note i hate it whenever i get my self so worked up either hoping to see someone or hoping to get and email from that person and then they don't show or don't even write. I'm really kinda hopeless, don't you hate it when the one night you are not really looking for anyone that is when you meet someone. you talk to them for a while and all of a sudden you feel as if they have forgotten all about you. I don't know maybe it is a very active imagination i have but I HATE IT!!!!and that is all for today. just thought i'd throw that out there. p.s. i was very tired when i wrote this.

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